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the ellipses blinks on the messages screen for a while. I wouldn't be surprised if she made up some excuse for not wanting to continue the conversation after what I said. I know I would, and I'd make up some dumb excuse like I had to wash my room or something. I readjusted my sitting position while anxiously waiting for her speech bubble to be filled with words and not dots. "Come on, just hurry up and end this torture will ya?" Was she rereading what I wrote? Oh god, stop thinking. I squeezed my eyes closed in embarrassment. When I reopened them, there was a message. I cautiously read it.

"aw ur cute. ive decided i like you. wanna giv me ur # so we can talk more latr?"

Wow, she thought it was cute? I thought I was stupid. Oh well. "sure" I replied, and sent her my phone number.

***

That day we talked non stop. I had nowhere to be so I was home all day. Apparently she had nothing important to do either. We just wasted time with endless conversations discussing the basics such as our childhood, favorite things and our dreams for the future, which we both had no clue about. I love not being the only one lost in this big old world. Anyway, this is what I've gatherd so far: She's 5'6, 20 (early birthday). Her favorite color is yellow, she loves to draw, loves food, good music and she was also starting college soon except this would be her second year. She has no siblings and she stays with her single mom during the summer which is why I saw her that day. She is a lesbian and has been out for a while unlike me. And the rest, well, I will discover later.

As I talked to her, I walked around my house and ended up in different areas, but finally returned to my room when the sun was just starting to set. the time is now 7:56. At this time we were on the topic of s*x and she asked my if I had slept with anyone or if I was a virgin. I reply to her that I have yet to punch my v-card. And now I am waiting on a response. She is taking a while so instantly my brain goes into slight panic mode asking a thousand questions and freaking out when I actually have nothing to worry about. Then again, did i need to reveal so much of myself? I mean that was classified info i just gave out like i was handing out free balloons. But what can i say? What's done is done. Finally she responds.

" rlly? well thn i hav a lot to show you dont i?"

OK. Completely not the response I was expecting. I want to ask her what she means even though I know damn well what she means. I just want her to say it. But before I can say anything, she sends another text.

" gtg but ill call u latr". Oh no, don't go.

"alright, latr" I reply. I toss my phone onto the far side of the bed.

For some reason I feel flustered and hot. She said that she has a lot to show me. My inexperienced ass knows that that means she's into me... I think.

I grab my pillow and smother the huge grin creeping across my face with it. So she sees me like that? I am 5'2, really shy and silly so most people see me as a little sister or really young, childlike. Not date material. And definitely not sexy or hot because most of my clothes are from years ago when I was extremely shy and had low self esteem. I'm talkin bout sweatshirts and tights or t-shirts and jeans. And some converse to match, although I do have a few handmade crop tops and I own one pair of high waisted jeans and two pairs of shorts. Anyway, the point is that she finds me attractive enough to flirt with me and that makes me feel awesome because no one has been into me in years and now its finally happening. TO ME. What is life right now ya know?

Just then my phone vibrates. It's a message from her. "whatr u doing tomorrow?"

Hm? Why?

"i was gonna go to th gym" I was thinking about it but I know I was probably gonna spend all day at home.

"free up some time between 5 and 9 ok?"

"Why?"

I didn't get a response the rest of the night. I decided to shower, eat and watch Netflix until I passed out. I guess since I have nothing to do all day tomorrow she maybe wants to hang out but that's a pretty long time. Oh well.

I anxiously crawl into bed and open my laptop to Netflix. I'll watch the last episode of Altered Carbon and then go to sleep.