Auntie and I cried for what felt like forever. How could Jax do this! I needed him here with me. Now they are both gone. Antonio comes back in and tells Auntie she can go see Jax now. She gets up and leaves the room.
Antonio helps me to the bed and tucks me in. "I'll be back in a few minutes baby, I need to shower. Do you need anything?" He asked. I shook my head. I just realized he had Jax blood all over his clothes. I can't imagine what he must be feeling right now. Auntie and I are so lucky he is here.
He gets out of the shower and lays behind me wrapping his arm over me and pulling me against his body. Kissing me on my shoulder. "Are you O.K?" He asks.
I don't even know how to respond to this. "It's all my fault" I started crying again.
"It's not your fault baby, you didn't cause any of this"
"They were after me! My baby! Not Missy."
"You didn't choose to put this baby in you. There was nothing you could do."
"I just lost my 2 best friends and I'm stuck in this house like a prisoner."
"I know, I'm gonna fix this, as best as I can. I promise. Lets try and get some sleep." He hugs me until I fell asleep.
The next few days were very hard on everyone. It's just not the same knowing Jax and Missy will never be back.
Today is the funeral. I can't go, I am not allowed. It's not safe for me to go. I don't think I could handle it anyways. They will be burying Missy and Jax together. Its what they would have wanted.
Antonio is staying back with me so I'm not alone. He hasn't left my side yet. I was thinking of asking him to move in with me. He basically lives here anyways already anyways.
Being a personal Trainer for rich folks. He can take off as much time from work as he wants. He said he does it because he likes it. He doesn't need the money. He says he does it to keep himself busy, and he loves it.
Once everyone was gone, Antonio and I went back to my room. We were sitting on the couch. "What do you want to do?" He asked. I lay my head on his shoulder. And don't respond. I heard him, I just didn't know what to say.
He rubs his hand on my thigh softly. Slowly making his way up. He uses his other hand and caresses the side of my face. He turns to kiss me. He is the 2 guy I have ever "chosen" to be with. I was in love when I was a teenager. I fell in love with my best friend. he left me though. I couldn't be happier with my new choice. I kiss him back.
This time he is rubing my p***y through my pants with his fingers now. He slowly leans me back and lays on top of me between my legs. Rubbing his d**k against my p***y and making out with me. He's always so gentle with me. I stop the make out session and sit up. I help him take his shirt off and he takes mine off exposing my breasts. He begins to suck on them and still rubbing his d**k between my legs.
I softly grab the back of is hair almost as to lead him down. He know what I wanted. He was kissing every inch of my abdomen on his way. He pulls my pants off me and starts licking my p***y. Breathing heavy. I can fell the orgasm coming on.
He's licking all around my c**t. Then sticks his finger inside me. This feels so amazing. He stands up to take off his pants. Then lays back on top of me. And slowly stick himself inside me.
I wrap my arms around his shoulders as he f***s me. Making me c*m so much. Making out with me and sucking on my neck. When he was finshed he kisses me one last time and for the first time ever. He said "I love you Kristy"
I didn't know how to respond. I was in love once and he left me. We were supposed to spend our lifes together. Antonio and I haven't been together very long. I do think I love him though. He is perfect in everyway.
"I... I think I love you too." Is what I decided on. He get up and gets his clothes back on and hands me mine to get dressed.
"Antonio?"
"Yes?"
"Will you... Ummm... If you want you can move in with me." I was nervous about asking.
He sits down next to me. I'm still naked though. He doesn't say anything.
"Nevermind, I'm sorry. Forget I asked." Feeeling kinda sad and embarrassed.
"No baby, its not that. I'd love to move in with you. It's just that... I want to take you away from here, from all this. Somewhere safe."
I was shocked. Move out of here? It's not even safe for me to leave here. Is there somewhere I can be safe. My baby can be safe? Now I'm being the silent one. "I don't know what safe means anymore."
"Thats why you need to leave this place. You deserve so much more then this. I can keep you safe. I promise."
"Where would we go?" I asked
"Wherever you want." he replied
"I don't know if they will let me."
"I will handle them."
Aways from here sounds so nice. Far far far away. "O.K." I said doubtful