"Fu*k sh*t!"
I exclaimed in disgust as I immediately went out of bed.
Her head bounced in bed when I forced to get my arm that used to be her pillow.
I just noticed that I was wearing nothing but my boxer shorts. But it didn't bother me at all.
Even though she was not in a proper trance, she hurriedly managed to get up and wrapped her body in a blanket.
"What is it? What are you doing here?! I yelled and I could see her stunned by my sudden reaction.
"Did something happen to us?
I asked her in a high voice, who at that time had her head down and almost didn't want to look at me.
Not only can't she look directly at me, she also doesn't say anything that irritates me a lot.
I felt my veins in my neck come to life out of annoyance.
"WHAT?! Are you deaf or dumb? Why can't you speak?
Her head remains bowed and her mouth shut. Then she covers her face with that blanket.
"Why? Are you ashamed? Do you have any, really?!
She just blinked at what I said standing in the corner of the room on the other side of the bed and seemed to want to bury herself in that corner.
I can see the fear in her eyes that are now red and about to burst out with tears.
I was holding my neck when I sighed in annoyance as my palm crawled in my face, rubbing it intently.
"Get out. I said ``get OUT!"
I yelled at her and she almost fell to her knees when she left the room.
I collapsed on the edge of the bed and gasped several times.
My hand landed on my forehead up to my hair and tugged it. I have a headache and severe irritation right now.
"Damn it!" Then I pulled the blanket from the bed where my eyes landed with all my might and threw it somewhere there the room.
I don't want to remember what happened, or even think about it.
I feel sick just to think of it.
I stayed sitting on that edge of the bed with my eyes closed and my hand tugging my hair.
When I felt much better and my irritation subsided a bit I decided to go to the bathroom to clean myself.
I soak my naked body in cold running water from the shower. It feels much better now,this helps relieve my hangover.
But I'm not done yet with that woman.
I let the water run through my skin as I watch myself under it in front of the moist mirror.
"She has no shame, she will do anything to get what she wants.
After all, she started it, so why not play with her fire. but I'll make sure she's the only one who gets burned.
I'm not absolutely out of my mind to get tricked that easily.
"She really good at ruining my day.
Then I got ready to go to the office.
Wearing a navy blue collar long sleeve, office attire.
I go down stairs, to leave.
Esmi met me on the last step of the stairs.
"Sir Ralf, have breakfast first, mam Roxette has prepared breakfast for you, she is already there at the table."
I frowned as soon as I heard that woman's name.
"Esmi, please put this in the car. And please open the gate for me"
I calmly said to Esmi as I handed her my bag where my laptop was.
"All right, sir."
When Esmi was already out of the house, I went to the dining room where Roxette is currently having breakfast.
I the fact that she even expected me to have a meal with her? How am I going to eat if I have around.
She immediately dropped the food she was holding when she saw me.
My eyes wandered across the table.
"You really prepared breakfast.
"Do you think I will eat with you just because of what happened last night?
She kept her gaze down on the table.
So I came closer to where she was sitting and put one hand on the table and the other on the back of where she was sitting then I slightly lowered my head to her.
Causing her to bend down completely to distance herself from me.
"I'm not going to change my opinion of you, for me you're just a piece of a business contract.
"One more time you make a mistake, I will make sure you will regret marrying me.!" And please don't waste my money for this disgusting tricks of you.
Then I looked down at her plate.
I grabbed it and intentionally dropped it on the table that made a noise.
"Disgusting!"
I said intently then I left.
I hope she got what she deserves to feel because Im sure she will later report to the elders of how I treated her.
I want them to realize that they send a wrong one to control me.
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Roxette pov
My tears welled up in my eyes as I followed my gaze to him walking out the dining room.
I completely lost my appetite for all he said.
As if I intentionally slept with him last night.
He was so drunk and mistaken me as his ex-girlfriend.
Or maybe I do really have mistakes when I thought of letting him use me to fill his longing even if only for a moment.
But why did I feel like I'm the one to blame?
What good thing did I get? From the time we got married until now that he got my virginity, nothing good has happened to me.
However, I have no choice but to accept my fate with him.
"Mam Roxette Sir Ralf has left."
The silence of me in my deep thoughts in front of the table was broken when Esmi suddenly spoke.
"I-is that so?
I stuttered.
I grabbed the table napkin and wiped my mouth then I left my seat.
"Semi, please put it away. Thanks."
I smiled sparingly to her before I left the dining room.
From there I went up to my room, and threw myself on the bed.
I feel heavy. I rolled and faced the sluggish ceiling of the room.
And feel my breath out of my parted lips.
I bit it inside only to realize that it's a bit swollen.
Then little by little what happened last night came back to my mind.
Last night….
Marcus and I struggled to get Ralf up the stairs to the second floor where his bedroom was.
He was very drunk and could barely walk properly so we had to carry him on both shoulders to get to his room.
"So, I leave it all to you from here." He smirks. "Take good care of him, huh."
After that, Marcus, who introduced himself as Ralf's best friend, left right away. I remember seeing him on my wedding day but we never had the chance to talk.
He looks kind, just a little mischievous in the way he speaks.
When Marcus left, I threw my gaze at Ralf who was already in bed.
"He is absolutely wasted.
"Alright! how I should start, should I undress him first?-a I mean, he's drunk and he needs to change clothes.
I reasoned to myself that it seemed like a huge sin to touch him.
"Or should I call Esmi?
As if Ralf will talk back.
I shrugged, "Esmi must be asleep by now."
I let out a deep breath. "Com'on Roxette, you should have to change his clothes, that's all!
Silli me, I even managed to cheer myself up.
I started removing the shoes and socks he was wearing slowly so he wouldn't wake up because if it happened, he might think I'm taking advantage of him.
But I managed to do it, despite the fear in my chest making my hand shake while removing those socks.
"Alright, one down, one more and it's over.
I whispered, then I went around to the other side of the bed to approach him.
My eyes landed on his sleeping face.
"Uhm. He's pretty cute," but grumpy.
I said lamely.
I took a deep breath again before I grabbed the collar of his long sleeve and
slowly opened the buttons on his chest one by one.
And when I was at the fourth button of his clothes , he suddenly opened his eyes.
Something that surprised me. My eyes widened in panic so I immediately moved away to stand up but he caught my arm.
He frowned as he stared at me.
"My God, I'm dead."
I have a strong thud in my chest and it's getting stronger and louder when he pulls me closer to his face.
Now I can even feel his breath with the tinge of alcohol.
I'm aware that I should do something to get out of his grip but.
"Cindy."
His raspy voice softly uttered that name.
I was stunned when I heard that.
"Cindy." he said again and this time he completely pulled me and My body dropped to him.
"Ralf. I said softly.
"I love you, Cindy. I love you. Please."
I felt a pain in my chest at those words.
His voice was full of sadness and longing, something that made me drown in my sanity.
I couldn't refuse or walk away or even resist when he kissed.
My mind told me to push him away but my body can't move.
Those kisses made me drunk as if I was thirsty for this until I had completely given up.
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I let out a breath as I touched my lips after reliving what had happened last night.
I didn't really like what happened last night, but I didn't regret it either.
After a while, my phone that was on top of the side table rang.
I rolled over to the side of the bed to pick it up.
"Oh my gosh, Irish!"
I exclaimed eagerly after seeing my cousin's name on the screen.
We didn't see each other for a long time because her family migrated to the States so she and her older brother Ivan continued their studies abroad.
I swipe it to answer her call.
"Irish!!! I said excitedly.
"Sizy! How are you?
She giggled on the other line.
"I'm fine, wait, are you back in the country?
"It's a big YES sizy!"
She answered and as usual her voice was still very lively so I was even more excited to see her.
"Let's meet then!"
"At the old place where we used to go.
"Before lunch, can you?
She said and of course I immediately agreed.
"Sure! see ya then.
"Alright, bye!