What It Means To Love You

Indiscreet Intentions

...Skylar...

They say that 'for some moments in life there are no words', and I have never felt this statement to be truer than at this very moment.

I was frozen in place, unable to move. Fear and anger coursed through my body and I didn't know what to do.

Comet came up behind me to ask if I was OK and I jumped in fright.

"Comet, what is wrong with you, why would you do that?" I whispered yelled at him.

He looked at me sympathetically, with downcast eyes.

"I apologize Raindrop, I didn't mean to frighten you." He spoke sincerely.

I buried my head in his chest and hugged him closer to my body, willing the memories to fade away as I tried my best to keep the tears at bay.

We remained like this until I felt someone touch me.

"Baby, I'm sorry, I just..." Chas trailed off.

I shook my head at her and continued to hug Comet to my body, trying my best to blend my body with his. I wasn't upset with Chastity, but I only desired the comfort of Comet's arms and at this moment nothing else mattered.

"Skylar..." Someone called to me, but I was too unfocused to determine who.

Suddenly, I was picked up and held close. I felt an immense amount of protection and safety, I felt like I was being wrapped in a warm blanket of comfort and security, every fear disappeared, like a dream I've never awoken to.

A few moments passed before I was being laid on a bed and an arm wrapping around me, pulling me closer until I was cocooned as I slowly drifted off to sleep.

Later, I awoke to soft whispers and a tray of food being placed before me.

"Thank-You; what time is it?" I asked no one in particular.

"5:30. How do you feel, are you OK?!" Chas asked.

"Yes, Thank-You, I feel fine. WOW, it's late!"

Com and the guys chuckled.

"Says the ONE who just slept for the past six hours." Comet snickered.

I rolled my eyes and stuck my tongue out at him.

"If you stick your tongue out again, I just might be tempted to bite it." Christian whispered seductively in my ear; once again filling my stomach with Butterflies and Bumblebees.

Why did this keep happening?

I turned to him and shook my head.

"That's not very nice and extremely unsanitary."

"Is it? Would you like it if I bit your lip instead?" He asked, leaning in closer to my face.

"NO...no, Thank-You, but Thank-You for asking." I smirked at him.

He burst out into laughter and I simply smiled at him. He had a beautiful laugh, and I seriously needed to get my uncensored feelings and raging emotions in check.

"Aids called." Rose spoke.

"When?"

"An hour ago, but we told him you were sleeping and that we would make sure you called him back."

"Thank-You, I should probably prepare to go home." I spoke aloud and I felt Christian tense beside me, but I could have just imagined it.

"Why, Why do you have to leave, Why can't you stay?" Asked Chas dejectedly.

"Because, I am not prepared to stay and there are things I need to take care of before I leave for Paris." I tried to explain.

"What's in Paris and when do you leave?" Christian asked with a slight edginess to his voice.

"A Fashion Gala and I leave in two weeks."

Christian removed himself from the bed and walked to the door to take a call.

"What things do you need from home, Princess?"

"I don't need anything, Christian, because I'm going home." He simply smiled at me, challengingly.

"Can we come home with you?" Rose asked. What is up with them?

"We...we just want to spend more time with you." Rose, further explained.

I smiled at her. "Of course, there is nothing that I would like more."

"Great, let's go." Comet spoke excitedly, picking me up.

"Comet,... put me down." I said in-between breaths, I could not stop laughing at his childlike joy.

"Put her down, Comet." Christian spoke darkly.

"It's fine, I truly don't mind." I couldn't keep up with Christian's constant mood swings. I didn't understand what could possibly be bothering him that he was responding in such a way.

Christian ignored me and his jaw tensed the longer Comet continued to hold me. What was his problem?

"Comet". He started in a calm manner that didn't match his demeanor.

"I said it was fine, if he desires to hold me then he may. You are being very rude and ugly and it is not at all nice." I scolded him.

"Comet" Cody called a bit unsteadily.

Before he was able to respond I was gently lifted from his arms and held firmly in Christian's. I noticed his breathing was ragged and unsteady as if he had been running. And, I could only think about what had caused such a reaction from him that he allowed it to mar his beautiful features.

"You may put me down, I am fully capable of walking."

He was angry, I could tell from the way his jaw continued to tense as I spoke to him. He ignored me, his only indication of listening was to tighten his grip around me as he continued to walk towards his car.

"Christian."

"Yes, Princess"

"I said that you could put me down."

And, he did, only to place me on his lap as we settled in the car.

I would be lying if I said I was uncomfortable sitting upon his lap, in fact, what I felt was the complete opposite and this scared me. I was never this type of person, I had just gone through a break-up and though Christian was often there for me, I didn't know him. With this thought, I tried to remove myself from my position on his lap, but the more I moved the tighter he held me to himself.

"Relax Princess, are you not comfortable?" I could hear the smugness in his voice and I wanted nothing more than to wipe the smirk off his cocky face.

"I have nothing to say to you at the moment." He merely chuckled and rubbed my arms as I relaxed in his hold.

Soon I was home and once again in the arms of Christain.

"Christian, I would greatly appreciate it if you were to put me down."

"And, why is that Princess? Why is it that Comet can hold you close, but I may not?" He asked testily.

"I know Comet, I'm comfortable with him."

He pursed his lips in a firm, tight line and I couldn't shake the feeling that I had offended him.

"Fine."

He spoke after a long silence and set me down, only to hold my hand. I said nothing of this and walked through the entrance doors to my condo. I noticed how perfectly our hands molded together. Once again my stomach erupted in Butterflies and Bumblebees, and I wondered if he also felt these things or was something seriously wrong with me.

"Hello, Alex."

Alex was one of the security guards posted at the entrance doors and a very sweet and charming young man.

"Hello Sky, how are you? I haven't seen you in a while."

He smiled at me and I could feel Christian tighten his grip on my hand. I looked up at him and noticed that he was already looking at me. I turned back to Alex and returned his smile.

"I am fine, just busy, Thank-You and You?"

"I'm Well."

"Great."

I was walking towards the elevators when I heard Alex call out to me.

"Hey, Sky..."

I turned back towards Alex and he shook his head.

"I'm sorry, Nevermind, have a GoodNight."

"Thank-you and You too."

Entering the elevator I pressed the button to the 24th floor. After, exiting the elevator, I could finally breathe properly. Being in such an enclosed space with my body pressed against Christian's was anything, but good for my celibacy and wild imagination. Opening the door, I allowed everyone in.

"I apologize for the messiness, I have yet to take the time to clean." I spoke nervously.

"Why are you acting so shy?" Consta asked knowingly.

I simply glared at him.

"Awe...don't act like that Skylar." He remarked with mischief in his eyes. "I'm sure Christian doesn't mind." I was ready to kill him.

"I see you brought more fish." Comet comments.

"Yes, after I found Nemo, I had to find Dory, so Marlin wouldn't be so lonely." I smirked at him, while the others laughed.

I excused myself to call my brother and bathe. After returning from my Bedroom to the Great Room I noticed everyone was making themselves comfortable, but also how clean it was.

"OK, so I ordered pizza, it should be here shortly."

"But, you don't like pizza!" Rose spoke.

"I know, so I am going to have a bowl of cereal and fruit."

"Cereal, Sky it's eight in the evening." Cayden, the oldest, spoke.

"Yes, but it's NEVER too late for a bowl of cereal." "And, Thank-You for cleaning, however, I was going to attend to it."

"Stop being so fussy." Chastised Rose "We are a family and we share in responsibilities alike."

"Or we could have just as simply hired someone." Remarked Comet, indignantly.

I seated myself with the others as we waited on the couch, comfortably with my Snuggie and bowl of fruit.

...Christian...

"My Mind runs rampant, My Thoughts are pacing,

My Love is tangent, My Heart is racing;

I feel lost in a matrix of what to do,

And, I wonder how it is that I keep from losing you?"

I wanted to KILL Comet. He continued his playful banter with her and I was left to listen to her constant laughter and cute giggles, these things I didn't mind, her voice was my soul's song. No, what I didn't like was that I was not the cause of her happiness.

"You are making me uncomfortable with your moodiness!" Chastity complained.

"I feel lost on what to do Buttercup."

"That's new." She laughed.

"I know."

"Sky loves 'the chase', it gives her adrenaline rush, but don't push too hard or you just may push her away!"

"Did you forget who you were talking to?" I asked her arrogantly. 'I am a SUPERnatural PREDATOR, I live for the CHASE.!" I smirked at her.

"I know what the problem is." She smirked back at me. "Casanova isn't used to girls not falling to their knees willing to give and do anything to please him."

Thinking back to all those other girls and their over-willingness to please me, suddenly disgusted me. And, though those times were before Skylar, I regretted every moment that wasn't shared with her. Every look, touch, smell, and pleasure.

Yearning for her touch I pulled her closer to me. I have begun to notice now that every time I touched her in any way she would look at me with questioning eyes, seeking answers only the soul could give.

"Yes, Princess?"

"Why do you continue to do that?"

"Because you, Sweetheart are..."

The intercom buzzer went off, seeking permission for the delivery person to come up. Needless to say, Skylar excused herself and went to answer the door.

Chastity and Itlay laughed at my sour expression and my Erasthai's cluelessness to what she was doing to me. Why is it that every intimate moment is ruined with something so insignificant?

A few moments later Skylar returned with the pizzas and a soft smile playing on her lips. Jealousy was coursing through my body and I was fighting the need to shift. Chastity gently placed her hand on my arm, her eyes begging me to calm down.

"OK, so 'Bonanza, MacGyver, Scorpion, or Touched By An Angel'?" Skylar asked, beaming her beautiful smile at us.

The guys couldn't stop laughing and she began to pout.

"WHAT?!" She demanded.

"Are you serious?" Comet found the breath to ask.

"Yes, what is wrong with those options?" She asked, placing her hands on her hips.

She was too cute. I got up to pick her up and placed her in my lap. She was still pouting.

"Those were great choices, Princess." I beamed, smiling at her.

"Or if you MEN would prefer we could always watch 'How to Train Your Dragon, Kung Fu Panda, Finding Dory, Big Hero 6, or Mulan."

''NOOOOOOOO'' they all exclaimed.

Anything she wanted to see I was perfectly fine with me, as long as I could hold her in my arms.

"Well, the 'Curse Free TV' is installed, so we can watch 'Jurassic Park or Remember the Titans if you prefer.'' She offered.

Finally, everybody agreed upon Jurassic Park and we began our Movie Marathon.

"Are you not going to eat?" Skylar whispered in my ear.

Never has such a small gesture created so many lovely thoughts within my mind and intense pleasure in my body. It took EVERY restraint in my person not to kiss her.

"No, Sweetheart," I whispered back.

I wasn't going to allow ANYTHING to ruin or disturb this moment that I was sharing with her.

"Do you not like the pizza; I can get you something else if you prefer." She was so sweet and caring, but sassy with small amounts of attitude and I loved that.!

I needed to reposition us because her small breaths on my ear and neck were doing dangerous things to me.

"I assure you, Princess, that I am more than comfortable. However, I would enjoy nothing more than the soft touch of your fingertips upon my lips, if you desire to feed me." I smiled wickedly at her.

She smiled softly and bowed her head; I'm sure if her skin was of a lighter tone, I would have seen a small blush.

"Is someone blushing?!" Comet and Cayden teased, garnering everyone's attention to us.

"We DO NOT do blushing, Babe.!" Italy insisted.

"Stop IC, NOT, all of us can be icy.!" Rose defended.

"Very true, besides, I prefer her SPICY.!" She winked at Skylar.

"Guys STOP.!" She finally spoke, completely flustered, but unable to remove the smile from her face.

"I am going to have a bath." She spoke, lifting from my lap and walking toward the stairs.

"Need help?!" I questioned, completely happy with myself.

"NO!" She screamed

"But, Babe, you just had a bath," Chastity recalled, with a sly grin sitting wickedly upon her face.

"Well, I'm having another one!"

Cody and Rose shook their heads, while everyone else broke out into a hysterical fit.

"Well, it has been lovely, but I am tired, so I am going to retire. GoodNight All." Halo interjected.

"Also, make sure Sky takes her Vitamins.!" Halo yelled.

"Wait, why are you leaving that job for me, you know she HATES taking any type of medication." Chastity yelled back.

"Make her, GoodNight" Halo sang in return.

Chastity laid back on the couch pouting, I was going to ask her about when my phone begin to go off.

'Victoria' I sighed, I'll call her back later.

"Who's that?" Chastity asked.

"Victoria."

She didn't respond, however, she did roll her eyes.

Victoria was my best friend, we had known each other since infantry. There was always Chastity, Christopher, and me, but often Victoria would try to involve herself in our circle. Chastity was very territorial and always made it known that she was unwelcomed. After Christopher's death, her presence was the only one I could stand. After I left, she came looking for me a year later, and we have been close ever since.

Soon Skylar returned freshly bathed and beautiful.

"Well, I am going to go to bed. You all are more than welcomed to stay; there are two guest bedrooms available or whatever you prefer. GoodNight and I Love Youuuuu.!" She spoke, throwing kisses.

"Do we not get Hugs and Kisses GoodNight.?" Comet asked, he was really testing his limits.

She gently smiled. "Only if you come and get them."

And, I watched as he approached her; picked her up, and spun her around; again she emitted the cutes giggles I had ever heard. Noticing the tenseness in my mood Rose whispered something to him and Cayden smacked him. He merely turned and smirked at me and it took everything within me not to kill him in that second.

I quickly noticed that Skylar was looking at me concerned.

"GoodNight, Princess." I smiled at her, hoping she would return it with one of her own.

"GoodNight Christain." She spoke, but she appeared to be deep in thought and I wondered what it was that was bothering her.

"Well, we should all go to sleep and I'm officially calling it a Girl's night, so we will see you guys in the "Morning!" Italy announced.

"But, Baby" Cayden whined.

Italy playful glared at him and the rest of us either chuckled or groaned.

"Cayden will be fine, I will ensure it," Comet interjected, clapping his hands together.

"I will not, especially if I have to spend the remainder of my night with you.!"

"Awe, Baby, tell me something I will actually believe.!" Comet responded.

"I. am going. to kill you.!" Cayden spoke menacingly, running after Comet.

"You break it, You buy it ."Skylar yelled from somewhere upstairs.

I only shook my head remembering when we were kids.

"Raindrop" Comet called out suddenly, still running from Cayden.

"Yes, Comet!?" She asked, as if she was dealing with a troublesome child.

"Drop the beat."

"Which one.?"

"AG...Positions!" He smirked.

Shortly after, 'Positions' begin to play in the speakers throughout the house. Comet then jumps on her table, I promise I thought he was going to break it, and begins to strip while singing the lyrics to Cayden.

"Comet, what the h..."

"Language!" Skylar yelled.

"What. are. YOU. doing. Comet?" Cayden asked darkly.

"I'm switching the Positions for you.!" Comet sang out.

"I am going to kill you, very slowly and very painfully." Cayden threatened.

"You see...There some 'STUFF' that I usually don't do, but for you I kinda, I kinda want to, cause you down for me and I'm down too, so tell me again, whatcha, whatcha gon do.!" He smirked as he continued to sing.

By this time Comet had gathered an audience and they clapped his performance to tears.

"Thank-You, Next" Comet smirked, gesturing to Cayden.

"NO, break-up with your singing career, because I'm tired, sleepy, and ready for bed". Skylar spoke before anyone could respond.

"GoodNight Boys" Chastity expressed in a singsong manner.

"Men, Chastity, NOT boys; and you are not too old to be taken across the knew for your blatant disrespect." Comet mentioned in defense of his honor.

"Oh yeah?" Chastity asked smirking back at him

"Yes," He stressed.

"I will drop my own beat ." And she began to sing KM 'Can't Raise A Man' as she made her way back upstairs until she was out of sight and for a moment I thought I was in a musical.

Us 'men laughed while Comet sat back on the couch pouting, and to think I was the baby of them all SMH.

My phone was suddenly lighting up with another call from Victoria, but my thoughts were elsewhere and that is where I wanted them to remain.