A Love Worth Fighting For

Chapter 11: Is It The End?

Cassandra Takahashi Watson’s Pov.

It's been a month since that painful event in my life. I am trying to get up every day, especially right now when my parents bid goodbye because of the car accident.

Flashback

I was walking in the street after I left Zachary when my phone rang. I immediately grabbed it when I saw the caller. "Yes, brother?" "Where are you?" he asked, but I could feel him crying. "I'm in Oklahoma. Are you okay?" "Please, go straight to Korea. I need you. Mom and dad are in hospita-." "What happened to them?" I immediately rode in a cab. "They got into a car accident." "Okay, I'll be there."

My brother stayed in Korea so he could take care of other things there. I had no choice but to continue the company in California alone. I got up from lying down and taking a warm shower.

I was currently reading the news about the company when my telecom beeped. "Yes?" I asked. "Someone is finding you here, Ms. Watson." "Who?" "Zachary Lawson." f**k him. "Tell him I'm busy." "Yes, Ms. Watson." I returned my attention to my laptop. After what he did, he still had the guts to show up.

I turned my gaze to the door when it suddenly opened. "Hi, Cass." "Oh, hey, Steph. What's the matter?" “Nothing, I just wanted to invite you for lunch. You’ve been working here very hard. I decided to visit you and ask you for lunch.” “Sure, then.” I didn't notice that it was late and I hadn't eaten my lunch.

I was driving home after work from my office. I saw a familiar man sitting outside my gate. I think the sound of the car awakened him and he looked up. Zachary. I parked my car and went out to head inside without even planning to talk to him. But he stopped me by my shoulders.

“What the hell do you want?” “Cass, please, listen to me.” “I’m done with you, Zack. I’m fine with my life.” “I know you are hurt. I know what happened to your parents, and I’m here to comfort you.” “I don’t need your f*****g pity. I’ve been damned you for now, damned for everything you did… If you please, leave me alone. Find your own happiness.” “I can’t. How can I find my happiness if you are my source of happiness?” I laughed sarcastically. “Useless. Then, it's not my problem anymore. You lost me and I lost you too, fair enough.” I opened the doorknob and entered the house. I heard him outside keep knocking on my door. I on lean my back and opened the door and tears started to fall. I can’t take this.

Zachary Lawson's Pov.

I can’t take this anymore. It’s so painful seeing her in the deep pain that I cause. It’s excruciating. How could I live if she was my life? How could I be happy if she’s my happiness? Damn this! I want her back even though I know to myself it’s, too impossible to happen. It’s been a month since the last time I saw her. I know she’s still mourning her parents' death, that's why I’m here.

I opened my eyes when I heard her opening the front door of her house. When she met my gaze she instantly reverted to other things. I walked toward her. “Good morning, Cass.” “There’s no good in the morning if your face is what I can see.” Ouch. It’s fine, I deserve it. “Why the hell are you still here? Didn’t I tell you to leave me alone?” “I won’t.” “If you think you could bring back the broken pieces of mine, well, you are wrong. The time you make me feel this. It wasn’t just my heart you broke. It’s all the system of my body. I can’t get up. Well, broken is not the word in how you define it. It’s destroyed. You destroyed me.” “I’m sorry, Cass.” She laughed. “Wow, here we go again. Sorry. Wow, Zachary. Did you even count on how many times you told me you were sorry? I think you lost count.” “Cass, please just at least listen to me.” Every word that she’s saying is thrusting me deeper and deeper. I was scared of the next word that she might say. “I’m done listening to your lies. You are a good pretender. What a great actor. Why don’t you make your own movie since you are good at making scenes.” “Yes, I lied to you several times, but it doesn’t mean I won’t change.” “Yeah, I believe you will change but don’t change because you want me back. Change because you want yourself back. No matter how hard you want to change for me, I will never come back.” With that she rides in her car and drives it away from me. I couldn’t do anything but cry. I’m f*****g weak. But it doesn’t mean I will give up that easily. As long as I am, I will never stop able to go back again.

Cassandra Takahashi Watson’s Pov.

What does he think of me as a rebound? After he gets what he wants from another woman, will he go back to me? Everything’s changed now. I dialed my brother's number. “What?” he asked. “I will be flying there.” “What makes you decide to fly on this day?” “I just want to be away from work first, besides I want to visit mom and dad.” “Okay. See you then. We will visit them both. I’m at work right now.” “Fine. Bye. Take care.” “Yeah.” He ended the call. I cry once again at the thought of visiting the grave of my parents. It’s so painful every time I mention them. Every time I hear about them. Plus, this annoying man who keeps on getting into my way.

Stephen guided me inside the theater. He asked me to watch a movie, and so I agreed. Every time he’s holding my waist, I remember the f*****g touch of Zachary. The touch of him that I thought would be mine only. I waited in one of the seats when he had an excuse to buy something. When he returns, he’s holding a piece of popcorn and a juice in his hand. He offered me the juice and put the popcorn in the middle of us. “Thanks,” I said. “No, thanks. Thank you for being with me to watch this movie.” “Oh, no problem. You’re such a good friend of mine.” He gets my hand and brings it to his lips. The movie started.

Stephen has already dropped me at my house. I still can’t get over what I've watched. It’s about a woman who hated this guy for so many years until the woman got sick and all she needed to survive was a heart transplant. She never expected that the guy would do that to her. So she lived and the guy died. I cry every time I remember the movie, but my mood just changed, and he welcomed me to my front door. Isn't he going to give up?

“If you are asking, why am I still here? Simply, because I won’t give you up.” He said before I could utter a word. “Oh, come on, Zachary. I’m a patient person who always says ‘it’s okay’ even if it's too painful to give up. How much more on you? Stop playing. You can never win against a destroyed person again.” “I don’t care. I won’t leave you even if it's too hard already, even if you are not leaving me in your life again. I will stay here just to make sure you are okay.” “You know what? I realize that I thought a cardiologist would fix someone's broken heart, but I was wrong because instead of fixing it, you destroyed it.” “That’s not the thing here, Cassandra.” “Yes, it is. So, if you excuse me,” I passed by him and walked inside my house.

Zachary Lawson's Pov.

It's been a month since I went back to California. I am only flying to Oklahoma if I have a call from the hospital, but then after I work I head back here. Whatever it takes now, I don't care as long as I can bring her back into my life, though I'm starting to get tired every time she's pushing me away. I also rent a house that is near to her house, so I could watch her. I reverted my gaze to her when she opened the door. I decided to walk toward her.

"Hey, Cass. How's your day?" She just ignored me and walked toward her car. "Cass, are you still mad at me? It's been a month and yet you don't see my effort?" She paused from walking and faced me. Then I continued. "Aren't you getting tired?" "Tired of what?" "Tired of us. I am trying to get you back, but you keep pushing me. Aren't you tired of pushing me?" "I will never be tired of pushing you until you will be nothing in my life." It's f*****g painful, but I can't do anything. I know I've hurt her. "Until when are you going to make me feel that I hurt you?" Tears start to fall on my cheek every time I utter a word. "I matter to you the most in my life if you just know and yet you wasted it. You hurt me like a f*****g hell, Zachary. I will make you feel that until you disappear from my life." Disappear? Does she want me to disappear? "You know what, Cass. I'm also getting tired. If I disappear...will you be happy?" She paused for a minute before answering and let out a sigh. "Ye-yeah. I will." "Okay, then." I walked away from her and rode into my car.

I drove it as fast as I could. I don't care how fast my car takes. I couldn't see the road properly as tears blinded me. I grabbed my phone and dialed Steven's number. "Hey, bro-" he said. "Listen-" "Are you okay? Why are you crying- ""Let me finish. You take care of my apartment. You take care of everything I have......-" "Wait. Why? Is something wrong?" "I want you to look after Cassandra. Take care of her and make sure she's safe." I heard him say 'damn!' on the other hand. "What the hell are you thinking? You're not going anywhere." He said with irritation. "I love you, bro." I said and hung up the call. I heard my phone keep ringing and I ignored it. I drive the car as fast as I can again. I kept driving it until I heard a loud bang and everything went black.