Moonlight

Chapter 5

Alex POV

We were walking to my office and this asshole wouldn’t stop laughing. I was not even mad, though I wanted to be, but the truth is I just couldn’t, just being so close to my little mate earlier made me happy. It was weird to describe, as if being near her calmed me down.

Danilo finally shut up and started telling me everything about Aime as he closed the door behind him. Well s**t, she even had a beautiful name. He told me about her family and my heart ached a little for her. He shared she was a nurse in the human towns and she volunteered at the homeless and animal shelters. I guess she was also loaded yet very humble, and here I was thinking she was a gold digger or power hungry she-wolf. I guess she was loaded and instead of being arrogant she donated her money, and help as many people as she could. I interrupted Danilo before I heard anymore. I couldn’t falter on my decision, I didn’t want a mate. I knew the moment she actually met me she wouldn’t care about me. Truly every she-wolf only cared about my title, about being Luna, they all knew the Black’s reputation of being ruthless of not being worthy of the Alpha title. I guarantee she would only care about being Luna of my pack if she accepted me as her mate. I couldn’t go through that, I would have bet she was probably of lowly rank and possibly even a rogue. I just had to stay away from her.

“Look dude, it does not matter. It does not change how I feel.” I tried to lie. “I mean yeah, she is cute and all, any i***t can see that, but…” He cut me off.

“Any i***t would know they are the luckiest motherfucker to have her as a mate.” He said with an irritated tone. “Look dude, I can’t tell you what to do, and I respect your decision, but I will tell you this, don’t f*****g come for me or Scott if you reject her, cause you bet your ass we will be all over her. She is pure gold.” This fucker may be my best friend but he pissed me off. What the hell was he talking about being all over her. Rage was boiling through my skin. Kristof was ready to pounce and kill him. I started to walk over to him from behind my desk. “See, you i***t! You are the only one you can lie to” He said, as I pounced on him and pinned him to the wall behind him. I growled and let him go as I regained control of Kristof.

“Leave” I told him through gritted teeth.

I was beyond pissed. I just wanted to tear everything apart. I was pissed that there was more truth to Danilo’s words than I wanted or cared to admit. I showered to try to cool down, but it did not work. I tried to just go to bed, but all I did was toss and turn. I kept going over everything Danilo found out about her, Aime, my mate. I got more frustrated, all I could think about was her face, her lips, the kiss. How could she be taking over my mind. Why was I so weak? I just kept going over everything, over and over again in my head. I looked at the clock next to my bed. It was f*****g 6 am already. UGH!

I knew I couldn’t see her again, I had to stay away. I told myself with determination. I mind linked Danilo, though I was still pissed at him, but asked him to please be there for Aime when she wakes. I know he thought I was an asshole for not wanting to see her, but I couldn’t. I had to reject her. I just had to. I couldn’t care so much for someone I had never talked to in my life. It had to be the mate bond, it had to be what made me so attracted to her, why I found her so interesting.

‘That’s a lie’ Kristof chimed in. ‘You want her just as much as I do, the mate bond makes her irresistible yes, but mate was made by mother herself to be our perfect half. We want her because she completes us.’ I scoffed and rolled my eyes. ‘I like happy Alex better’ He pouted and went to the back of my mind.

I headed to the gym to train for about two hours. I grabbed breakfast and showered. It was around 9 am and my mind was still circling back to her, wondering if she was awake, if she was ok, how her voice sounded. Just thinking about her and her face was making me hard. f**k this, I thought, I needed her out of my head, I wanted her to pay for making me want her. Lucky for me, as I headed towards my office I found Jessica waiting for me. I covered her mouth before she could speak, turned her around, lifted her skirt and pulled her panties down. I bent her over my desk and nothing. I couldn’t ! I literally couldn’t because I felt nothing when I touched her. It was as if my body knew the moment I touched Jessica it was not Aime, it wasn’t my mate. All I could think about now was that kiss and my favorite flowery scent, about what I felt when I touched Aime. I put my member back in my pants and walked out, leaving Jessica there.

Aime POV

Danilo came back with Dr Manyard, as he introduced himself. He gave me instructions about resting for a couple more days. It was as if he knew I wanted to start exercising right away. I giggled to myself. They both seemed so pleasant. Everyone in the hospital had been so kind. It seemed I would enjoy it here. As the doctor was preparing to discharge me, I began to feel pain in my chest. I felt as my heart if my heart was breaking over and over again. Anya was howling in pain. I hated crying in front of people so I was trying my best not to, but the pain was unbearable. Suddenly, the pain stoped as quickly as it came. Dr. Manyard and Danilo were both staring at me with wide eyes, as if they knew what was happening to me. As the pain subsided , Danilo’s expression changed from worried to angry to concerned.

“Aime, are you ok?” He hugged me close to his chest.

“What just happened to me?” I asked, shocked by what I just felt.

“It’s Alex, I think.” He said with a pained look.

“Who is Alex, and what did he do to me?” I asked, grabbing my chest.

“He… he is your mate, and I am not sure what he did.” He said, pinching the bridge of his nose. Oh yeah… mate, I forgot about that.

“So… he can make me feel unbearable pain? Why if I am his mate?” He stared at me for a moment, with a sad face. After a moment he finally just said.

“I think he needs to talk to you himself.” It seems he knew what happened to me, or what Alex did, but he is right, it is no one’s place to discuss or question the actions of another. I am still concerned the mate I haven’t met yet can cause me so much pain.

‘Moonlight he does not know us yet. Please understand, he is confused and afraid. Trust in the bond and trust in our mate.’ Anya repeated in my head, whimpering.

We remained in silence for a little longer until I decided to break it. “It is ok. I am ok. We don’t even know each other, so I should not question him.” Danilo and Dr Manyard looked at me with kind eyes.

“You are too nice,” Danilo says. “Come let’s get you to your room. I took the liberty of having some warriors bring your stuff here from your apartment. Here are the keys to your car.” He said smiling half heartedly and looking at Dr. Manyard as he nods. He held his hand out for me and led me out of the hospital. I guess I was officially moving here, and Danilo knew a lot about me, hmm creepy, but ok. I knew things for wolves were a little different and I could guess as Alex’s mate, Danilo told me Alex was the Alpha of the pack, ha! I could never picture me as a Luna, but here we are I was mated to the Alpha of this damned pack, the moon goddess sure had a sense of humor. Since I was mated to Alex, it was safe to assume they looked into me since I wasn’t from the pack.

It didn’t take long to reach the pack house. It was a huge building several stories high. It was decorated in a modern style, and all the windows let in a lot of light. Danilo led me to the 6th floor and to my room. I assumed Alex lived on this floor since the smell of rain is all over this floor, specially the room next to mine. My suspicions were confirmed when Danilo explained the layout of the pack house. Top floor was for Alphas and their family. I hoped he did not mean me. The 5th for beta and family, 4th for the Gamma and their families, the 3rd and 2nd for unmated wolves plus other facilities and the first was for servants quarters, kitchen, and other facilities as well.

My room was huge! Bigger than my apartment, and to my surprise it was decorated the same way I had my apartment. My room was basically my apartment with more space! I had my crystals set up on floating shelves, with my giant bed next to my two night stands and aromatherapy stuff all around. My books and my little office are were the far corner close to the balcony doors. They even brought all my plants and dog toys. My room also had a walk-in closet that was bigger than what I had in my apartment. The kitchen and living room were open and the bathroom was amazing! I had never seen anything like it. It had a bathtub the size of a jacuzzi, a walk in shower with the overhead sprinkler. There was a faint smell of rain in my room and my bed. It reminded me of Alex’s black wolf when we met the other day, his deep blue eyes. ‘Mate was here’ Anya said. I was in heaven, and for a moment I forgot that Danilo was here with me.

“You seem to like your room” He smiled.

“Thank you for taking the time. I guess I have to move in here now? What happens if I don’t want to stay in the pack?” I asked

“Well you can refuse to be in this pack or any pack and be a rogue.” He says with a questioning look.

“What is a rogue?”

“A rogue is a wolf that either is banished or chooses to live without a pack. Most of them are pretty dangerous” He explained.

“Does that mean I am a rogue? I mean I am not dangerous, but I don’t have a pack. My parents mentioned we were from a pack. They always said we would go back at some point. We just never got the chance to” I said the last part more to myself.

“That actually explains a lot.” He said thinking out loud. I gave him a questioning look. “No, I don't think you are a rogue. It sounds like you were born in a pack, but your parents never rejected the pack.” I looked at him intently. “When Alex found you he said he was following a rogue but his scent got mixed in with yours.” I looked up at him in surprise as he continues. Trevor was a rogue? but he did not seem dangerous. “Your scent is not of a rogue, you have your scent and another scent we don’t recognize from any of the packs around. Every pack has their own scent and it stays with the wolves wherever we go. Do you know what pack your parents were from?” I shook my head no.

“We will help you figure it out, if that is something you want.” He said with a sad face. I could not understand why he would be sad. I told him a little more about my life and my parents, and he listened attentively. He was very easy to talk to. I just felt like I had found my long lost friend.

“Thank you.” I said, feeling happy to have someone to listen to me.

I guess I normally tried to face everything alone, and I was proud of it. I knew I could take on the world if I needed to, but someday all I truly wanted was to be held, to feel safe and protected. I knew I was never alone, I had Anya, but for quite some time now, it had just been me and her and as much as I loved her and trusted her, it was nice to have someone else who showed they cared. I guess even though I had tried to use my spirituality to help me get over what happened with Jake, I was still having a hard time coping with that. I would ask later about therapy, at least for now, I could continue with my meditations and spirituality stuff to help me cope. Danilo was helping too just by listening and offering his warmth. Suddenly, I felt the need to ask.

“Do you have a mate?” I could see it was a sore topic for him.

“Sadly, I do not, but I hope one day I will.”Danilo just smiled at me and excused himself from the room. I figured not to ask anymore.

“Ok, I’ll let you get acquainted with your room, I’ll check on you later for dinner, ok?” I nodded yes. What a weird day, I sighed, and it's not even night yet.