Alpha Emmett and the special one

Chapter 8

Nicole’s POV:

**4 Months have gone by**

Since I met Mitch, I've had four surgeries. I had to get my wisdom teeth removed; two different times because of money and Tyler hadn't been helping me financially with savanna, then Mitch found a cyst at the entrance of my v****a. I didn't believe him, but I went in to get checked, and it turned out he was right. I had a Bartholonian Cyst. I didn’t want to believe him, because it's my body. I should know this, but apparently I didn't know my body that well. I got the cyst removed and a couple months later it was back and doubled in size. So now I have to go through a bunch of treatments and imaging to make sure it's not cancerous.

**Another 4 months went by..**

Mitch has been acting weird since I had to start working from home. I’m not sure what his deal is. He moved in, and then turned around and removed all of his stuff from the apartment. When I ask him what's going on, he just shuts down. So I’ve been giving him space, but I guess too much.. I found out he was talking inappropriately with another female. He says they’re just friends. But I don't believe it one bit. I woke up one morning to take our dog outside, and kept tripping over his phone charger. It made no sense why he would have the cord going across the walkway vs the 6 way out right next to the couch. I tripped over the chord 4 different times. When I picked up his phone to set it next to him, his phone lit up with another female saying “If you can give it to me good”. I lost all respect from him; after all I've done for him and his kids, I get treated like this.  

Mitch’s POV:

I don’t know what's wrong with me, Nicole is everything I've ever wanted from a woman. The kids love her, i love her; but i don't want to get hurt. I feel it coming. I know she’s upset about the other girls. But we're just friends. I wouldn't hurt her like that. We just moved to Vancouver together, but I feel like I'm losing myself. I know what I’m about to do is going to cause me to lose her. 

I whipped out my phone to message her. Sitting here staring at my phone is making me sick. “I think we need to work on ourselves.. I don’t feel like I’m the right person right now”..I hit send, and anxiously waited for her to reply back.

She read the message. We sat there and went back and forth. She kept begging me not to walk out, and said if we really cared for each other then I wouldn't walk away from her. I just don't like who I'm becoming. I’ve lost everything, and I'm already hurting. 

Nicole’s POV:

It’s been three weeks. Since Mitch walked out on us. I haven’t stopped crying, I haven't stopped thinking about him; I shut my phone off at night to avoid looking at his social media accounts. I haven’t eaten in three weeks, let alone drink water without throwing up. I don’t know what it is. He’s just a guy, and yet I feel like my whole world has stopped moving. 

Savanna was with her dad. I was sitting there on the couch, barely watching the football game. My mom made me go to a “Manifestation get together” with her psychic.They talked about telling the universe what you want, to demand it. They told me I was intuitive, and very strong at it. I spoke with a lady afterwards and told her everything; she believes we’re just going through a soulmate separation, but I was tired of feeling this way, he would occasionally reach out to me, and then my heart would break all over again. I wanted the pain and the feelings to go away. 

I was sitting there staring at the wall completely spaced out. I wanted the over thinking to stop, all the feelings. My tears were just running down my face warm at this point. The next thing I know, I let rage take over me. 

I'm screaming, like I was getting in a fight with somebody screaming.. “Alright you f*****g asshole, I’m sick and tired of these f*****g games you and Mitch keep playing with my heart and my mind. I dont wanna feel anything for that fucker anymore, i dont wanna think about him anymore, I wanna f*****g move on. LET ME MOVE ON!!!” ..I sat there and let the tears run down my face. Before i looked up at the wall, “Universe TURN IT OFF, TURN OFF MY HUMANITY, I WANNA BE NUMB!” 

Within an instant, my body went numb. The warm tingly feeling I got when I knew I was on the right path when I was with Mitch came back. My tears stopped, and my thought process was silent for once. I looked at the time, and it was 9:07 PM; so it was 10:07 PM in Colorado. I’ll call my grandma tomorrow. I got up and showered, took a sleeping pill, and let sleep succumb to me.  

A month went by, and I felt at peace. I took time off from the hospital to work on my Mental Health, and to get my bartholonian cyst taken care of again, but then i went into anaphylactic shock. I touched a container of mushrooms, and my whole body shut down. Then  the car Mitch bought me, after I gave my Hyundai back to the bank, it started leaking oil everywhere. So I had to swallow my pride and reach back out to him. We replaced a few parts on the Toyota and it just got worse from there. My mom had the car worked on by her mechanic, and he totally screwed it up. The next thing I know is my manifold gasket needs replacing, and my EGR valve needs replacing. I was driving in battle ground, and I had no idea where I was. I felt sick in my car, and i was becoming more airy than usual. When Mitch tried talking to me, I felt like I was high. Mitch didn't want me to drive the Camry anymore, and said that I was getting carbon monoxide poisoning. So I spent hours replacing it myself, just so I didn't have to talk to Mitch. 

A month went by, Mitch wanted me to stop by and so I said okay, but he had another girl over, so I kept driving. I cried on my way to my mom's work. I specifically told the universe I wanted them to shut off my humanity, but now they’re giving it back. What the f**k!! I spent my birthday alone, it sucked, and it hurt. I am really starting to hate the holidays now.