Nicole’s POV:
It’s Been 2 years since My marriage ended. I’m Not saying I'm sad about it. But it’s kinda funny how the tables turn. He thinks he had the better hand, but in reality I did.
Ever since my intuition kicked into overdrive, it’s like I see the big picture now. The tingles, and the sensations I get when I know I'm on the right path. My first night in my new apartment; it was so overwhelming, but then again it just felt right. I looked up to the ceiling, and slowly closed my eyes and said “thank you, for this push into the right direction”; within an instant, I got this warm, relaxed feeling coursing through my body; right then I knew I was home. A feeling I've never experienced in my whole entire life.
As weeks went by, I was slowly putting my small 400 Sq ft apartment together; not to mention I sprained the ligament in my ankle. You could say it was a complicated task, but so well worth it. I got my sectional put together. If you’ve ever played tetris, and tried putting many, and I mean many pieces together for a sectional, then you know how frustrating it can get.
I met a man in the military. I was hesitant at first, but the more hours I spent talking to him on the phone, the overwhelming of feelings that kept rushing through me, was out of control. But I didn't care. I wanted to stay up till 4 am talking to him, then get up at 6 am for work. Work would drag on, but getting off work, and feeling the excitement of talking to him. I had to; i just had to meet him, even if it turned into a Wham bam, Thank you mam. I mean I'm not complaining, a good satisfaction never hurts anybody.
We spent three hours on the phone, that night it was already 2 am. I had to get up at 6 am to get Savanna and I ready for school and work. I liked playing guessing games with him. He was begging to come over. I finally said “If you can guess my street name, and where I live, then you can come over”. He was guessing. He knew I lived in a small town in Oregon, and he lived in a small town in Washington. So he was only about a 30 min drive to me. I told him my street rhymed with Giraffe. He did it, he guessed the street right, and drove to me. I was pacing back and forth in complete shock that he was going to be driving to me. Then, just then I received the text I was dreading “I’m Here”. My heart stopped, and I felt like I was going to puke with how overwhelmed I was with the idea that he was at my front door. I informed him my house looked like a hoarder's house, because I just moved in, and haven't had the time to unpack my apartment. He didn't care one bit.
I let him in my apartment, completely nervous as to what was about to happen, my hands were shaking. I was worried my daughter would wake up, or he didn't like me. But I was so quick to judge he loved every bit of me, he wanted to devour every piece of me. It didn't take long for our clothes to come flying off. He wouldn't even let me please him, he did all the work himself. I wasn't complaining, it's been a long time since a man touched me like this. Not even my ex-husband touched me like this. He was experienced, he knew what he was doing. Yeah he was 8 years older than me. But I wasn't expecting the sensations he gave me, every touch was sending sparks throughout my body.
He walked over, and started kissing my lips, as I allowed him to enter my mouth devouring my taste, he put his hands on my waist, and pulled me close to him. He starts slowly laying me down on the couch. We start touching each other everywhere. There was no stopping these hands, I wanted everything. Touching his arms, muscular arms, was a huge turn on. I never went for bald guys, but him being bald. It was making me drip wet. I wanted more. He started taking my shorts off, and I took my shirt off. He started sucking my n*****s, my arousal was kicking into high gear. I wanted it so bad. I was trying to control myself, but there was no stopping. He started slowly massaging my c**t in circular motions, while rubbing my G spot. I could feel myself climax. He went down on me, and it felt amazing. He entered my entrance. At first I wasn't pleased, but once he flipped me into doggy style. Oh my god, I felt it all. I arched my back, ass in the air. I felt it all, and he let it all go. I totally forgot we never put a condom on, but remembered he was fixed. So pregnancy wasn't even an issue.
After he finished, I got up and walked to the bathroom, cleaning myself off. I came back thinking he was going to take off. But he didn't. He told me to come to him, and lay in his arms. At this time it was 4 am. We both were screwed for work in the morning, there was no doubt about that. I honestly didn't give two shits. I layed there in his arms, I'd doze off, but would jolt awake. He asked, “What's up?” I replied “nothing, just relaxing”. Then that feeling came back; that warm, tingly feeling. I have no idea what it was supposed to mean, but I felt like I was home. Like this was the path I was supposed to be on again.
We both left for work, we had to go in the same direction on the highway; I initiated a race. I’ve always loved Muscle cars, and working on cars. He was my perfect match. We shared a lot of similar interests. I looked at him, in my rear view mirror and winked, he shook his head and smiled. I shifted my Hyundai into manual, and switched it to sports mode, and took off, seconds later, switched his Audi into manual. We were racing to our work exits, I got off a few exits before him. I was pretty impressed with myself.
A full work day went by, and he came by after Savanna went to bed. We hit two rounds of pleasure. It got hot, and I loved it. About an hour after we were done, and sitting on the couch talking. A little voice stopped our conversation.
“Mom, who is that man?” I instantly froze not knowing what to tell my daughter. She has a disability, and with her communication disorder, it was hard to get her to understand things around her.
“He’s a friend savanna, it’s ok go back to bed”
“I want some water” I quickly got up and fetched her a bottle of water, and told her to go to bed.
He asked me if I wanted him to leave, i told him honestly no i don't, but if you want to that's fine. He stayed that night, we went to bed a lot earlier than the previous nights. When my alarm went off, he covered his face with the blanket. I threw my scrubs on, and got my daughter ready for the day. Standing outside waiting for Savanna’s bus, she looks up at me.
“Mom, do you like him?” i wasn't sure how to answer her, she witnessed a lot of things go down between her father and I. It wasn't healthy for her dad and I to be together. It was either his way or my way or no way. We couldn't reason with each other. I looked my daughter in the eyes
“I do like him, and I like the way he cares about how I feel”. You could tell she was thinking about what I was saying.
“He won't hurt you will he?”. The shock on my face was an understatement.,
“Baby girl, I did a background check on him, he doesn't have a record. The thought of dating someone always terrified me. I didn't want to date a man and have him hurt you or I”.
“Yeah daddy hurt us a lot, and it makes me sad. But I want you to be happy”.
“Your daddy did hurt us a lot, but that's why I'm being cautious, so we don't go through that again. If you don't want to meet him, then that's fine. I will not force you”.
“Does he have kids?” “Haha yeah, he has quite a bit of kids”
“Ok, then i wanna meet them”. Right then I knew she understood what road we were about to embark on.
She left for school, and I went back inside, to grab my medical bag, and purse. I was about to walk out of the house, and left a spare key next to his phone, and texted him saying “Please lock up when you leave”. He looked up at me, and said he didn't have to be at the site until 9am, and he was gonna sleep a little bit more, and kissed me goodbye.
The day just felt like it dragged on forever; between rooming patients, obtaining vitals, and doing mini cogs all day long. I was so ready for a nap. I roomed with my last morning patient, and told my provider I was going to head to lunch. If she needed me I'd be in the break room. I pulled my phone out from my scrub pants, and he blew my phone up, saying how much he’s overwhelmed with feelings for me, and he’s never felt this way before. That coming out of a bad marriage and a toxic relationship before that did a lot to him mentatlly. Which I could understand. It was another thing we had in common.
But what threw me off was his next two text messages saying, I didn't make it to work, that he threw up on the side of the road, so he went back to my place, and that he did something to my place. My heart was racing with fear and anxiety. Like oh f**k, i let a man into my life, and he robbed me of everything i had, or he trashed my already quaotic apartment.
As I hesitated, I asked him “What did you do?” he reads the messages, and 5 minutes goes by, and he sends me pictures of my apartment. This mother fucker, unpacked my kitchen, my dinning room, and living room. I was shocked. He’s like “I know you said some lady wanted your boxes, so I have them stacked in a bigger box on the couch”. I was in utter shock. Like what just happened. I told him he didn't need to do that. But he said, after a few weeks of talking to me, he already has me read like a book. I wasn't sure if that was a good thing or bad thing.. But I was leaning towards a bad thing.
He asked me what I wanted to do about my daughter meeting him. I told him I didn't want to rush into this too fast. That I wanted to take it slow. But Savanna did want to meet him. He said “Okay, what's her favorite meal?” Did i mention this guy cooks, like good meals.
“She’s obsessed with spaghetti and Steamed Broccoli”
“Okay, text me and let me know when you're on your way home”. I replied with “Yes Sir”.
I was sanitizing my last exam room, and once 5:30 Pm rolled around, I was out the door. I drove to pick up Savanna from her sitter’s house. I told him I was leaving the clinic, and grabbing a savanna and then I'd be home. He replied with “Ok, dinner will be ready when you guys get home”. I was preparing myself mentally for what I was about to walk into my apartment for. I informed savanna that he was going to be there, and he made us dinner. After backing into my spot, I could smell the food. I was excited but nervous. Savanna was in complete shock, that this small apartment was put together, and that she could actually work through it. He introduced himself as Mitch, and she bashfully said hi, while hiding behind me.
I followed him into the kitchen, taking off my scrub top, to be wearing my scrub bottoms, and my undershirt. I leaned against the sink watching him finish dinner. He looked up at me and smiled. And made the comment about how i need to upgrade my seasoning stash, that i have like nothing. I laughed and said yeah, i grabbed everything of mine and savannas and left the situation when he forced us out. I could tell he was thinking, and I asked him what was up.
He looks me into the eyes, and grabs my hands. My heart starts pounding. He replies with “You're with me now, and once the divorce is finalized, you won't have to deal with him anymore. Except when it comes to savanna. Smiling at him, “I’m all for that”.
He dished up dinner, and we sat on the couch watching a tv show. Savanna asked if she could have another bowl, and Mitch told her to go for it. Soon this child had 4 bowls of spaghetti. I was in shock, but at least you knew his cooking was good. He even managed to grab ice cream for us while he was home.