Goddess Of Loneliness

Chapter eight

I wasn't really sure who it was till the next morning, she asked few questions which I really couldn't remember before helping me into my room. I was too weak and drunk to notice or be sure of anything around me.

I woke up the next morning completely naked, I wasn't sure how I got that way or who it was that had helped me get inside. I quickly used my bedspread to cover myself while I slowly creeped to the door to check who was cooking outside my room. Her voice echoed into the room from outside nd it became clear to me that it was Patricia.

"What was she cooking and why was I naked? How did she manage to strip me of my clothes without my knowledge, what could have happened last night while I was drunk? If she was the one that removed my clothes then it's very obvious she's seen everything",

I heard her voice as she approached the door so I ran back to the bed before the opened the door

"Oh you're awake", she wore a knicker and a blue top that exposed part of her tummy

"Did you help me get inside", I asked shyly

"Oh don't get the scenario wrong, even though you were very drunk last night which is quite strange considering I've never seen you take alcohol before, you refused to allow me help you change or bath you. You did everything on your own", she explained. I wasn't quite convinced buh had to pretend to believe her just to free my mind from those nasty assumptions. I looked at her again to see if I could read the lies in-between her words buh she carried a plain innocent face which for once made her think she was actually telling me the truth.

" Thank you so much for helping me inside last night. If not for you maybe I'd have slept outside", I finally voiced out

"Nathan, you've always been more than a friend and gist partner to me. We've shared pretty much everything between ourselves, you can always tell me anything. What exactly is the problem? What's going on with you?", She was truly concerned. She was right, wen it came to telling everything about myself, she was the only person I was that free with, she knew things about me even Florence didn't know of, she was one person I didn't have the courage to keep anything from buh I wasn't sure I wanted to tell her about my encounter with the ladies from the stream, I wasn't sure she'd understand me. She might even think I'm insane or I've gotten possessed.

"Hope this has nothing to do with your girlfriend", she walked over and sat close to me

I looked away cos I didn't want her own round of scolding or teasing

"Nathan ain't you a man? Why can't you start acting like one. I mean why would you allow a girl use you as a pet. Can't you see that she doesn't love you?", She said all at once. I kept my face away from her maybe she won't see the pains in my eyes, if only she knew it wasn't my fault. Florence was actually my first real girlfriend, she was the first person that made me experience love, why was the first so bad

"We've broken up for good this time", I answered weakly

"Are you sure? Cos that's the same thing you said the last time, and the time before that", she now seemed to be teasing me

"I'm sure, I'm done with her", I smiled weakly

"Love doesn't have to be so painful, it doesn't have to bring you too many reasons to regret",

"I'm kinda hungry, can I get food outside so I can take my drugs. I still feel pains", I cleverly changed the topic

"The indomie is done. I only came in to get the plates"

She brought the food and we are together before she left. Not without promising to come back that evening to check up on me and probably take me out.

"That's if at all you meet me at home", I muttered to myself as she left my house.

I tried to sleep probably to kill time in order to go meet my river friend. The more I tried to kill time, the more it looked like time didn't wanna go. I managed to wait at home till 3:43 before leaving to the stream.

It was kinda filled with people bathing, washing, fetching water and other stuffs. I picked a spot and sat watching the activities around, till it started getting dark and slowly everyone started leaving. By 7pm, darkness had already covered the whole place and everyone had left. I got up when I was sure I was the only person by the stream and walked closer to the water, I paced around it for a while, threw stones inside it maybe trying to announce that I was around buh it seemed she wasn't coming. I waited till almost midnight trying in different ways to announce my presence before finally giving up. I slowly turned around and started walking away, my mind already filled with thoughts of what would happen to me this time if those guys met me again

"Ain't that Shakira's human friend", I heard a voice behind me. It definitely was Almira's voice

To be continued