Trust
277 Words
Have you ever felt like betray was a word people take lightly? Well That's how I felt when a man who I've known my entire life r***d at 4 years old and got me pregnant at 9 years old. I didn't know how to look at the person who took my innocence away from me. I felt hurt but most of all I felt betrayed. He was supposed to be my protector. So when people say the word betrayed or betrayal I always say " Be careful with how you use that word and don't use it lightly."
Trust Doesn't come easy for me. And when someone says Trust me only one word screams loudly in my mind and that is to Run!! It's a trap!. But I am learning that trust is not given it's earned. It's ok to feel aftaid.I also learned that when you are learning to trust it's not something that happens right away it happens over time like healing. Trauma is not something that a person learns to heal from quickly. And honestly I am glad the Lord is a very patient God. He has dealt with all of my outbursts and still says "My child I love you". So take your time and let God heal you the way you need to be healed and see how he uses you. I can guarantee he will help you learn to trust if you ask him. I love how David said in Psalms 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. according to his will and purpose the Lord will give you everything you need.
- Writer
