(Jordan’s POV)
I tried to focus on my painting but my mind kept wandering.
“What if he really does want to be with me? No, there’s no way he would want anything to do with me. But what if he does?”
Would just knock it off with the self doubt bullshit?
Madison, you don’t understand. I’m not someone that people find attractive or desirable.
You do realize that Jonathan has been staring at you the whole period? Well, he’s been staring at your ass the whole period.
What!?!? Oh my Goddess, I’m so embarrassed right now!!!
Why though? He’s your mate, he’s going to be attracted and aroused by you. That’s how it works.
Aroused!?
Duh! A part of being mates is, you know, mating. Did you honestly think that if you are going to accept and be with Jonathan that you’re going to stay a virgin.
Um, well, I never truly thought about it and now I’m even more freaked out.
Jordan, you can’t be afraid of your mate. He’s offering you the love you always wished for. Also, stop being afraid of s*x. He’s not going to hurt you, he will take care of you in every way you need him to.
How can you be so sure?
It’s the mate bond. He will be what you need from him and you’ll do the same. You won’t even know you’re doing it. It comes naturally.
This is all so foreign to me.
Just have faith in yourself and your mate. I promise it will work out.
Madison retreated to the back of my mind after that. I tried to focus on my work but it was hard when I was still pretty shell shocked by the events so far today. Just then, the bell rang for lunch which snapped me out of my thoughts. I quickly put all my stuff away and was about to leave when I noticed Jonathan still in the classroom with me.
“Are you waiting for me?” I asked curiously.
“Of course. I was hoping to walk together and maybe sit together.” He said rather innocently.
“Um, I don’t know about sitting at your table....”
“Why not beautiful?”
“Kelly.”
“Oh, that’s right. Well, I can come sit with you at your usual table.”
“You really want to sit with me and Zoey Moore at the ‘loser’ table??”
“I want to be wherever you are baby, believe me.”
“I mean, if you really wanna be seen with us, then go for it.”
“Of course I do.” He flashed me a smile and then proceeded to walk next to me.
I knew as soon as we walked out of the classroom, everything was gonna hit the fan. Everyone was going to see Jonathan and I together and there was going to be a lot of people looking and probably some that would be mad to see us together. Like Kelly. I knew she was going to freak out about me of all people being mated to Jonathan.
Kelly had a crush on Jonathan, that was obvious. Kelly turned 18 in August and didn’t find her mate so she held out hope that it was because Jonathan was her mate. But when December rolled around and Jonathan turned 18, she quickly realized they weren’t fated at all. She’s been on a total b***h rampage for the last 10 days since his birthday trying to keep every female away from him in hopes he wouldn’t find his mate.
On top of her obsession with Jonathan, Kelly had a deep disdain for me. The reason being was that I wasn’t born into this pack, but adopted in by my aunt and uncle. My parents were from another pack and after losing them, my Aunt Dory took me in without hesitation. Aunt Dory was my mom’s sister and entered the Blue River pack after finding Uncle Jeff to be her mate. Because of my orphaning, adoption, and birth to another pack, I was seen as lowest on the totem pole by most ranked members. Alpha Adam accepted me into the pack when my aunt brought me in but many other members have not.
Kelly, being born of Beta blood, looked down on me and bullied me worse than anyone else had. Most of the others just left me alone but not Kelly. She made it her mission everyday to make me feel as if I was the same level as a rouge but I was orphaned by my parents. I knew that coming out as Jonathan’s mate was going to stir up a lot of hatred in Kelly.
We walked out of the classroom and down the hallway. There wasn’t a whole lot of people in the hallway but I knew there was going to be plenty in the cafeteria. My stomach started to do flips and my face felt hot as we approached the cafeteria. I was petrified at the thought of people looking at me. I always spent my life blended into the background because my pedigree in this pack was less than desirable. I was the lowest level Omega in this pack that for some reason was mated to the future Alpha and it was bound to cause an uproar and a lot of backlash on Jonathan’s decision to accept me.
As we walked in, the room instantly fell silent and all eyes were on us. I instantly went pale and my mouth was so dry that I was struggling to even breathe. Jonathan looked down at me and saw the state I was in. He gently put his hand on my shoulder which for some reason brought me instant comfort.
“I’ll go get our lunch and you go sit down at your usual table. I’ll be right there, beautiful.” He spoke in a calm and gentle tone. I nodded my head and headed to the table where I was met with a wide-eyed Zoey.
“What in the hell is going on Jordan Rae?” Zoey said in a shocked and questioning tone.
“Um, well, I might have found my mate....” I spoke hesitantly.
“Wait?! What?!?! Who?!? Oh! f**k Wait! Oh my Goddess!!! Jonathan?!?! Is it Jonathan?!?!” She stumbled and choked on every word.
“Why are you more shocked than I am?”
“I’m not. I always knew it, remember. I’m just so happy I was right!”
“Quit yelling. You’re making an even bigger scene.”
“I’m so jealous! I wish I had a super sexy God-like man for a mate. I can’t even imagine how good he’d be in bed.”
“Ugh, Zoey, do us both a favor and stop talking.”
“Oh come on Jordan, loosen up a bit. I’m sure you will once he pops your cherry you’ll be less uptight.”
“Zoey! Knock it off!”
“Oh come on. You’re such a prude that sometimes I wonder if you’re even a werewolf.”
“Why do you wonder if she’s a werewolf?” Jonathan questioned as he returned to the table.
“Um, nothing. She was just being stupid.” I said quickly to cover up for Zoey.
“No, I said she was a huge, ginormous pride.” Zoey corrected. I shot her a look that clearly meant for her to shut up.
“How is she a prude?” Jonathan asked. I felt so uneasy in that moment that I wanted to crawl into a hole.
“Because she acts like a weirdo any time anything remotely s****l is brought up. She acts like s*x isn’t hardwired into her just like every other werewolf. It’s just our nature and seems to be afraid of it. She’s a serious, hardcore virgin.”
“ZOEY!” I yelled at her, my face on fire and red with anger. She quickly gave me a look of remorse but it was too late. I couldn’t handle being there anymore and I got up. I quickly turned and ran down the hallway and out of the school. I had to get away. I was so embarrassed and conflicted by all of this. I needed to get away. I got into my truck and drove away, leaving Zoey and Jonathan stunned at the lunch table.