The Rugby Player's Wife

Chapter 13

I was getting ready for another date with Hayden even if I didn't want to when he asked me. I should have just said no, but on the spur of the moment I said yes.

He also made a promise that he wasn't going to fall in love with me, so I guess that's a bonus, but a person can never be sure, can you? I remember Clayton also said he wouldn't fall in love with me, but he ended up falling harder for me than he thought and I did the same.

We dated for two years, seven months, two days, six hours and 24 seconds when he was taken away from me by a robber. He was the guy I was going to marry, he was the one that made me happy, that made me smile. That turned my world upside down, that always made me feel better and the one that loved me even when I was wrong.

He is one of the main reasons why I don't want to be happy; he is the reason I don't want to move on, and he is the reason I am miserable. He promised he would never leave me, but he did, he left me all by myself.

He was Madison's stepbrother, and she knew how much I loved him. It is also going to be wrong to move on as it is going to feel like I am going to betray him.

At the moment, I just enjoy Hayden's company he is really smart, and he is funny to think I judged rugby players before I even know them. He is not like any of them, he is different, but still, he isn't the type of guy I would see myself dating.

Madison came into the room shocked to see that I was getting dressed on days like these we would usually just wear our most comfortable clothes and lounge around in our room watching old movies even if we watched it like a thousand times.

It was cloudy outside, and I knew for sure it was going to rain soon, but I could be wrong because our weather is very unpredictable. Lightning would just strike with the exception of rain, but then nothing, just a bit of thunder scaring a few people.

"Where are you going, Dawn?" Madison walked to the fridge and got out a bottle of water.

She sat down on her bed and opened the bottle drinking it so fast I would think she has one of her famous hangovers.

"Where were you, Madison?"

"No, Dawn, don't change the subject."

"I would never do such a thing, what do you think of me. I am just asking you a simple question."

"I will tell you where I was when you tell me where you are going."

"Deal." We shook hands, but sometimes she can be so gullible.

"I was with Joshua we went to the mall. We even looked at rings, he kind of dropped a hint that he was going to propose soon. I can't be happier, he is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with." I took my bag behind the door and hooked it around my arm.

I waved goodbye at Madison and left without telling her where I was going, I left her hanging I could hear her groaning in anger because she didn't expect that to happen. I didn't want to tell her I was hanging out with Hayden because I didn't want her to get excited and then after a few weeks tell her that I wasn't going to date him.

I just wanted this to be innocent fun, and I didn't want this to go anywhere. I just wanted another friend, and he is great company like I said, I also liked being spoiled by someone a bit. I also loved the feeling of being needed by someone.

He also made my world a little bit less miserable even if I didn't want that. He also made me feel safe in a weird kind of way he cared about my needs. He made me smile a little even if other people didn't get it right.

I like the atmosphere he gives off when I am around him. I kind of like being around him. I knew exactly what my feelings were, but I didn't want them to show because I didn't want to move on, Clayton was still the love of my life even if he wasn't here anymore.

That's why I don't want to let the world in, and that's why I don't want to let Hayden in.