How many lovers?

I’m drained

So I got to my other job at the mall and in this other job I have to sell clothes to people. Let me tell you it’s really not a easy job because most people don’t want help or are to demanding about the most minimal stuff. People are rude and annoying everywhere it’s like they them selfs have not worked at customer service. The hours flew by and just when I was trying to get the store cleaned for closing my boss and I were left alone...

Chuck: Amelia come here

Oh no here we go again. I walk to the front desk. Stare at him with a serious face.

Amelia: yes?

Chuck: Your so beautiful

I stare at him and then ignore him and keep cleaning with the broom. When all of the sudden...

Chuck: Can I taste your tongue?

Amelia: Eww! NO!

I was simply in shock, my mind could not process what just happen and what he said out of the blue.

Chuck: Why not? to you think I’m ugly?

He was very annoyed right now. He had like weird teeth’s with different sizes and yellowish. He was starting to get bald in the front of his hair and it was of the color black. He was tall and really just had and ugly face in general. He looked like a serial killer to put it that way

So I immediately answered with out thinking for a moment

Amelia:Yes your ugly. Also your my boss and I would never go out with you.

He got really mad and I got scared to be fired because I talked so forward. I really need the job. Anyway when we close the store he still was mad however dint say another word to me the hall night thank God. I really wanna quit put can’t afford it. So on my way home I call William.

Amelia: mmm hey I got something to tell you…

William: hey what’s up?

Amelia:Well my boss said to me that he wanted to kiss me…

William: like wtf it’s wrong with him?! You have to quit your job.

Amelia: you know that as much as I want that I can’t.

William: mhm your mom gains good money she can help you. I don’t know why you have to pay stuff like grocery’s in your moms house it’s not fair.

Amelia: I already told you I do it to help and I’m a grown up who has to take responsibility in my spends. Also my mom doesn’t win that great plus she pays a lot on rent we have already talk about this. Also you know I don’t like it when you express about my family like that.

William: I’ve already told you that I think your family holds you back and treat you like a slave.

Amelia:and I already told you that when you have problems with your family I don’t talk badly about them so I expect the same from you. I expect from you to hear me and just support me. Not just talk trash about my family.

William: mhmm .

Amelia: anyway talk to you later I’m taking a shower.

My God it’s so frustrating because he always does that. Like I know he doesn’t like my family and it’s like I treat his family so good and with respect. You know not everything is pink roses in our relationship he always wants me to spend all my free time with him and his family. However he can’t spend half a day with mine. Everything has to go his way otherwise I’m the bad girlfriend who let’s her family manipulated her and with attitude and his mister perfect that doesn’t make any mistakes. I always have to wait for him when we go out he always is late for everything we plan together or he ends up changing the plans to what he wants to do.

Anyway I get out of the car and when I get inside my house…

Mom: Amelia hi don’t forget before you go to bed to do the dishes or else you know the consequences.

I roll my eyes. F… I hate doing the dishes every day I have to do the dishes even though there not mine in the first place. It’s already 11pm so I go get a shower and after that I end up in bed so tired that I don’t wanna do my homework from college. I’m so drained from college, work, my boyfriend, my family sometimes I really wish I could disappear. I got depression and anxiety problems I have to battle with them every day and it’s really not easy at all. A lot of people don’t get it they think that if one wanted to it could go away. Sometimes I contemplate about suicide… like the pain I carry on will simply go away. However I don’t do it because of my family and also I’m a coward to go through it. I just remembered i forgot to tell William that this weekend my Dad it’s coming over so we can all go out and spend some quality time together. They only seen each other like two times in all the time we’ve been together. So I text him to let him know the details and he says that okay his free on Sunday that he’ll come. I’m not gonna lied I got a lot of family issues to put it this way my family it’s very dysfunctional and not very conventional. Which mean I myself also got a lot of messed up issues. Family can mess you up it’s really hard to sometimes just let go of the past.