5. Xander’s Words
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When I woke up to the sound of someone knocking on my window, I freaked out because I realized I was inside my car and had fallen asleep on private property.
When I looked through the window, I saw Xander holding a Malta India and a cheese sandwich.
Moving to the front, I turn on my kadashi sky blue car and lower the window; he hands me both items and says, "I apologize for last night; there is a lot at stake, and even if my wife is not the best. I still love her. I hope you understand that I did not intend to be rude.
He said it casually, but it was obvious he was disappointed, as was I. Stretching myself, he said, "She left; you can come in."
I took my phone as he walked away, making sure no one knew who I was, but I was fed up with men who did this to me, who did this to a son, and pretended it was okay.
Seeing him nervous, I decided to friend his wife; she had every right to reject an easy guy like him; she deserved better.
For years, I was always the second-to-last, but I suppose that is what many people need to wake up from their misery. I just hope that one day I will be blessed with the opportunity to experience true love.
Taking the food, I replied with renewed energy, "na, it is fine, I will just eat and then go see my aunt, remember?" Besides, I might run into an old friend while I am here. It will give you time to clear up any rumors; my car was here all night. So it will be even.
He sadly smiled at my words; too bad for him, I was not going to stick around for a two-inch, which is why I never ask for their size.
If I knew, I would not have a flame to feel proud of later, but what a cliffhanger! After finishing my food, I returned the glass and paper towel; he has an OCD of cleaning his way, even when someone else eats his food. Where can I find creeps like this?
As I approach the front seat, I wave goodbye to Xander, who is now walking. As I start my car, I text my mother.
Me| I’m right now in Texas mommy, can you tell Aunty I will be visiting her?
Mommy| okay. Is everything okay?
Me| no but I can’t talk. I'm driving, send me her directions please?
After that last text, she sent me Aunt Sally's or Lily's directions (she goes by either name), and I drove there; I had no idea she had to pay a toll, which is great.
Could I be any smarter? I got a ticket for driving too fast and now I have to pay a toll without the stupid ticket.
Rolling my eyes, I turned up the music, hoping that ignoring it would relieve my stress.
Finding a husband was becoming difficult, and I was beginning to realize that the worst options were the easiest.
Taking my turn, I cursed under my breath. My aunt was not home, so I texted my mother again after parking my car.
Me| she isn’t home, is she working?
Mommy| yes she just got out from getting little Andrew.
Me| can I call you?
She agreed, and my phone started to ring.
My last call from my mother was to inform me that the bill for my hospital stay had been sent, following my strokes, which my current husband refused to treat.
Picking it up, I took a deep breath.
Mommy| Vicky? God bless you.
Me| amén. What’s up?
Mommy| well I just got some cooking done, how’s everything? Is Texas big?
Me| Yea it took me three days and sixteen hours to get here, waisted three first night, but I made it to auntie’s, I leave tomorrow.
Mommy| okay well at least you’re getting out. Are you sure this is what you want? I mean there’s marriage counseling Victoria, your daddy and I took some in church and it helped a lot.
Me| Which daddy, yours or the sperm donor?
Mommy| Daddy Victoria, Jose, why do you ask such a question.
Me| okay step dad, well it worked with him because you got into a better life, be abused you got a family mom. I didn’t. Or have you forgotten what Francisco’s mother did?
Mom| yes that’s true Victoria, but it is an option. Consider it, when mother learns of this, which she hasn’t she will be disappointed. We are trying to keep your life the way it has been, it’s a blessing to be in a marriage with good income, you're giving up too early.
Me| thanks mom. Nice moral support, no f*****g wonder my bra size stayed in training.
I rolled my eyes at her insight on my life.
Me| shouldt you be with your daddy dearest? Just tell Aunty I’m here before you disappear again, wouldn’t want to make your daddy quick me out of the family tree.
Mommy| Victoria, he regrets that choice he took. It was a mistake.
Me| and yet here I am, trying to divorce a psychopath with an obsession of video games, and zero real human skills. A choice I didn’t fully have, all thanks to your daddy having ducking religious natzy issues, please refrain from f*****g fixing other people’s s**t mom. Shows your hardcore devotion to religion but grosses humanity.
I ended the call; I did not want to continue the conversation.
Things simply do not change for people who do not want to; it took me three years to accept this, and nearly a year to accept the reality that I am not loved; if they cannot get what they want from me, I am nothing more than a good time.
As if I had summoned the devil himself, my phone began to ring, and when I looked at who was on the screen, it was my soon-to-be ex-husband; I felt nauseous as I responded.
Francisco| Victoria?
Me| yes, what’s up?
Francisco| Maya ran away, she was found in an apartment complex. Why haven’t you gotten my cat?
Me| oh, I didn’t knew.
Francisco| also the car was charged with a toll payment in texas. Care to tell me why I got these messages and all your telling me is you didn’t knew?
Me| because I left out of the blue to visit my aunt and people I thought wanted me, because you left for your deployment, God bless America but f**k marriages and their needs to feel any type of affection, Maya is one lucky p***y that’s for sure.
Francisco| I’m sorry I didn’t see you were really going to be missing me.
Me| classic. Well when I get any information about your p***y I’ll let you know.
Francisco| I love you. It’s not easy this deployment but you staying loyal makes me feel safe.
Me| I want a divorce Francis. I’m done. When your cat is found you will know.
When my aunt arrived, I ended the phone call. A group of teenage boys walked beside me and asked, "Hey, are you okay?"
When one of them pointed at my cheek, I put my hand on it, which was wet from tears, and said, "Oh, thank you; I was unaware."
They saw my aunt get closer and decided to bail. My aunt hugged me, as did Andrew, and we were upstairs eating a simple meal when Olivia texted me.
Honestly, I felt bad that Olivia was solving this for me, but I knew the damage it had done to her when she lost her cat; I just can not remember how it happened; we were texting back and forth when my aunt showed me to the bathroom, which was completely decorated in Star Wars; it was pretty cool, but Andrew hugged my soon-to-be ex-husband's mind craft jacket for the rest of my visit.
While I was taking a shower, Olivia texted me that she had found the cat; I took this opportunity to inform the owner.
Me| There is your cat. Safe and sound, Olivia has her, I’ll see her shortly.
Francisco| thank you, she will be my only companion and I didn’t want to lose her.
Me| you won’t lose her, just do your deployment. Can’t have America hate me for taking your attention this way.
Francisco| Okay, thank you. Good night Vicky.
Me| night.
I put on my new clothes and charge my phone as I walk to the dance with my aunt. Were they doing the famous one from a guy named Cason? Carlson? Some names are like that.
After that, my aunt took my hand and asked, "Do you want crema de coco? (Coconut créame candy?)"
I smiled and said, "Yeessss, omg Aunty Yess."
She walked to get one from a stash she had hidden and said, "Your mom called to say you were getting divorced, to make it look like Junior was hiding his mistresses. Tell me the truth, Vicky.
I held the candy because I knew she would do it.
None of my family members or friends who have been like allies have stopped smoking when nothing else is going on in their lives.
"Yes, I had an affair, and based on what I did, the guy may have had a baby, but he is no man; worse than Junior, I give no stars of recommendation."
My aunt laughed but said, "The apple does not fall far from the tree, but at least you agree on what is worth a family and what isn't." "Just do not knock up like a girl."
I took a deep breath and said, "I would not dream of it; two inches is not worth the headache. My aunt laughed a lot in that one.
She tapped my shoulder and looked straight at me, saying, "You look exactly like him, but you are smarter than him; even if Alejandra will not admit it, you told him the truth?"
I shook her hand; my father had never told the truth until one day when s**t broke.
"I intend to, I just need a moment to gather what I can; I can not do what the wealthy do."
She nodded, "See?" She is a smart girl. Okay, now let us go rest; I have a tough day tomorrow."
I kissed her cheek and said goodnight.
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