ANSEL I used to think it's ridiculous every time Ralph told me how much he was thinking about Nikki or how much he desperately missed her! Or how badly he just wanted to see her. He sounded like a simp to me! And now that's exactly how I feel right now. Like a total simp! I keep thinking about this girl, Ariella… Not that I want her running like this on my mind! I swear I don't! But then I see a random person eating an apple and I get a flash of her blue eyes lighting up every time she sees a bottle of apple juice. I'm given a gun to use in a movie scene and I see the terror in her eyes and reminded just how much she hates guns! I'm kinda starting to hate guns! Dude! I can't even bring myself to f**k another girl! I tried that s**t last night when I was frustrated by the who

