After that sleepless night, because I literally did not sleep a wink nor even let my eyes close for a brief second as my mind kept on thinking about the things that made me feel awake for the whole night. It made me feel tired and my head even ached, but then again, I did not have any choice because all of my thoughts would never let me keep my silence - it never leave me in peace, which made me feel tired now.
It felt like I was in daze. I did not even know where to go, or should I say I did not even want to go out of my room because I was so afraid of what I was supposed to find out, because I was so afraid of what I was about to see once I did so.
I did not know why I was feeling like that. I did not know why, but somehow, it felt like the people around, the people whom I claimed was so close to me, would distance themselves because of that question that I asked them the night before, and because of the call that Evo had received that up until now, I was still not able to figure anything out.
I was still clueless and I did not know what to do. I did not know where to start investigating, and I feared that I never wanted to see nor hear the truth. I feared that it might be the reason why these happy moments that I had with them would them. I feared that once I found out the truth and all the things that I did not know up until now, they would distance themselves to me - or rather should I say I might be the one who would do that.
I did not want to think of that way, but I could not stop myself from doing so. I could not help but to think that would really happen sooner or later, which made my heart sunk because I never liked the idea that this would be the cause of the downfall of the closeness that I had established with them. I never wanted to think that this would be the reason why I had to face the painful thought that we would all fall apart once everything would come to light.
I let out a sigh as I started to get dressed for the day. I even looked at the dark circles under my eyes, which was the very first time that had ever happened to me because i have always make sure that I am well rested for another day - though that had never happened the night before because I kept on thinking about that call and the strange act that the other six had done right after I had asked them those things.
i had to do something. Even though I was reluctant about too many things, I knew that I had to do something about this. I had to find out the truth because it really felt like this was not just a normal situation. I fully believed that this was far from being normal, and that was also the reason why I could not back down on finding out the truth.
Even though I was so scared, and even though it felt like I never really wanted to know anything at all, I still knew that I did not have any choice but to find out the truth. I knew that I had to do something about it, because it seems like it would take them a long time even before they would tell me the truth.
I knew that it would take them a long time to open up to me, whatever the secret they have been hiding from me. I even think that they would never really tell me anything at all, not until I confront them about the truth.
That was why I wanted to do this. That was why I wanted to investigate and find out the truth, because it seems like it was the only way for me to know everything that I did not know about before. It seems like it was the only way for me to remove this confusion inside my head, as well as the fear inside my heart.
I let out a sigh once again as I finally opened the door of my cabin, even though I was still a bit hesitant to go out of my room. I even went on my way and prepared myself on what I was about to do, because, really, I did not know if this was still right or not.
I did not know if I was still on the right track, but then again, I knew that I did not have any choice but to do something about this because it really felt like there was something that was pushing me and telling me that I had to do something in order for me to find out everything that I wanted to know.
And that was what I had planned to do. I am planning to find out the truth now, because I knew that it I would not do it early, I would just bound to pass up the chance that I had as of this moment. I knew that I was just bound to fail if I would not move now.
I walked outside of my cabin, with a careful steps. I honestly did not know where I should go and where I should start, but then again, I must say that I should just grab a small breakfast first because I really did not know where and when I should start finding something about this thing.
I walked up on the cafeteria, and I frowned when I have seen that I was the only person inside. No one, not even the staffs of the adventure nor the students who came here, were inside the cafeteria.
It was almost like I was the only one inside. It was almost like a deserted place, without anyone inside, and if I would describe it like a scene in a movie, I must say that it was like those abandoned place that a ghost would appear any time from now.
I did not want to think of that way, because I already knew that it would just add up with the fear that I was feeling as of this moment, but then again, I could not help myself because I really think that it was almost like the scenes that I have watched before.
I walked inside the cafeteria, carefully, as though I was afraid that someone might suddenly appear out of nowhere. I even flinched when I heard a loud sound somewhere outside the cafeteria, but the moment that I looked behind me, I let out a sigh when I saw that it was just some stray dogs that were inside the Lost Soul’s Forest.
It made me stand up straight as I even slapped myself as though I wanted to wake up from all of these b*llshits. I did not stop, not until I felt that my cheeks were getting sore of what I have been doing.
“Wake up, Liana,” I told to myself as I slapped both of my cheeks for the last time, and looked straight ahead with a determined expression on my face. “You have a goal right now. A goal that you have to achieve in any way that you can think of.”
I had to find the truth. I had to do something, and I knew that I would never be able to do that if I would let my fear get better of me. I would never be able to do any single thing at all if I would let my fear consume everything inside of me.
“I had to find something about it, something about them,” I whispered to myself once again, determined to really do just that and not anything else.
With that, I just grabbed a small breakfast that was available in the cafeteria, even though I still clearly did not know why I was the only one inside of it - though I never thought about it, thoroughly any longer because all I wanted to do was to finish this up and find out the truth, the truth that I did not know if I could take it once I would really find it out.
I ate, hurriedly, as though I was afraid that I would get caught, even though I was not doing anything yet and even though all I was doing was to eat the breakfast that I knew was really meant for us.
I did not know if it was because of my lack of sleep that was why I was doing something like that, or something else, but then again, I did not also give any single care about it any longer because I thought that all I had to focuse as of this moment was on finding out the truth and nothing else.
I went out of the cafeteria as soon as I was finished eating and throwing all the things that I used on the trash can. I started walking towards the cabins where those six were staying because I wanted to find them first as I found it odd that I have never seen any of them in the cafeteria earlier.
I walked and walked, until I reached the area on where their cabin was located - it was not actually too far from my own, but then again, the moment that I took a step on where it was, I frowned when I saw that no one was really around the place.
I must have not noticed that earlier because I was too anxious over too many things, but as of this moment, I have seen that it was like I was the only one inside this park and no one else. It felt like wherever they had gone to, they would not come any time soon.
It really felt like it, because even though I have scanned the whole place for another time, and another one again, I still have not seen anyone at all. It was like I was all alone and I did not know if it was a good thing or not, because I knew that I would be able to freely investigate all around the place if they were not here.
I looked around once again to confirm if I was indeed the only person present in this part as of this moment, and when I indeed confirmed that I was the only one here, something came into my mind, which I did not know was the right thing or not.
I stopped walking for a moment as I thought what if... What if I would go inside their rooms just to check something out? What if I found something inside their rooms? Though I must say that I knew that it was inappropriate.
I knew that it would never be right that I would do something like this, but then again, I also did not know why it felt like something was pushing me on doing it. It seems like something had urged me to do something like that - to check if I would find something about them inside, to check the truth that they have been keeping on me all this time.
I did not know why, but I just found myself walking towards the door in front of me. It was the cabin that was designated for Winter - I knew because I checked their places first before I went to my own the night before.
It was not because I have thought of this. I was not because I have thought of going inside their rooms, but I figured that it might be helpful for me if I knew where they were staying. I figured that I might find something about it, though I must say that I did not know where to start the night before, when I thought that I should really do something about this, about them.
I let out a sigh once again, as though I was preparing myself, before I slowly went on that cabin. I was so careful as though I was too afraid that someone might see me doing something like this, even though I meant no harm and would not do anything, hastily.
I slowly walked towards her cabin and held the doorknob, thinking that it mighr be locked, but I got shocked when I found out that it was not. It even made my heart pound as I did not know if the fate was just playing with me or if it really wanted for me to succeed on finding out the truth.
I was shaken up as I did not know if I should still continue or not, but then again, I still get over it as I opened the door, completely, and went inside as though I wanted to check something out - as though I think that I would find a thing or two inside of the room.
I slowly walked inside the room, careful that I might cause a large sound that would make them realize what I have been doing, careful that I might get caught going inside a room that was not even mine - though I meant no harm while I am doing something like this.
Still, I walked inside, carefully, and I even closed the door without making a sound. And as soon as I confrimed that I was still the only one around the place, I did not hesitate to look at every single side of the room.
After all, I was already inside. I had already initiated this thing, even though I promised that I would not do something like this in my life. I never really thought that I would one day do somehting like this, but then again, I really did not have any choice as I already knew that I should do something about this - if I wanted to find out the truth, that is.
I started to look around the room, rummaging to every single storage that I could see, but I frowned and got confused when I realized something. I even checked out the other places that I think she would store all of her things, but I frowned when I saw that there was really nothing inside of her room.
It was like she was never been here. It was almost as if all the things that she had brought inside the park was not around, and I doubt that I would find anything inside of this room. I doubt that I would be able to see where she had kept all her things.
I even checked the bathroom and the bed, but I still could not find anything at all. I still could not find any single thing as though there was no one occupying this room. It was as though no one ever used this room, never.
I stopped as I started to think, but then again, a question suddenly popped inside my mind as I had realized something. It was a question that I thought was too absurd but I also knew was not far from the truth.
Could it be... Could it be the same situation as the other people that went here? Could it be that when I would open up their cabins, I would find the same thing?
My heart pounded when I realized that. My eyes even widened as though I could not believe that I have thought that, and I did not know why I could not keep it out of my mind. I could not seem to remove that thought, even though it was too absurd to be true.
I was hesitating if I should also check the other rooms, just like what I had done to Winter’s room, but then again, I could not really shake off the thought that it might really be the case that was why I did not hesitate any longer.
I starfted to check out cabin after cabin, and I did not even care if someone had found out what I have been doing, because as time goes by that I was checking every single cabin that they were supposed to occupy, my heart was pounding even more than before because of fear and worry.
I kept on checking every single side of the room, every single furniture that I think would be a place that they could keep their things. I kept on checking every single thing that I could see inside their cabins, just to check if there were any signs that they had stayed there, just to check if I was wrong and was just assuming things.
I was just doing that, even though my heart was pounding even more than before as time goes by, but then, the moment that I went out of the fifth cabin that I had checked out, I sat on the dirt, slowly, as though I suddenly felt weak because of what I had found out.
“It was the same...” I whispered to myself, mindlessly, as I stared at nothing in particular as though I was already losing my mind.