The Invisible Mystery

Chapter 21: Too Hard to Believe

I looked at Evo with a confused look on my face. I was frowning at him while I was looking straight into his eyes as though I wanted to see something behind that serious expression that I could see on my face - something that would tell me that what I had heard earlier was not the truth and would never be one.

After all, it was really impossible to be the truth. Even though it had already came from his own mouth, I still could not believe it. Even though he had already confirmed that what I had heard from his mother, I still could not help but to doubt that it was really the truth that I wanted to know.

I still could not help myself from thinking that it was only a scheme that was meant for me to believe, though as of this moment, as I looked deep into his eyes, I already knew that he was really serious about this. It was as though he wanted me to know that what he was saying was the truth, and only the truth. It was as though he had already expected that I would still have a hard time on believing anything at all, that was why he had prepared himself to look at me with that kind of expression on his face.

I wanted to back away once again. I wanted to run away from him for the second time around, but then again, I already knew that nothing would change if ever I did that. I knew that it would still be the same, because as time goes by that I was only looking at him, I could not help but to think that maybe, just maybe, I was only being in denial.

Maybe, it was really the truth, and I was only having a hard time believing every single thing that I had found out these past few days. Maybe, it was really the secret that they wanted to keep from me, as they were having a hard time telling me anything at all, though I could already tell why they were really trying to keep it away from me.

It seems like they had already expected this. They had already anticipated that I would react like this way to the secret that they badly wanted to keep away from me, that was why it had come to this way. It had gotten to the point that they all thought that they could keep it from me once and for all, though little did they knew, secrets were meant to be unfold sooner or later.

But then again, even though that was really the case, even though I knew that was their reason that was why they had kept this all from me, I still could not help it. I still could not help but to think that this was only a huge prank that was intended for me. I still could not help but to doubt if what he had just said to me was only the truth that I wanted to find.

I subconsciously backed away from me as I said, “I am sorry, Evo, but I could not help but to think that this was too impossible to be the truth.” I looked at him straight into his eyes as I did not bother to hide the confusion on my face any longer.

He took a step towards me as I saw an unexplainable glint on his eyes, and that made me back away from him once again - even though I was trying to stop myself from doing so. Even though I was trying to think rationally because I did not want to repeat the same mistake twice anymore. I never liked the idea that I would cage myself away from them because of this.

I did not want to turn my back to them, because they were the people that became my second home when I needed help.

I shook my head as though I wanted to wake myself up, from this dream, if ever this was really only a dream. I wanted to make myself believe that it was only a part of my imagination, but whenever I looked at him, I could tell that I was only f*oling.

I was only trying to make myself believe, even though he wanted me to know that this was the truth that they had kept from me. I was trying to run away, even though I already knew and had come to a conclusion that was telling me that this was the secret that I wanted to unfold.

“Liana...” I tried so hard not to flinch when I heard him call my name with that soft voice of his.

It was as though when I had heard the truth from his own mouth, from Evo, it made me scared about him. It made me feel frightened, even though I was still a bit hesitant if this was indeed the truth that I wanted to know or if it was really a scheme that has been set for me.

“I know it was hard to believe,” he said to me, and I did not realize that he was already right in front of me as he put his forehead on mine as though he wanted calm down - as though it was enough for me to clear my racing thoughts.

I looked down as though I did not want to see his face. I just continued to stare at anything other than him, but I could tell that what he was doing as of this moment made me feel calm even if it was only for a while. It made helped me clear my racing thoughts, though I was still thinking of every single thing that I had heard from him.

“I know that just like what you have said to me, it is too impossible to be the truth.” There was softness in his voice, a calm tone that I have never heard from him before, as I felt his eyes on me, but still, I did not look up.

I did not dare to look up because I was afraid of what I was about to do. Afraid that I would run away once again. Afraid that for the second time around, I would do something that would worsen the situation - something that would make me go away from them, from the people whom I wanted to care even after all this time.

“I know that this is too hard to believe,” he whispered to me as I felt his hand on my cheek, which made me finally look up to him, straight into his eyes and the thought that I had earlier - the thought that I would ran away from him if I would see his face - it was suddenly gone.

It was gone and was replaced by the sudden calmness that I felt. It was as though for the first time in those days that I was so confused over so many things, it was suddenly gone and it was all because of him.

It because of Evo, of the sincerity in his eyes, of the expression that he had on his face as of this moment that we were so close like never been before. On this close proximity that no one even dared to do because I got easily anxious about it, but to him, to this man in front of me, it felt like it was just a normal thing for me to do.

It felt like it was just alright for me to be this close to him. It felt like I could relax while I was on his arms. It felt like I could look straight into his eyes without the fear that I would do something that could make them leave me all alone without the thought of coming back.

He smiled at me as he saw that I finally looked up at his face, then he carressed my cheek as though he wanted to calm me down once again. It was as though he still knew that I was still a bit anxious over so many things, and this was what he thought to do in order for me to relax a little.

“I know that you were having a hard time processing every single thing that I had said to you, as well as the things that you had found out that day.” I did not know, but I leaned onto his touch as I wanted to close my eyes and just feel him, but I stopped myself from doing so as I already knew that this was not the right time for me to do that. This was not the right time for me to feel like this way, when we have a problem at hand. “So I will give you some time to think about it.”

He smiled a little, though I already knew that he was only doing that because he wanted to mask up the sadness that he was feeling. I knew, because I have seen how a sudden emotion flashed onto his eyes for a second and it was suddenly gone as though it was only my imagination.

I knew, because I was well accustomed with that kind glint onto someone’s eyes. I knew because I had seen that countless of times before.

It was that glint of sadness in his eyes, a glint that I never noticed to any one of them before - a glint that I never thought I would ever see on them before because I have always thought that they were those kind of people who would always smile even though they had faced something.

I thought that I would never see it on his eyes, but then again, there it was. I had caught it and that made me think that he was in pain for too long. He was facing this kind of problem for too long, and that made him want to hide it away, even if the person he was with was me.

That made me wonder. That made me think if it was also the same for the other students of Section A. That made me wonder if they were also like this way, keeping their true emotions on themselves because they already knew that no one would take them seriously - because they knew that the people they were with would have a hard time believing their true existence in this world.

“I will never ask you to believe me that easily, because I know how much crazy our situation was,” he said, which made me snap out of my thought as I looked up at him with a serious expression on my face. “I will never pressure you on believing every words that I said, but I want to say that what I had said earlier was really the truth about us - the truth that you wanted to know.”

I was about to open my mouth to speak. I was about to say something to him, but then again, I just foregone the thought that I would say those words, and I only nodded my head as though I understood him - as though I would be able to accept the truth in no time, though I doubt that it would be that easy for me to accept everything that I had come to know on this place, on the Lost Soul’s Forest.

He went away from me once he saw that I had nodded my head, before he gave me a smile that made me feel something that I had never felt before - a feeling that I never had an idea on what I should call because I was really clueless about this.

“Let us go to where they are,” he suddenly said to me once again, which made me look up at him with a frown on my face though I never said anything at all. He laughed a little as he suddenly messed my hair, which made me pout as I tried to fix it. “What I mean is we should go back to our other classmates because they might get worried about us. And I think that you still needed to relax a little, because I knew that there were too many thoughts that was running into your mind as of this moment.”

He walked ahead of me, and I just watched his back for a little while before I followed him behind as I had seen how he suddenly slowed down his phase as though he wanted me to catfch up on him.

He smiled to me once again as I finally caught his phase, before we started to go on the place where the other five are having a celebration - a celebration that up until now, I still could not understand why they were doing that.

“I still have so many questions, you know?” I whispered to him, as I focused my gaze on the path that we were taking.

I could feel his gaze, but I never done anything other than looking down at the path that we were walking through. It was as though I was still afraid to look at him, even though he had literally tried to calm me down earlier by making me look straight into his eyes.

“I know,” he said, and I knew that those two words held so much meaning to him - as well as to me.

I knew that those words was meant for me to know that he would answer my questions once I had already cleared my mind. I knew that he meant to say that he was open to any question that I would ask him, and I knew that even though he was not saying it, I knew that the other five would also be open with the questions that was still left unanswered on my mind.

We walked to the very same path that we took earlier, when he had decided to tell me everything that he knew. We walked silently, though it was not the same as before. The silence between us as of this moment was not that awkward, unlike earlier that I had too many things that has been running on my mind.

It seems like what he had done earlier really helped me calm down, even though it only lessen the confusion that I felt. It made me feel a little relaxed, and I was not that bothered by the thoughts that was on my mind any longer.

I let out a sigh as I looked straight ahead as though I had already given up the thought that I needed to stress myself out by everything that I was doing. It was as though all I wanted to do was to clear my mind first, just like what Evo had wanted me to do, so that the moment that I would ask them a question, I would finally accept the truth.

We reached the place where the other five was celebrating while I was thinking like that, and the moment that I had looked up on the bonfire where they were still dancing around, it made me feel excited as I wanted to go along with them and have fun because it felt like I was so drained by everything that I had heard these past few days.

“You should go,” Evo suddenly said as though he had seen the way I was longing for going on where they were.

I looked at him as I frowned once again and asked, “What about you?”

He only smiled at me as though he wanted me to know that he did not want to go and dance around the bonfire, though before he could even say that to me, we had both looked behind us as we had suddenly heard a familiar voice.

“Yeah! What about you, Evo?” Cloud suddenly shouted as he draped his hands on Evo’s shoulder, which made me wonder if he was indeed Cloud or another person because this was the first time that I ever seen him like that. “You should go along with us! Don’t ever think that you will be a killjoy now!”

Evo let out a sigh as he was about to say something to Cloud, but then, he never had a chance to do so as he was dragged towards the bonfire. I could hear his protests, which made me let out a smile as I looked at him and saw that he had reluctantly danced around the bonfire.

“You should go too, Liana!” Winter suddenly appeared out of nowhere, which made me feel shock as I felt that I was also being dragged towards the bonfire.

She suddenly danced around when she had seen that she had succeeded on dragging me on their antics, with a smile on her face that I have never seen before. She looked so happy as she was clapping around and laughing with our classmates.

I did not notice when a smile was suddenly formed on my lips, and I only noticed that I was also dancing around the bonfire and was laughing alongside with them when Winter had suddenly went to me.

I did not care about it though. I did not stop myself from smiling and laughing around because it felt like it has been a while ever since I had felt like this way. It has been a while ever since I felt this alive.

It has been a while ever since I had felt this happy.