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Uncertainty

​Edward's POV

​I've revealed the truth to her. She is the first human I've willingly shown my second nature to. She read about werewolves, and now she knows they're real. And just as she promised, she believed me. I knew all she needed was proof, but I wasn't sure if it would be enough for her to stay with me. She's human, after all — even with tonnes of proof, they believe whatever they choose to believe.

​Ever since I shifted in her presence, our conversations have changed. We chat in the dining room now, unlike before. Our parents have noticed the small change in our conversations, but there's nothing to say about it. At school, we walk to class together, but that's it. Nothing else changes. In fact, since the day Ed took control, she has never mentioned it again.

​Aren't we mates? She said she would believe that she's my mate, so why is it only our conversation at home that's changed? In human terms, aren't we now boyfriend and girlfriend? Aren't we lovers? Everything changes with lovers. Why is it only our dialogue that has changed?

​I can't ask her, though. I can't ask her why we aren't holding hands, or hugging, or doing all the other things I want to do with my mate. I can't ask her why she's never allowed me to kiss her after that day under the stairs.

​'She said she would believe you. She did not say she would accept.' The second voice in my head, the one that has more conversations with me than Ed, has been telling me this countless times for the past five days. I can't get the sentences out of my head as they repeat on an automatic loop.

​I've tried not to listen. Not to ask Chloe if she accepts being mine. Saying "no" would mean she's rejected me, and not saying anything means she's punishing me.

​Was it a mistake that I showed her? No, it wasn't. She smiled. She laughed. She played with Ed. She rubbed his fur as she placed his head on her lap. In short, she loved him. So why isn't she behaving the same way towards the real Edward?

​My rival, Edgar, hasn't been seen at school since our last encounter. But he's here now. For some reason, I'm grateful for his presence. At least I'll find out if Chloe has accepted what I said or not. I need to know if she's deliberately acting this way and if she still has feelings for Edgar. I need to know her true intentions and feelings — she has been so good at hiding them from me that I don't know which are real and which aren't.

​But despite Edgar’s arrival, her emotions don't seem to have changed in the slightest. I said she's good at keeping her feelings, and she's just as good at expressing them if she wants to. She carries on with her usual school activities while I continue watching her throughout the school day.

​Just when I'm about to stop watching her and decide to leave the school for a drive to clear my head, I see Edgar walking towards our class. He has no business in there except for one person — Chloe.

​What is that bastard doing?

​I return to the class at speed, and my guess is correct. He's with Chloe, leaning over the desk in front of her, and all the students' eyes are on them. I can hear some of them whisper, 'Is she the only girl in the school?' 'She's not even that pretty. Why are the handsome guys swarming around her like bees over honey?' They all seethe with jealousy. But I couldn't care less about what they're saying. I care more about what Edgar is doing with Chloe and how Chloe will react to him.

​I stay at the door, watching the situation about to unfold. Fortunately for me, the class is unusually quiet with only low murmurs here and there. This is also to my advantage because she won't notice that I'm there, and everyone is waiting to see what will happen. They all want to listen to what the bastard Edgar has to say to Chloe — my mate, who shouldn't even give him a chance to talk to her.

​Chloe turns her head to where my seat is, checking to see if I'm there. That action brings an inexplicable feeling out of me. I'm neither angry nor okay. Why is she checking if I'm at my seat? Is it so that she can have the chance to talk to Edgar? Or is it out of fear of me? I don't know. I don't know if she wants me. I don't know if she doesn't. I don't know what to feel anymore. But I do know how to act. I won't just stand by and disregard everything I've seen. She needs to tell me how she feels. And I know that I won't take "no" for an answer. Never.

​"Edgar, where have you been? You haven't been in school for a few days. I hope all is well?" I can hear Chloe ask with concern, and that only intensifies my anger, but I wait to see what happens next.

​I could just storm into the class, grab Chloe's hand, and walk away. But I don't want to do that. Our frequent arguments just stopped, and I'm not ready to cause another one.

​"Are you caring for me?" Edgar mumbles with a smirk, and I can feel my blood begin to boil. "I'm fine. Just had a couple of situations at home. But it's alright now. Thanks for asking," he says with a genuine smile, and I want to punch him for that.

​"Should we go somewhere with fewer eyes? I've missed my only friend, and I want to spend some quality time with you," he says, and Chloe smiles. She's about to get up from her seat to follow Edgar to wherever he's planning to go when I mind-link him.

​"Get out," I send my message to him, and he stops the hand that was about to help Chloe get up from her seat.

​"I thought you weren't going to say a word. You've been standing there for a while now," he says in a mocking tone.

​"Don't toy with me, Edgar! Leave her alone!" I retort, and I can see his smirk, which is irritating me even more. But he has no intention of leaving Chloe alone. He goes ahead and helps her move the desk he was resting on earlier for her to get some space to stand, but she doesn't get up from her seat, a different reaction to her initial one.

​No doubt, Edgar is the weapon fashioned against me. It's not my rival pack. Not my wolf. But Edgar.

​"I don't think I can go with you, Edgar," she says, and I don't know how a smile creeps onto my face. I can feel the curve of my lips and the slight rise of my cheeks. She told him no. And I don't miss the angry, humiliated look on Edgar's face.

​"I told you to leave her alone. You didn't listen. She's my mate, Edgar. My mate."

​"You have a human as your mate?" he replies out of shock and surprise.

​"Oh yeah, I do. And now you know. Next time I see you with her, I promise you that I'll break a few bones in you," I threaten, and Edgar doesn't say a word to either Chloe or me, and he leaves the class.

​The other students start talking about her attitude, which they've now tagged as rude and proud. I entered the class, and they immediately lower their voices. My authoritative walk works not only in my pack but also here. Many of them don't have the courage to walk up to me. I know they bothered Chloe the first week I came to the school, whining and pestering her about their feelings for me. I don't care if they're scared of me. In fact, that's what I want. I want all of them, except Chloe, to be scared of me.

​I walk towards Chloe, and when our eyes meet, she gasps, her breath catching. Is she surprised to see me? If she had gone with Edgar, I don't know what I would have done to both of them. Or I should say I don't know the extent to which I would have taken things up with both of them. I'm certain I would have injured Edgar badly, and as for Chloe, I would have kidn*pped her. I would have kept her away from everyone until she realised that I meant what I said.

​But today, right now, she might not say it, but she behaved that way. She might have had another reason for saying "no" to Edgar, but I don't want to know. She rejected his offer, and that's enough for me.