I hide my stuff under some leaves. I have no choice I have to give up. Its to dark, and I'm in to much pain. I slowly stand up and call him. "Antonio, I'm here. I'm sorry."
He runs to me "Stupid b***h, where did you think you were going to go?!"
He grabs my hair and starts pulling me towards the house.
"Stop, please, stop." I cry
"You did this to yourself." He says still pulling me.
I drop to my knees. "I can't" having a huge contraction.
He waits until it was over this time he helps me up not meanly, and put his arm around me and leads me to the house. It's better then the prison cell.
He brings me into the bathroom to grab some towels. Then to his room and grabbed some pillows Lays them out on the floor in the kitchen, and helps me sit down.
I grab his arm. Having another contraction. "You have to grab a wash cloth, and we may need something to suction the babies nose and mouth out. We also need a blanket to wrap the baby in." I said as soon as the contraction was over. Thankfully I did a lot of research on delivering babies before I was kidnapped.
He stands up and opens his tool box. He grabs out some duck tape.
"Hold out your arms."
"I'm not going anywhere!"
"You want me to get the things you need, then do it."
He wraps the tape around my wrists. Behind my back. "Oh and maybe drink some water, you need to sober up a bit." I tell him nicely. He comes back a few minutes later with everything I asked.
"Ok, can you untape me now please?" I asked.
He unwraps the tape. I lay down. A few more contractions "Antonio, I think its time to push"
He goes down between my legs. Next contraction I push as hard as I can. Screaming in pain. "I see him. I see his head.!" Antonio said excitedly.
Another contraction and I push again. The head is out I can feel it. "ok are you ready, one more big push" Antonio says. I push again as hard as I can. He helps pull the baby out and wraps him in a towel.
I don't hear anything. "He's not crying" I said super worried. My eyes start to fill with tears.
"Hold on a minute." Antonio demands. He was cleaning the nose and mouth. Then I hear it. The best sound in the world. My son let out his first cry.
I let out deep breath of relief.
Antonio leans back against the cupboard and holds the baby. Rocking him.
"Can I hold him?" I asked.
"No. Its my son." He replies.
"Antonio, you need to get something to cut and clamp the cord with. I still have too deliver the placenta too. So hand him to me, please."
"Fine." He hands me my baby.
"He's perfect." I say. He has beautiful dark brown eyes, and dark brown hair. Hes so small, he seems to be fine otherwise.
Antonio gets up and grabs scissors from the drawer. "You have to sanitize them." I said. He grabs a bottle of vodka and Pours it over them. Comes over and ties the cord shut then cuts right above where he tied it off.
"We have to deliver the placenta now." He rolls his eyes. Going back down between my legs. I push until it comes out. It almost felt like I was delivering another baby. That hurt so bad.
He goes to grab the baby again. I know once he takes him I may never see him again. He's going to kill me. I just want this moment to last a little longer.
"I have to feed him. Please?" I asked.
"Hurry up then."
I pull up my nightgown, and place my baby on my breast. "Can I stay with him and you tonight, please? I will do anything you want. And he's going to need to eat through out the night." I could tell his buzz was going away, and he is gonna need to sleep it off. "Then I will wake up with him and you can sleep."
He doesn't say anything. He gets up and goes to his room, and then to the bathroom. "Ok give me my baby." He demands.
"Please?" I cry trying not to let go of my son.
He takes the baby and grabs my arm to help me up. There is blood everywhere. "You go shower." Walking me to the bathroom.
I'm not sure what to expect. He's letting me shower, so does that mean he isn't going to kill me? Maybe he just needs me to feed the baby until he can get formula.
I showered up as fast as I could and step out to get dressed. He was nice enough to buy me pads. And he gave me a button up shirt and some shorts. So maybe he doesn't plan on killing me yet? A million questions run through my head.
When I opened the door he was putting pad locks on the front door. "Wheres the baby!?" He jumps, and turns around. He must not have heard me open the door. He was clearly still drunk.
"He's fine" locking the final lock. Walking towards me. "Lets go." Grabing my arm and leading me to his room. Next to the bed was a small bassinet I run to it. My beautiful baby was wrapped in a clean blanket laying there like a beautiful prince.
"Give me your arm" he demands.
I hold out my arm. He has a chain around his bed post, and he wraps a cuff around my wrist. I don't even care, I just want to stay with my baby.
I pick up my baby and sit on the bed. "Did you pick a name?" I didn't want to tell him I picked a name already. I know he won't let me name him.
"Antonio Jr." He said.
"My little A.J." I said unbuttoning my shirt and unwrapping his blanket. He had a diaper on already. I lay him on my chest and put the blanket over him.
"What are you doing?" He asked confused.
"It's called skin to skin it's very important for babies." Little A.J. calms down and falls asleep. Antonio gets up and locks the door takes his shirt and pants off and lays in bed next to me to go to sleep. The sun was coming up, but I didn't want this moment to end. I start drifting off to sleep. I jerk myself awake and get up to lay A.J. in his bassinet.
I lay back down. Antonio puts his arm around me and pulls me to him.