What you wish for

CHAPTER 5

Alice 

I cried myself to sleep that night. I regretted that I gave in to the temptation. I'm lying. I don't regret meeting Jekyll. I always wished to find a man like him, finding that he looked like the man I wrote about. That just granted my wish. Unfortunately, life doesn't hand you your wishes on a silver platter without a twist.  The next morning I woke up feeling like the walking dead. I took my phone off the nightstand and saw a few missed calls from Lena. One voice message. "Alice" Lena's voice made my head pound even more. "I heard what happened. Are you okay? Please tell me you made it home safe" I switched off the voice message before I could listen to it further and dialed her number. She picked up at the last minute. "Alice?" I climbed out of bed and started making my way to the kitchen. "Lena I'm fine." I found the headache pills in my top cabinet in the open plan kitchen and took out two. "You sure about that? Jake said Henry walked in on the two of you" I stopped for a second as I was reaching for a glass to fill with water. "Jake?" "Yes, Jekylle's real name is Jake. Didn't you two introduce each other" I rolled my eyes feeling pain again. I groaned filling the glass with water. "Noooo, we didn't really think about that when we" Lena stopped me. "DID YOU?!" I almost dropped my phone when she screamed. "No Lena calm the fudge down. My head is killing me" A few moments of silence then a mumble. "Sworry" I could hear her pouting over the phone. I drank the two pills and sat down at the table. "Gonna tell me what happened?" She curiously asked. "Uh...."  "Fine, spare me the details. But Henry" I sighed. "Lena, I know I'm supposed to be mad and livid. But Jekyll...Jake" I closed my eyes trying to get the names right. "He held me through the attack, didn't want me to go. You know how I get when I have a panic attack" I could hear her bedding move. s**t, I didn't even ask where she was. "I'm bothering you. I didn't even ask-" "Don't worry about it. I'm more worried about you" I laid my head on the table, uncomfortable as a table gets the cold of the granite counter helped with remedying the headache. "I'm just numb like I always get. I don't think Jake wants to see me after what I could hear Henry tell him" Another shuffle and then the click of a gas stove. "What exactly did you hear him say?" I sat up, drank the last bit of water feeling a little better, then decided to do exactly what Lena was. Make coffee. "Told him I was a slut" A gasp from Lena told me she was upset. "I had an attack seeing him, not because of his words to me" a cup was placed on the counter and a spoon dropping into it "I'm so sorry Sweetheart" I shrugged. "I will be fine Lena. I just need some good therapy" A snort out of Lena's mouth made me laugh. "And that sound?" I asked. "You? therapy? Alice...." I stopped her. "I meant retail doll. Not actual therapy" An audible sigh of relief. "So going out alone? or want me to tag along?" She asked. I contemplated the offer before I replied. "Let me do it for myself. I will be fine. I have a few ideas to make me feel good about myself and try and move forward again. Just pray I don't find that special brand of Jack Daniels on the way. It has been out of stock for the longest of time and Honey is expensive to try and duplicate the whiskey." I could feel her narrowing her eyes by the way the silence filled the air. "Please don't go over the top. And if you do get that bottle....for the love of all things Alice, don't do what I wouldn't" I smirked, regretted it, and groaned as the headache slowly wanted to start up again. "Go and shower and try and enjoy yourself." My best friend really knew how to motivate me. "Aye Lena" I put up my best yet worse accent ever. "Never do that again" She scolded. "Can't promise anything." We said goodbye and I took a shower. I felt much better after so much so that I actually did my makeup myself. After a long but good morning, I finally got home with five packages filled with new outfits, nightwear, and some things for the trunk I keep under my bed. The forbidden trunk held equipment, pleasure pieces, and even more so bondage things. I placed the packages on the made bed and first took out the bottle of Jack Daniels and went to put it in the kitchen. Returning to the bedroom, I turned on my computer and searched for the playlist I made for just these moments. It has been my way of dealing with panic attacks and remedying myself when I feel the need to feel beautiful. As the music filled the area of my room and kitchen I got undressed and started dressing in the outfits. The full-length mirror near my bathroom door was my only audience as I made my room a modeling runway. The outfits were perfect. from the blue aphrodite dress to the long elegant baby pink formal wear. A few pairs of high cut jeans that were made for a curvy body like mine, and a few business shirts that made me look absolutely amazing. After the dress, I danced into the kitchen, got a whiskey tumbler from my cabinet, and poured myself some of the whiskey. It clearly didn't compare to the whiskey I drank with Jake. I swirled the liquid thinking of last night. I should probably just forget about him. I already made the worst impression by having an attack and walking out without explaining. Did I even want to explain? I took another sip went back into the room and continued dressing up. Eventually, after the second bag was empty and the rest in the cleaning basket for cleaning, I emptied the third one on the bed. This one was filled with all the things for the trunk. I went on my knees still in a very nice black flowing infinity dress my head already spinning since I refilled my glass three times already by this time. The bottle was in the living room and it was almost at the halfway mark. I sat down while bobbing my head to Bob Marleys three little birds. Opening the trunk I looked at the clothing, equipment, bondage, and rope that lay in there. Neatly packed for when I ever find somebody who would want to do this with me. I giggled as my head felt fuzzy. I'm just a freak I thought as I placed the new things in there with the rest. I left the trunk out and open as I stood up and went out into the living room to fill my glass once again, now more than ever intending to finish the bottle. 

JAKE  Driving out of the city and out to the nearest national forest I parked my car near the edge of it. Making sure there was nobody around I got undressed and folded up the clothing and shifted. I haven't shifted in almost five months and having to do it now felt revitalizing and fantastic. I gave a loud growl as the transformation took place. The Black and Copper fur took over as my body grew to the size of a grizzly bear. I shook out the fur and stretched. Man, that felt good. I took off running into the forest, dodging trees, and making my way to the river. I took a few miss turns. But it didn't bother me at all. I was used to forests back in Bear Valley. When I eventually found the river, it was already past noon. Placing my paws into the water a walked in and completely submerged myself. It really felt good to finally shift. But it also helped calm the anger I was feeling towards Henry. Having him as a twin I didn't think he would turn out the complete opposite of me. Growing up we used to be inseparable. That was how he ended up here with me. How I never knew about Alice, still made me think why Henry kept her from anybody. Normally he didn't keep his mouth shut about a girl. This time he didn't even say a word. That was what concerns me A long bit later I was lounging by one of the trees waiting for my fur to dry when I heard a twig snap and the smell of wet dog filled my nose I knew who it was. "Horatio" I spoke to him telepathically. He walked up in front of me and nodded. "See you finally shifted" I nodded at him "Had to clean my head" "And the only way to do that was through shifting?" He asked as a joke. I lifted my head, my ears twitching. "Yes" Horatio came and sat next to me giving me a sideways glance. "Have you called Alice yet?" he asked. "No, Lena said tomorrow. I wanted to call this morning but anger" A weird bark sound escaped Horatio's snoot. Similar to a snort. "Henry?" "You have no idea how much I want to rip his head off." Horatio gave me a look before saying "So she is the one?" I looked away and at the river. "It feels right, I want to protect her with my life. Never have I felt a connection this strong. I want...no... Need to mate her." Horatio stood and walked up to me. With his one paw, he clawed at my big one. "Then call her. If you want to get to know her better, and you're ready for this" "But Lena" "Lena is only looking out for Alice. Making sure she doesn't get her heart ripped from her chest" Horatio retorted. Standing up I motioned for him to follow. Getting to the car and shifting back I put on some pants before grabbing my phone. Calling the saved number it rang and rang and eventually "Gaello?" was that supposed to be a hello? "Alice?" I asked. Horatio looked up at me still in his wolf form. "Tis me....woops" a thud and a giggle. "It's Jake. Have you been drinking?" another giggle "Maayybbee" I gave a low growl and Horatio looked at me with concern. "Where are you?!" "Over the hills and far away. It's time to say goodbye" She sang. The two songs she sang didn't add up. I was about to ask her if she was alright before the phone disconnected. "f**k" I tried to call her again but her phone went to voicemail. I looked at my phone it was 5:30 PM. "I need Lena's number. Alice is drunk out of her mind and I do not want to think what she was doing." Horatio gave me the number from memory and I lifted a brow. "Don't give me that look bear. If anything it's another story for another day" I called Lena's number and she politely answered. "Lena it's Jake. I need Alice's address please"