Zeke Hayes
I can hear him pacing outside my door, and I can barely feel it in the bond, but he's worried. It's been almost a week since we found out, since my spiraling started.
I don't deserve this life, I deserve to be miserable and alone. I don't deserve him.
I don't deserve happiness.
These words have been on repeat in my head since we left the doctors, and I can't force myself to tell him how I feel. This happy moment for him was ruined because of me. Because I'm a terrible mate, and i dont deserve any of this life.
I feel like a fraud, like I am pretending to be something I'm not. I thought everything was good, I thought I was good, but here I am, sulking in my self pity.
Nausea has flooded my system, when i do eat, i end up puking. I can't keep food down, and it has nothi
