It's Dark Outside

Goddesses On High

Ell’s P.O.V

        I hate airplanes.

        They just never sat well with me, and now we were in a tiny little plane hovering off to a Wulfkin village called Crimson Haven. After we left the Gathering we went home to repack and then fly to Alaska in the span of three days. I was still unsure on why we were going, but I knew better than to question Callum right now. Ever since I told them that over the past two days I’ve heard a voice in my head, Callum has become snippy. Terrified of what it could mean because I wasn’t a real Wulfkin like the rest of them, but I didn’t care about that. At the Gathering Jack made me see that there was nothing wrong with me just because I was different, and I liked that I wasn’t just like everyone else.

        Beside me, Jack was asleep holding my hand and me nearly in his lap. I can’t even count how many times I  look at him and pray to the Goddess that he ends up being my mate. I want him so bad. Everything in me does, but there is still that fear in the back of my mind that I already rejected him and we’ll never have the bond. I know can be just chosen mates and all. It just kind of sucks.

        Callum has been on edge since the news came in that our pack was one of the ones requested to appear in Alaska. We had thought it was just an invitation to celebrate and meet the new Luna Queen, but apparently it was misconstrued. The Triplet Kings of the Wulfkin requested our pack to join them and a few others in Alaska too deal with a rumor about rouges taking over all of Alaska, leaving only one pack left, Crimson Haven. Why the wanted us specifically, who knows. It was something I wanted to find out.

        “Your heart is pounding against your chest, Ell.”

        I glanced over to see Jack’s olive-green eyes open and gazing at me lovingly. “I can’t help it. I’m calm enough, but my body feels like it’s getting more tense the closer we get to landing. Something feel off, Jack.”

        He kissed the back of my hand. “Your stressing, yeah? You need to relax some.”

        “I know, I just can’t.” I said looking back out the window.

        The way the plane was set up we were kind of hidden from the rest of our little pack. Jack leaned in to place a kiss to my shoulder.

        “I know something that might help you relax?”

        Before I was able to say anything, I felt Jack’s free hand move in between my skin and my leggings. I sucked in a breath when I felt his finger graze over my c**t. His fingers moved in a rhythmic circle against my c**t, giving me an all over tingly feeling. I held back a moan when he picked up the speed, lips sucking at my neck teasingly. My stomach tightened, and I could feel him building my orgasm up.

        I opened my mouth, nearly unable to hold back the cry that wanted to escape. Jack’s hand quickly covered my mouth while his other worked its magic. In this position, I felt exposed and yet it was making me more turned on then I was expecting.

        “Jack…” I whispered nearly inaudibly.

        He chuckled against my skin. “It’s going to be hard to wait for your birthday, Ell. What I wouldn’t give right now to have you under me.”

        His s****l whisper sent a wave of pleasure through me, and with a shock to the system Jack inserted a finger, sending me right into my orgasm.

        “I’m…” My back arched against him as his finger moved in and out, making me ride my climax out.

        I finished and was one hundred percent positive my brothers were going to know what we did when we got out of the small space. I leaned back against Jack, feeling his thick shaft against my butt.

        “Do we have to wait for my birthday?” I whined.

        He nodded. “I don’t like the idea of f*****g a minor, Ell.”

        I rolled my eyes. “We’re wolves, does it matter?”

        “I was raised by human parent’s. It matters to me.” I said with a raised eyebrow.

        I sighed. “Okay, if it’s important to you, then it’s important to me.”

        Jack nodded. “Let’s hope your heat waits until after then. From what Callum said it’s going to be bad.”

        “I think everyone is overthinking it.” I said with a shrug.

        He shook his head. “We’re not, over the past two days your scent has already changed, Ell. You are emitting pheromones I’ve never encountered before, and quite honestly, no one else has either from what we’ve gathered.”

        “Pheromones? Like what?” I asked turning to be completely straddling his lap and facing him.

        Jack’s eyes flickered dark. “The pheromones your giving off, Ell, make me want to shred every piece of clothing you have and mate you right here without a care for your brothers or the pilot. To be so deep inside you that I have you screaming my name, knotting my hand in your hair while I sink my fangs into your soft skin at your neck. Sinking my c*m as far into you while seeing my mark and your center dripping for me. Me and my wolf want to claim you, and it’s a craving that is getting harder to suppress.”

        Hearing him saying those things to me made me blush a deep crimson color and between my legs tingle, ready for him as much as he’s ready for me. “Jack…”

        “We’re here!” The pilot called out, bringing our attention away from each other.

        “That means stop sucking face and doing whatever is it you two are doing back there and get ready to get out of the plane!” Callum called back to us.

        Jack snorted his amusement. “It wasn’t my face being sucked, Callum.”

        Callum let out an irritated growl. “Damnit, Mutt! If I hear another s****l thing about my sister I’m going to kill you!”

        Senan made a face. “Agreed.”

        I rolled my eyes. “You are the one that brought it up, Callum. Not us.”

        He huffed. “Why did the Moon Goddess give me such a mean-hearted sister?”

        “Because she loves you.” I said sarcastically.

        He said something back, but I couldn’t hear anything he was saying. I was listening to something else.

        ‘Can…hear…listen!’

        What the hell was that? It was a voice I didn’t recognize, a very delicate sweet voice.

        ‘Christelle?’

        Scared I covered my face in my hands and tried to forget I just heard a voice in my head.

        ‘No, don’t shut me out anymore. Your acceptance of yourself made me awaken. Please, don’t shut me out anymore.’ The voice pleaded.

        ‘How do I know I’m not just schizophrenic and talking to you isn’t feeding into my delusion?’ I asked, extremely skeptical of the voice in my head.

        The voice let out a sigh. ‘For seventeen years I’ve been locked up in your head because you never felt like you were good enough, that you didn’t have a wolf. Even though I was right here with you. You’ve finally opened your mind to me, and I want to connect with you.’

        ‘You’re my wolf spirit?’ I questioned.

        ‘Yes, my name is Erebus. Very, very long ago I was the Goddess of darkness and-‘

        ‘Wait.’ I interrupted. ‘Erebus was a guy, wasn’t he?’

        She huffed. ‘The humans made me a man in history because they could not understand the concept of me and another Goddess bearing children together.’

        Oh. ‘So, you were in love with a Goddess?’

        ‘Will you let me finish?’ She asked with another huff.

        I nodded and she continued my history lesson.

        ‘I was born at the same time as Nyx Goddess of the Night, and we did everything together. Even mated and bore children. She gave birth to the Omega’s, and I bore the Alpha’s. The other gods were jealous of our relationship and our thriving children on earth, so they split us apart and attached our essence to two souls of our children. Two hundred years went by, and then suddenly Nyx’s soul was reborn into a tiny unwanted baby. Three years after that we were born. I was weak and so tired, and your parents shunning the fact that their baby was different caused me to go into hiding. I figured why would you want me if our parents didn’t even think I was good enough. Then years went by and you grew to hate me, thinking you had no wolf. Then you met him, and everything changed. I’m ready to find Nyx and for us to be happy.’ Erebus finished.

        So, I did have a wolf the whole time? This was a lot of information to process, but one thing stuck out to me. ‘Erebus? If Nyx is your mate, then does that mean that Jack’s…not my mate?’

        ‘Oh, Ell, breath sweetheart. I’m still not sure if Jack is your mate, but my mate will forever be Nyx. Don’t worry, I’m sure everything will work out. No matter what happens, Nyx and I will be reunited in the next life after you and Nyx’s host pass into the heavens.’ Erebus said gently. If felt as if she was stroking my head.

        I smiled. ‘Will I be able to turn into a wolf now?’

        Erebus shook her head. ‘I’m afraid not. When we mature and find our mate, you will be blessed with more power than you have now, but you will never be able to fully turn into a wolf. I’m sorry, Ell.’

        I sighed. ‘Jack deserves someone who can turn and run like him. Run with him in the forest, connect in wolf form…I’ll never be able to give him that.’

        ‘Jack loves you for who you are, Ell. You don’t have to doubt yourself like this. It’s not healthy for us. Jack is a good man, strong, loyal, and protective. He’ll be a good Alpha of a pack one day.’ Erebus said comfortingly.

        I smiled just thinking about him. ‘I don’t want to be mates with any wolf, but him. What’s it going to feel like when we meet Nyx?’

        Erebus smiled warmly. ‘Wonderful. She is my mate, and will love us like we love her. You will feel it when we are close.’

        ‘What if Nyx’s host has a mate?’ I asked, feeling Jack bumping my arm.

        She shrugged. ‘I’m not mated to Nyx’s host, I’m mated to the spirit inside of the host. It’s a relationship I can’t even begin to describe, but will you let me take over when we find her?’

        I nodded. ‘Okay, I can do that, but only if it feels right.’

        ‘I hope she remembers me…’ Erebus whispered sadly before moving back.

        “Ell, love? We’re here, in the territory of the Three Kings.” Jack’s voice pulled me out of my thoughts and back to reality.

        We were here.