Ollie
Today has been crazy and when I say crazy, it was sense of déjà vu. I’ve been having this reoccurring dream of this little red head girl with pig tails coming into my life. I haven’t told Felix about it because I don’t want to see the hurt in his eyes, plus I don’t know what it means. I don’t know if it’s my subconscious telling me what I want. I do know that Felix wants a family, I just don’t know when. I do know with me losing the baby at eighteen, he was hurting. I didn’t know it then, but he was and I feel like crap that I wasn’t there for him when I should have been.
I regret it. When he said he saw me at the café at school with the guy that kissed me, I was ashamed. It happened out of no where and it shocked me. As soon as it happened, I got up and walked away because I could
