The moment I stepped into the familiar school grounds, I was in for a riot.
People who were chatting and the buzzing stopped what they were doing when they stared at me as I nervously tucked my rose-gold tendrils at the back of my ears. The heat of their stares consumed me at my arrival in the school hallway.
It was like I could see my rebirth in their eyes, they expected me to be dead and missing but here I was, in the flesh and bones. Levy's arm kept me comforted when we reached the principal's office.
"Can we take our exams schedule?" Levy asked the receptionist, not reacting to the lady's eyes zeroing at his arm intimately around my shoulder.
"Here you go, Mr. Teddy wanted to see you," she gestured to the principal's door and handed Levy our exams schedule.
My nerves consumed me whole, I was not much of a social person, I was only comfortable with talking to Levy, his mom, and my dad.
Levy seemed unfazed as he opened the principal's door without knocking. Fear gnawed inside of me as the possibility of not ever being the same made me fidget in Levy's arms.
"Hey, Mr. T," he sent a smirk her way as the principal turned his chair around to face Levy with a frown on his big face.
I felt sorry for Mr. Teddy because he had high hopes that made him blind to acknowledge the reality of the situation. Oregon High was a total mess made of drunk people, druggies, and whores. The only good people here were few and if it wasn't for Levy's parents, the school would be closed forever by the council.
"Lia," he looked at me with a sympathy in his eyes, "I heard about Mr. David, I am sorry for your loss," my heart tugged as the mantra kept repeating itself with I can't do this and I forgot where I was at, feeling the world spinning.
Levy noticed because he stood in front of me and massaged my head the way the doctor told him to before I was let out. I sighed in relief when Levy managed to decrease my ache before the hallucination happened.
"Levy," I sobbed, "I can't do this," I exclaimed and he kissed my forehead, stroking my cheeks calmly when his eyes met mine.
"Lia, you're going to be fine, remember that you can do this," he encouraged as his lips brushed against mine in a soft peck, ignoring Mr. Teddy until he coughed, making his presence known.
Levy turned around and brought me to sit down next to him. "Now, since you have skipped one week for the end of the semester due to urgent reasons, you will have your exams next Monday and you will graduate after three weeks once the exams have been corrected. Your regular revision classes will go on and you will attend them all, no excuses from now on, I expect A's from you both, now off you go," he finished as we nodded, my hands sweating from the pressure of coming back to school after what felt like a long time.
"Levy Martin," the principal called out as his black mustache was stroked by his fingers when Mr. Teddy glared at my boyfriend when he turned to him, "I have heard many complaints about your PDA with Lia, you will stop this before I give you detention," he warned.
"Sir, I do understand that we have a policy here," Levy came in front of his desk and he slapped a hand on it as his eyes neared the principal's frantic ones, "but it doesn't apply to me, right Mr. Teddy?" he eyed him intensely with a smirk on his face.
"Go to your first class." he instructed, and Levy told him, "nice talk, Mr. T." only to be met by his dagger eyes.
Levy chuckled as we went out of the principal's office and the displeased lady.
We took seats beside each other in history and his hand squeezed mine in reassurance. I wanted to bolt out of the class due to my overbearing anxiety.
Mrs. Carmen came inside and started the revision and my mind turned her off as my eyes admired the garden outside of the school with birds flocking behind each other and the morning sun gleamed at me in welcome.
I realized that the whole school knew about my father as they kept turning around from time to time and sympathized with me, I hated their pitiful looks at me and I wanted to disappear. I didn't want to be known as the school's latest shooting victim or the girl who her father was shot by her mother.
It was hard for me and I felt all clammed up, as my eyes went back to the teacher when more students continued to gaze at me with more compassion. I never was pitied upon and I hated it, it was like a punch in my gut at how weak I was in front of them.
I just wanted to snuggle with Levy and forget about the way their eyes looked at me.
Levy sensed my uncertainty and patted my thigh under the table. I covered my hand with his with a promise that I was going to get better by time. He intertwined our fingers and I felt the usual jitters of his touch consuming me like buzzes of amenity.
When class was over and we were in our way, my eyes widened as well as Levy's as flashes of cameras blinded us, Mr. Teddy came out running to stop the students from taking pictures of me, my tears welled in my eyes as Levy roared at them to stop and I clutched the back of his shirt when he led me outside of the school.
He soothed me in his hold after that chaotic interference and my eyes remained on a girl with a sad smile, sitting on the bench in front of the school's parking lot.