NICOLE
It's been a few weeks since that phone call.
Yes, time is flying. I feel even more idiotic than I did before. And I'm still pregnant.
I have to decide whether or not I'm going to keep the baby. I can't make a decision that will impact my whole life. And it isn’t just me I’m thinking about—this baby deserves so much more than I can give it.
I would’ve considered adoption if I weren’t so terrified of what I read in the news and on social media platforms all the time about the abuse children suffer in foster homes. I can’t bear the thought of a stranger hurting my child. It brings tears to my eyes.
I’m seriously considering keeping the baby, even if it’ll be raised in a broken home by a mother with mistakes big enough to fill the Atlantic Ocean. Maybe by then, I’ll be changed
