Real Love Or, Fake Love?

Chapter5

Julie

I cant believe that I didn’t talk to Ryders parents that much last night at dinner. What was I thinking? Nothing that’s what. I wake up look at my phone I have a text from Ryder.

“ Good morning baby, you ready for tonight. Its our first party together. Im cant wait! See you at school.”

I want to reply but I will see him at school. Why not just talk to him when I get there. I am terrified though for the party. Ill tell him that when I see him. I really miss being invisible sometimes. Im glad that my friends will be there with me though. That makes me calm. Im getting ready for school and I keep thinking that just five months ago my life was so different. Im still trying to figure out how I got here. I still think there is more I don’t know going on. I know I need to stop thinking like that it does no good for me or Ryder. He is a good guy. I need to figure out what I want to wear for tonight. I need Meg and Ruby here with me to help me. We could always go shopping to. Get a new outfit. I called them both and got them to come over. They said no to shopping. I thought they would we didn’t really like to shop. Besides I had tons of clothes to choose from. I just didn’t know what I wanted to wear. Before I know it we are ready and its time to go. I decided to wear a tank top and skirt it showed off a lot of my body but made me look sexy. I know Ryder wont be able to resist me while im wearing this. I do ask my friends how I look before we leave Mike is here now to. They all say the same thing that I look hot.

Party started at ten pm. We have a few things we could do to pass the time. We decided to go to get some food. We went to a Mexican restaurant. We ate a lot and talked and joked around. I don’t know what I would do without them. They are the best friends anyone could have asked for. We took tons of pictures. I told Ryder to meet me here. He showed up at the right time. We was about to start ordering food. He is playing around as well. Taking pictures. He is the best person I know and he is mine. Ryder and I drive to the party in his car. My friends are in Mikes car. Ryder wanted to be with me a lone. Cant blame him I wanted that as well. I really wanted to just kiss him till I cant take it anymore. I want to give into my urges. I know that’s stupid we might not even end up together but I wanted to give him all of me. I will one day I know that. We are juniors in high school but I know he is the man I want for ever. He may not love me the way I do him but maybe he will. I know its only been five months but I love him.

He pulls into a yard and it pulls me out of my thoughts. We are at the party. Im very nervous now. I don’t really understand why. These people see me at school everyday. I think im going to just stay with Ryder. Maybe we will all stay together.

“You guys, what are you going to do?” I couldn’t help but asking.

“Julie we are going to walk around and mingle. If you need us just say so.” It was Mike who said this. I want to be made but they have to have a good night to. We need to figure out how long we want to be here and who will drink and who will drive. I don’t want to drink so I could drive Mikes car. So I talk to him before we go our separate way. He does give me his keys. I walk around with Ryder and meet some people. We dance for a while and then I get a soda. Ryder gets a beer. I woud like to know how they got the beer. I don’t ask though. I kind of want to try beer. A sip wont hurt right? I don’t know never drank before. I have to say im having a really fun time.

When I say that Joe is coming up behind Ryder. That makes me mad.

“Do you guys want to play truth or dare?” Joe asked with a smile on her face. Is she up to something? I don’t want to know. If it isn’t about me don’t care. That’s the only reason I said yes to playing the game. I don’t know why but I want to do all dare. They cant be that bad right.

“Get your friends to play to Julie.” That was from Joe. im surprised she knew my name. I guess I should be more surprised she was being nice.

Either way I called them over to where we was. They will have fun. They are coming over and they look like they are having fun.

“Who wants to go first?” Joe asked everyone. Meg said she would go first.

“Truth or dare Meg? Your name is Meg right?” Joe said. Man was she a b***h. She knew that was her name.

Meg looks around once before giving her answer. “ I pick dare.”

“Okay a dare you to go up to the guy you like and kiss him.” Joe is saying all this with a weird smile on her face. She looks creepy.

“Umm is that all?” this time it was Meg who said something smart. This will be easy. She goes up to someone on the football team. One of Ryders friends. He was handsome. I haven’t talked to him much. What gets me is Meg hasn’t said anything to me about liking him. I wonder why?

“Okay that was easy. Ill pick you Joe. Truth or Dare?” Meg is trying to challenge the biggest b***h here. Why?

“I pick truth.” Joe said it looking right at Ryder. What is going on right now?

“Lets see, tell us something no one knows.” Meg says this like she knows something. Or wants to know something. Joe looks at Ryder and says.

“Do you want to help me with this? You’re the only one here with a secret. If you don’t want to that’s fine ill be happy to tell it.” Joe is now looking at me. I don’t know what’s going on but I don’t like it. So I look at Ryder to ask him what she is talking about but he looks so sad. I don’t want to know. Joe had other plans. She said anyways.

“Ohh, since he wont say anything Ryder here was only with you cause he bet me he could get you to fall in love with him. He gave himself the time frame of five months well today is five months. I’m guessing by the way your looking he was right?”

“You’re a b***h!” I surprise even myself when I say it. I cant believe that I did. It felt good though. Joe just looks at me in surprise. I look at Ryder and what I say is a even bigger shock. “You’re a d**k and I knew something was wrong. You just wanted to be with me for a game. What the hell is wrong with you. You and Joe deserve each other your both bitches.”

“Wait Julie, let me explain please.” Ryder says while following me. He catches up with me and grabs me by my arm. He turns me to look at him.

“Can we talk about this? I did make the bet but it was me who fell inn love with you before you even know. I fell for you the Sunday we talked about the game. I’m the one that made a fool of myself. I do love you Julie. I’m sorry I made that bet with Joe.” I don’t even want to talk to him. How could I have been so stupid. I go to walk away and he grabs my arm and spins me around but this time I slap him in the face. I have nothing to say to him. I take the keys out of my pocket and I run out the door. I take off driving just don’t know where I’m going. I might just go to the mall so I can get something to drown my sadness with. With that I head for the mall. From where I am it’s a five minute drive.

I arrive at the mall I park the car. I head into where the food court is. I like our mall its open all night long. I walk up to my favorite food place. Baskin Robins they have the best ice cream. I get three scoops one is chocolate, rocky road, and last but not least I chose vanilla. I get napkins and a spoon and sit down. Im on my phone and I get text after text from my friends and Ryder. I don’t want to talk to any one right now. I look up and who do I see other than the guy I don’t want anything to do with. Ryder followed me here. How did he even know? I walked over to him and stood there for a minute. I didn’t want to look at him. Finally I lifted my head up and said.

“Ryder you have no right to follow me here. We are through. You’re a d**k. You used me for a game. You had no right to do that to me. You really could put on a show. You’re a piece of work. I really thought you loved me. The sad thing is I was really falling for you.’ How can he just stand there and not say anything. Its been like ten minutes and finally he says something.

“ I’m sorry mt name is Ryan, and I don’t know you.”

How could he really stand there and act like he didn’t know me? I smack him again.

“Please stop smacking me. What is your name? I just moved here.”

He isn’t playing around he isn’t Ryder. I need to say im sorry.

“ I’m so sorry. You look just like my ex.” I feel so bad. I pull out my phone to show him a picture of us so he can see for himself so he doesn’t think I’m crazy. He looks at the picture. Ryan doesn’t seem surprised by the picture though. I wonder why. Did he already know about Ryder? Did he not think I was crazy? He was just telling me that he wasn’t Ryder and I guess that is true.

“ So Ryan are you the new teachers son?” Why did I just ask that? He might think I’m a creepy stocker. But everyone in school knew the new teacher had a child in our grade. A teacher let it slip in class.

“ If you need to know yes I am. How did you know that though?”

“Well Ryan a teacher told us. They let it slip. I’m sorry for asking. That was very rude.” Why is he looking at me like that? The more important question is why do I want to jump on him and kiss him? Is it cause he looks like my ex? That cant be true cause I never want to be with him. There is differences in them they are small but you can see them. I can now that I have been looking at him.

Ryan looks at me and smiles. “So you will be my only friend here so far. That’s fun!”

“Are you sure you want me as a friend?” He just looks at me and smiles.

One word is all he says and its yes.