Chapter 5. I LoveYou
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"Gina, where are you going so early in the morning?"
I looked away for a moment. Then I focused on picking up the car keys on top of the small box there. "I'm going to Eka's house. I have something to talk to him about. It's about how I keep my feelings for him."
Don't ask me what my mother's face looked like back then. If she had, she probably would have thrown a vase of flowers in front of me. I saw my mother's footsteps getting closer to the tail of my eyes. In my heart, I already knew that in a moment some final words would come out of my mother's lips.
"Gina, you're joking, right? What kind of feelings are you trying to convey to him?"
I sobbed a little and looked at my mother's face. "You also know, right, that Gina has liked Eka for a long time. But you didn't do anything about it. And Tasya? Mama also introduced Tasya to Eka. Gina knows, Ma! Gina knows!"
"I-yeah, it was a long time ago, and it was just a joke. After all, they really liked each other in the end. Gin?"
"No!"
"Gin, Eka is getting married. Do you want to be a bad girl? You're not meant to be with her. Let it all go!"
Mom is trying to calm me down now. It's not that she doesn't know about my feelings, it's just that she seems to prefer not to get me involved with anything related to my feelings during school. Tasya is my own cousin.
"If Tasya can, why can't I?!" I asked in an angry tone.
One thing is for sure, there is a misunderstanding here. If only at that time I had the courage to convey my heart, Eka might be mine now. A man who only dates once and gets married is a very rare thing. Oh, of course, I wouldn't have said it then either. Mom and stepdad would just kick me out of the house. They just wanted me to focus on school. I knew that and kept it all to myself and kept encouraging myself that there would come a sweet time to tell Eka how I felt.
"Gina! Gina!" mom shouted as she continued to chase me.
Losing speed. I got in the car and started to warm up the engine and prepared to step on the gas pedal. I had only one thought today, to tell Eka my feelings, if necessary; to make him think twice about marrying Tasya. One thing I was sure of was that the afternoon in Jayapura city would witness how Gina Audtyra let out all her feelings. I was ready to be the brave Gina.
I was already on the main road. While the light was red, I used that moment to send Eka a message to meet me somewhere. I added to ask Eka to come alone. I don't know what is going through me now, but I want to meet Eka.
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I have arrived at the Mercure Hotel.
"Gina!"
Honestly, I was not happy with Eka's arrival. It was not because of Eka, but the girl he was with. In fact, it was clear in the short message to ask Eka to come alone. Tasya also greeted me. She was very happy to see me and had already started with her plan to make me one of her bridesmaids. Outwardly, my face looked normal, but in my heart, I clearly wanted to refuse.
Then, we started ordering some menu. Eka and Tasya started to feel uncomfortable with the quietness of the place. How could a restaurant in a well-known hotel in the city be without people? One thing is for sure, all of this was in my plan. Yes, I'm the one who made all of this.
"So, what did you really want to say? Tasya and I were having a wedding dress fitting." Eka started the conversation very happily. "By the way, it's very quiet up here Gina."
"Oh of course, maybe because of the daylight." I suddenly looked at Eka's face and started saying, "Eka, if I say I love you, will you think of canceling the wedding?" Slowly but very clearly.
Suddenly, Eka and Tasya were very surprised. It was a question that was very unlikely to be answered with a yes. I suddenly stood up from my chair and walked out of the restaurant area. Yes, it was the highest place in the hotel. In fact, I had climbed the guardrail there. My resolve was already very much made up. One thing was on my mind now-success or no return at all. The self-centered version of Gina Audtyra is taking over me right now.
Eka and Gina followed me. I saw them running.
"Don't come any closer, I'll jump!" I started threatening. I looked back and saw the big street below with all its hustle and bustle. To be honest, I was also very afraid of being up there. Dying or maybe breaking a bone-things that would happen to me.
"Gina get down!"
"No! I don't want to get down from here!"
"Don't be crazy, Gina! Come here, we can talk about this properly."
I was not indifferent. I was well-prepared for what I was doing.
"Gina!" Eka's shout grew louder as he saw me stepping closer to the edge of the platform.
Eka and Tasya became panicked and confused. They only knew one thing; to help me, maybe.
"If you marry me, I won't kill myself!"
Eka was silent. She didn't expect me to be so brave to say it. Reckless. One word that is very appropriate to describe myself right now.
"I love you, Eka!"
The faces of the 2 people there were getting more and more confused. They didn't know how to react. Lying about their feelings and hurting Tasya is not an easy thing. Eka and Tasya's wedding date has already been set. Is it still possible to change it? Crazy!
"Gina, get down from there!"
"No! Until you promise to marry me!"
Eka looked very confused. She couldn't promise me anything either. Then, I looked at Tasya's face as if asking her for a wish. Tasya removed her hand from Eka's arm. She smiled and touched the man's face.
"I'm glad I got to know you, Eka. However, I realized that there are other people's hearts that I have hurt over the years." Tasya looked at me. "Gina! Come here, I-I'll let Eka go for you!"
An old adage that may not be forgotten. Love appropriately. Everything in excess is not good. No matter what it's for.
I was glad to see it, how Eka looked at Tasya's face with inexpressible anger. That woman handed Eka over to me so easily. Don't ask me again how I felt. My heart felt happy, but also displeased. I couldn't believe it and was also confused by this situation. How could Eka be given to me so easily? What does all this mean?
I thought to myself, and without realizing it my feet had lost their balance.
"Gina!!!"
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