His Feelings and Thoughts

Chapter 16: Disappointing Thoughts

After they visited and going outside in the dormitory where Heinrich didn't give his few phrases and words to them. As Francis decides to stay at that dormitory to search about the problems and give some advice to Heinrich as their patient. While Harold will go home first to planning about dealing Heinrich's damaged mental health that pushed himself into a bad habit, as his plan, Harold tried to fix their friendship by helping to deal Heinrich's problem.

While Francis is inside the dormitory, he slowly approached to the room where Heinrich staying, drinking some liquor that available in his side, and Francis saw him sitting alone in the study table. He greets Heinrich first before he proceed inside to his room, Heinrich looks like a tree that forgotten many days after growth a strong bark.

Francis starts to examine Heinrich but he refused to having a examine to advice, even he didn't want to say a word that Francis want to hear his reasons from his feelings seems different. Heinrich saying some phrase that he would fix by himself instead of approaching some people like Francis and Harold asked for help to beat his difficult feelings to normal. He also told Francis to leave in his room even Francis saying that is very important to share his feelings, Heinrich repeatedly saying that he would fix by himself instead others fix his feelings, for him is a embarassment to the community towards the university and the around of city of Hamburg.

Francis quickly walking towards Harold's second house after the unsolved and failed to help for Heinrich's feelings in the dormitory. While walking, he remembers that he and Harold help Heinrich previous school year to passed the subject that Heinrich missed and fell into a stressful, after they helped him, Heinrich just speechless in their front and they didn't hear him a "Thank You!" phrase, for them is a silent thank you but not thanking them after Heinrich turning back and proceed to the university gates. Now, Francis realized why Heinrich always saying a words to the people like "Lift for yourself to the path of success." and "Saying thank you to the person or people who lifts you up.", but for Heinrich himself, he did not, pretending that he is a good and thoughtful student but their disappointed matter throw him with a silent anger that they would like to say.

After a distance walking, he immediately knocking Harold's second home door for the happen last time when he stayed at the dormitory. After he knock the door in four times, Harold suddenly open the door, he thought that Francis knock him in his face. He immediately welcomes Francis and quickly walking to the living room.

"In Ordnung. Wie ist (Alright. How is) the results of your advice to Heinrich?" Harold immediately question before he bites some soft, buttery, and hot buns while Francis took a pillow for some reason that he comforts in his seat.

"Leider. (Unfortunately) He didn't answer my questions that would be in case that we help him but he just stare at me and saying that "I would be fixed myself" instead of approaching people to help like us." Francis leaning through the chair that he sitted while drinking some hot and thick liquid chocolate and Harold slowly bowed his head and he lift his head again after a second. Thinking and immediately asks to Francis.

"Warum er braucht unsere hilfe nicht?( Why he don't need our help?)" When hearing Harold's question, Francis seems confuse while thinking what he can answer based on Heinrich's thoughts before he told Francis to leave.

"Ich weiß nicht warum?! (I don't know why?!)" Francis immediately answer after his frustration to think. Unable to explain and Harold would think by himself about Heinrich.

"Ich denke, dass du müde bist. Du musst dich ausruhen. (I think that you are tired. You need to rest.)" Harold worried about the asleep looking faced Francis after trying to explain the thoughts throwed badly by Heinrich. Francis slowly stand up and likely to yawn and lying in the bed.

"In Ordnung. Gute Nacht! Bis Morgen! (Alright. Good night! See you later!)" Francis said while walking slowly proceed to the door as exit.

Leaving Harold still likely to having a headache while thinking about Heinrich. He tried to write a letter to Heinrich by next day to give it to the mail man where address of the dormitory indicated in that letter. After he write a letter, he is eating the remaining buns, and proceed to his room to sleep deeply.