Chapter 2
1061 Words
Dean Alessandro
I was all alone. Again.
I looked out the window from my office at the Italy ILLICIT headquarters. I was looking at the sky, hoping that God would just take my life now.
I was ready to die. There's no more reason to be alive anymore, I've lost all my reasons to live. I was ready for attacks and maybe my enemies who were preparing my death long time ago.
I was losing myself.
Phoenix, Adrian, Angelo and Chance were the only family that I got but now all of them have their own life. The history repeated itself but this time, they're happy.
I went down to the lobby and drove my car out. I told all the guards not to follow me and I went straight to the cemetery. I took out a bucket, a bottle of water and a brush walking towards a particular gravestone.
"I'm sorry, I couldn't protect them like you told me to." I said to him hoping that he could hear me from heaven.
"They're happy and I can't.. I don't want to ruin their happiness." I said as I kneeled down pouring the water into the bucket. My heart broke once again, I remembered the promise that I made with him 7 years ago.
I broke down and cried.
"Parker, I'm sorry." I said and I could feel my heart crushed into pieces remembering everything that happened 7 years ago. It was tragic, blood everywhere and it was a matter of life and death situation.
"ILLICIT is done, I'm sorry that I couldn't keep my promise." I said as I started brushing his dirty gravestone.
Parker, he was the leader of ILLICIT. The person who made ILLICIT, he picked the member of ILLICIT, and the person who sacrifice his life for me. He died protecting me and he was the one who gave me a reason to live when I wanted to end it years ago.
"I can't do this anymore.. let me join you." I said as I cried in agony. I was losing hope, I was lost. I kept brushing and cleaning his gravestone while crying in silent as I kept thinking about having a getaway from Europe.
I went back to my car and sat there for a while looking blankly at my steering wheel.
Without the members, I'm nothing.
My phone rang and it was the head of the security. I answered the phone and he told me that I can't be alone out there for a really long time. He will send me some guards to protect me and I'm not protesting at all.
I drove back home and got another call telling me that Danielle have someone watching over me. That woman has been stalking me for years and God knows what's on her mind.
My private investigator team told me that she's coming back to Italy. I really wish she won't bother me because I really need time for myself to not be insane and snap.
Not only that, apparently Phoenix, Adrian, Angelo and Chance have people watching over me too. What am I? I don't need a f*****g baby sitter. These 5 people need to stop obsessing over me. Especially those men who chose to leave me instead of staying.
They don't have the rights to know about my life anymore.
I shut the CCTV in the headquarters since I know the 4 of them were watching. I was trying my best to shut everything up from them. I've been living in headquarters to most of the time instead of going home.
When I was about to sleep, someone called me and it's an unknown number. I don't need to answer to know who it is. How I wish to kill that person long time ago or how I wish he killed me long time ago.
Slowly.. I was losing my sleep.. losing my sanity too. I didn't even bother to eat or workout or even work. I was slowly declining my life.
I locked myself in the headquarters.
One day, I decided to go back home. Guess what? Someone was already there waiting for me, he brought a g*n. Once I arrived home, he grabbed me by the collar and punched me straight to my jaw.
"Get up! Get up, Dean!" He bursted angrily at me. He pulled me up again by grabbing my suit. He pinned me to the wall and he looked at me angrily.
"I trained you to be tough! I trained you to be a LEADER!" Parker punched me again straight to my face and the second thing I know, I was already on the ground.
"Don't be a softie, Dean!" He said as he pointed the g*n straight to my heart. I didn't say anything because he was right. Everything falls apart because I was not a good enough. Parker knew my weakness so much and that's why he was being hard on me.
"Didn't I tell you that.. I never even want one small scratch on one member? You should protect them! That's your duty as a leader! You know that!" Parker shot the wall behind me and I closed my eyes completely scared that he would hurt me.
"I can't protect you all most of the time! I have other responsibilities too!" He threw the g*n to the floor and he broke down. He was crying in front of me and he took off his wedding ring throwing it god knows where.
"Never fall in love, Dean. NEVER!" He said as he looked straight to my eyes.
I got up from my sleep and I found myself bumping my head to the wall. I was losing it, I was slowly losing myself again. I was aware of it and I don't even want ask help.
"Phoenix, Adrian, Angelo and Chance.. I put them all in your hands, Dean. I'm sorry." That was his last words before he took his last breath. I swore that I would do everything to protect them but I failed and this took me back to 7 years ago where he trained me so hard and told me about all his regrets in life.
He told me not to repeat what he did but.. I ended up making it so much worse.
I'm ready to receive the punishment, Parker. I'm sorry.
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