Lies between Us

I want to know him

I heard the sound of the chair being pulled out behind my back. I just continue eating but inside I feel restless and incoherently.

Shirly raised her eyes when she looked at me. She pointed out her spoon on her hand as a signal to make me turn around. She then whispered to me in a silly way.

"Your crush, isn't he? He sit behind you" She eating ferouciously while snuck out a pieces of my egg omelette on my food trays.

I didn't react even a single glance at her words. I am stuck either want to turn around and saying hi or just left without saying anything. In my mind, I continuesly mocking myself. "You want to know him. You need to talk to him. You need him to notice you" but here I am, just like a display doll that can't even moved. But I might regret it later if I don't start a conversation with him.

Shirly stare at my eyes as she knows what is in my mind. She suddenly standing up with her half body and bravely saying.

"Hey, Ray!" She waving at him. Brightly saying hi and with her silly move and laughing, pointing at me.

"She is your fan." She bluntly saying the truth. I was puzzled for a moment and stop swallowing my food. I lift up my chin and looked angrily at her. Then, I turned around while Shirly looked at me with a hideous smile.

Oppss!! We both turned around at the same time.Our eyes interlocked and this is the first time I saw him closely. With my stuttering words, I just can say..

"Hi..." I just smile awkwardly.

"Hi. " He replied. I quickly looked at the other way and feel infuriated by Shirly. I gave her a dead look as I am trying to hide my blushing face. I immediately get up of my seat wanted to leave. My footsteps stopped as someone grab my arm and I turned around.

"Rianna Carls." Zack say my name while looking at my name tag. I stunned while holding the steel tray with all the leftover food that I haven't finished. It feels so embarrasing because all the attention are on me.

"I hate this kind of situation." My heart muttering alone.

"A pretty name, right?" I gave him a fake smile. Trying to pull out my arm from his hand grip. He don't let it go easily while staring deeply into my eyes that make me quite uncomfortable. "What a womanizer"

"Also a pretty owner" He replied while slowly let go of my arm.

"ehemm!" A fake coughing make both of us turned around at the samw time.

"Zack, come on. This is not the right time. Can't you

see she's uneasy?" Ray began to speak.

"I know, but.." with my angriness, I just left and Shirly quickly follow me from behind. The fact isI don't want to hear any conversation between them.

"You make her upset."

"I didn't meant it."

"You're interested in her?"

"Hey..It's not like what you think okay? I just want to talk to her."

"Yea..Like I don't know." Ray reply in a slow tone voice

Then he get up and left Zack who just want to sit down.

"Hey..you are done?" He didn't reply Zack.He quickly followed him from behind.

Ray rushed out of caferia looking for someone. From afar, he saw Ria's backward and her friend seemed to argue. I short, Shirly try to consult her.

Shirly stopped Ria and stand infront of her.

"You are overreact. What did you upset for?" Shirly try to calm her down. This is the first time she saw her mad. Unlike usual, she doesn't care about anything or about a person before.

"Didn't you see? He grabbed my arm. Isn't it clearly that he wanted to do something to me? And look at all the eyes are on me.You've been friend with me so many years yet you didn't know how much I hate all the attention and people's view on me?" I speak in anger. I can feel that I breathing heavily.

"Alright. Calm down and I'm sorry okay? Maybe he just want to befriend with you. Just be positive okay?"

"Can't he just talk nicely? He does not have any conscience at all towards woman." She shake her head at the thought of Zack behaviour.

"Just don't mind it okay?" Shirly rubbed my back and I just smile and nodded.

"Ray. What wrong with you?" Zack tapped my back with his confusing look.

"Nothing"

"But.. you look mad. What is the matter?"

"I said it's nothing."

"Because of that girl? But I dont't think so. You never care and you don't even know her"

"I might don't know her and that doesn't mean you can behave like that to her. It is the same what you did to the other girls. She clearly not interested in you."

"So what is it have to do with you? Are you interested in her?"

"If i'm in her position I will do the same. The worst, I won't even look at you" Ray become more furious and just continue to walk, don't want to argue with him anymore.

It's not even related to me. But it makes me angry inside. It's strange.

It's 13.00pm O'clock and all the student impatiently wanting to get out of the class. I still sat on my chair, letting alm the other classmate to get out first. This morning call comes through my mind. Should I go back home?

I look at the wall clock. It's 13:20pm and the outside becime quite. Meaning that all the student already left and some of them still in the class, loitering around. I wanna stop by at the school's library to borrow some books.I'm all alone as Shirly going back early to her hometown. Meanwhile me, I'll just waiting for Mr Ben to pick me up in the evening. It's been awhile I haven't see my dad. Somehow, I need to met my stepmother. Everytime we met, it's been an unspeakable quietness and awkwardness. Her expression towards me are insincere and forced.I don't want my dad to notice my uneasiness everytime we are in family gathering or having dinner together. I really miss my dad this time so I decided to go back.

I enters the library and get my Id scan first before I directly walked towards the bookshelf. I looked around and it was very quiet. Some student are studying. I choose to pick some books and my feet stopped upon arrival at the Art section shelf. I walked towards the shelf and look at some books. "It's quite interesting" my heart says. One of the books attract my attention. I tried to reach itas it is in the top shelf. I reach my hand to get the books but i also feel someone else try to pull it out. i tried my best to pull it tightly but that person strength is can't be compare to me. I almost fall down down trying to get the book. In the end, I just give up. "Fuhhh..." I sighing and I looked at the space between the books. We both locked eyes. I felt familiar with that eyes. "It can't be him, right? It can't be" Still remember the incident in the cafeteria this morning makes me quiet uneasy. I let out my temper in front of him. it makes me wonder what is his impression towards me. I better hurrily get out of this place. But I heard footsteps following me from behind.

"Rianna Carls, right?" a hoarse voice greeted me from behind.

"Yes.." I just replied with just one words.

"This morning. I'm sorry.."

"Why?"

I frowned with a big smile on my face.

"Ohhh.. That's okay. I just overly sensitive this morning." I feel ashamed of my own behaviour deeply in my heart.

"I'm sorry on behalf of him. You are not angry anymore right?" He asked.

"Truthfully... I'm sorry also."

"Well.. by the way, it might be rude to ask you suddenly but.. would you come and join us to get-together party?" Ray asked bluntly.

I never thought of it.

"I'll think about it."

" I hope you can come. I'll be waiting" He smiled at me makes me blushed. He take out a small ripped notes from his pocket and give it to me and left.

"I hope so.."