The Invisible Mystery

Chapter 29: Hesitation and Her Choice

A day has passed ever since that fateful morning had happened—that time that I had finally accepted to help all of them to cross the afterlife, just like what they wanted to do, and in that span of a day, I was thinking about what we could possibly do to fulfill their requests for me to help them.

I tried to think of every possible thing that I could do to help all of them to cross the afterlife, but then again, it seemed as though I could not think of anything that could resolve our problem as of this moment—well, it was not until I had remembered something that they had said to me the first moment that they had said their requests for me to help all of them.

If I had remembered clearly, they think that Willow had managed to cross the afterlife because she had already managed to fulfill her one last wish on this world. She had managed to fulfill the thing that she wanted to do in this world, and maybe, that was the reason why she had managed to cross the afterlife.

“What if it was also the same for the other students of Section A?” I whispered to myself as I continued to stare up at the ceiling of my cabin.

I kept on thinking about that ‘what if’ I had thought about, because if it was really the case, then we might really be able to pull this off. We might really be able to find out the answer to our problems as of this moment, and I might really be able to help them in crossing the afterlife.

What if this was really the answer? What if they really had to fulfill their one last wish so that they would be able to leave this place, peacefully?

My eyes widened because of the sudden realization that I had. My heart pounded because I thought that this could be the answer to the problem that we had—because I really think that this was really the ‘truth’ that we have been looking for ever since yesterday.

And because I got really excited about what I had suddenly realized, I immediately got up from my bed and I excitedly went out of my way to find where they were and tell them what I thought would be the best choice for us as of that moment.

After all, there was no harm in trying. We could use this opportunity to try and test if it was really the answer that we have been looking for, and with that, they would be able to leave this world and cross into the afterlife.

The smile that I had suddenly faded because of what I had suddenly thought, and I did not know why, but suddenly, there was a sudden heavy feeling inside my heart. It was as if something had suddenly stopped me from being happy with what I had thought of as a solution, and I could not seem to point out why I had suddenly felt that way.

Maybe it was because I think that I had already become so attached to all of them, that was why I think that I would be lonely once they were all gone? Or maybe, there was something else that was why I have been feeling like this kind of way.

The excited walk that I had earlier had suddenly become slower as my mind kept on thinking about it. I could not seem to erase it inside my head, and it kept on going and going up until this time.

It was kind of selfish for me , but suddenly, I did not like the thought that they would leave this place—this world. I suddenly thought that it was not the greatest choice anymore, even though I already knew that they had been waiting for this time to come for almost five years now.

I was just thinking about it, but I could not seem to bear the thought that I would be left behind once all of them would leave this world—that I would once again be lonely, because the friends that I had managed to have were not supposed to be living any longer.

I let out a sigh as I looked up at the sky as though I did not want to think that my tears would fall at this kind of time. I did not want to think that I was already hurt by those thoughts, even though we still have not fully realized what we had to do in order for them to leave this world.

Isn’t it selfish of me to think that I wanted to be on their side for as long as I could? Even though I already knew that it would never really happen? Would it be hard for me to wish that, for once, I wanted to keep them because they were the only people that I had managed to become so close in this way?

Why does it suddenly feel like it was so hard to let them go? Why does it feel like I did not want to do this any longer, just because I wanted to hold onto them for as long as I could? Why does it suddenly feel like I did not want to do this anymore?

“Liana!”

I almost jumped because of that certain someone who suddenly called my name out of nowhere, or should I say that I just did not notice that he had called my name because I was thinking so deeply about the things that I needed to do for them.

I looked around to see who was the one that had called my name, and I immediately tried to calm myself down when I saw that it was Evo, who was looking at me as though he was concerned about me because of what he had seen on my face as of that moment.

“What happened to you?” he asked me, concern was evident in his voice. “I have been calling your name countless times but you were not responding.”

He even asked if I was alright and if something or someone was bothering me, but then again, I did not know if I should really tell him the truth or not. I did not know if I should tell him what had suddenly bothered me this time, because I already knew how much they wanted to go and accept everything that had happened to them.

I had already seen in their eyes how much they wanted to fulfill every single thing that they wanted to do in this world, so that they could cross the afterlife. I had already witnessed how much they envied that Willow had managed to cross the afterlife—that one thing they had been trying for the last five years, ever since that incident had happened.

That’s right. They have been waiting for this to happen. They have been trying countless things just so they would be able to fulfill their promises. They had been thinking about this for a long time, and they knew that it was already time for them to let go of everything that had been stopping them.

They had been anticipating this moment to come, and I knew that I did not have any choice but to accept the fact that they had to say goodbye. After all, they were not supposed to be here any longer.

They were supposed to be gone a long time ago, and I did not have any choice but to accept that—I did not have any choice but to make myself accept that I had to let them go someday.

And I guessed that someday would come sooner than I had anticipated.

“Hey! I don’t think that you are really alright,” I heard Evo say to me once again, which made me snap out of my thoughts as I focused my attention solely on him alone.

I even shook my head as I tried to muster up a smile, as I said to him, “It is nothing. I was just thinking about the way that we can help you guys to cross the afterlife, which I had thought about earlier,” which was half the truth because it was really the reason why I had suddenly drifted off from my thoughts.

I saw how his eyes sparkled because of what I had said, and I knew at that moment that I really had to do this, even though there was a slight hesitation in my heart.

I really had to help them, because they have been waiting for this to happen.