Broken soldier

Memories coming back to haunt me

I know he means well, but seeing him that enraged looking more like a monster then a man, after being back in that place, it shook me. It was still nagging at me, could I really trust him not to hurt me? Reading my face, J grabbed my hand softly and led me over to the bed to sit. Mak, I am sorry you had to see that. One thing that I am not sure you know, being my mate, the longer we are around each other the stronger the bond gets. I felt every emotion as you told Zan what that piece of s**t did to you, and I could not contain it. You are everything to me Makenzy. I won’t pressure you either way, but please know that even if you choose to reject me, I will kill anyone who has or will attempt to hurt you. And I will kill him if he is the one that hurts you, I hear Zan say as he walks in the half open door. Chuckling, I stand and walk over to Zan. I know he may not be comfortable with my closeness but I had to thank him. Zan, thank you for listening to me and not making me feel worse about the situation. Of course Mak, you’re part of the family now, he answered as he winked at me. Watch it Zan, is all we heard from J, as I walked back over to the bed. I just wanted to make sure you are okay and let J know that I’m going out and I’ll be back later. Xavier is doing a perimeter and then he will be on the cameras downstairs. I figured you would want a break from talking for a little while. Thanks Zan I said, as he walked out and closed the door behind him. I could tell J was apprehensive for my reaction. I’m sorry J, for running from you. With what I was reliving and then seeing you, it was just a little much at once. J let out a breath but looked as though he was still wanting to question. J, look at me. His ice blue eyes met mine and sent electric tingles up and down my spine to end up low in my belly. I’m not going to run away, I tell him, hoping to calm his anxiety. I do have a lot of questions before I make the final decision but J, I am in love with you but I am terrified. I held my hand up as he started to speak, let me get this out please. I am scared that you will hurt me, not physically, but I am a damaged human, I just don’t see how I could ever make you happy enough to be faithful. He laughed in my face catching me off guard. Excuse me? I asked him, now getting more angry at him and his response. I am sorry Makenzy, I forget sometimes the small details they don’t brief you on about my kind. The look on my face was deadly as he continued. Once someone of my age, and I am old. becomes bored with s*x, after experimenting and trying everything we can to continue to get off, we lose interest and are not physically able to perform any longer. My sweet Mak, before i walked into that bar and smelled your scent, I hadn’t had an erection in over 20 years. Huh? 20 years?! Oh come on J, please don’t lie to me. It just makes it worse. He grabs my arm to stop me from getting up. I am not lying, even now, literally anytime you are near I am so hard it’s painful. A flash of his naked body slapped me in the face as soon as that statement left his lips. Jesus f*****g Christ, he is perfection. I licked my lips as tasting him was all I could think about now. I pushed him back on the bed as I unzipped his pants and pulled them off sending them flying over the bed. My mouth watered as he pulled off his shirt and started trying to undress me. Not allowing him to, as I just needed to feel powerful over his body without the nagging insecurities with mine, I sank down on my knees in front of the bed, placing one hand on his sculpted abs, the other on his massive erection. He moaned my name as I took him into my mouth causing me to become unhinged. Using both hands now, running up and down his shaft as I followed them with my mouth. He really was enormous, and oh so delicious. I couldn’t stop my moan, as I relished in his taste. Finally getting the courage to look up, I meet the sexiest f*****g thing I have ever seen. Passion and desire is all I could see in his eyes and it was all for me. Almost cuming in my pants just by the look on his face and feeling of power that came over me, I increased my rhythm, getting a yell from J. I feel his release hit the back of my throat as he screamed out my name. I hungrily gulped it down before he pulled out of my mouth. Goddamnit woman is what I heard as J lifted me off the floor and started removing my clothing, leaving kisses in his wake. I needed to feel him inside me, and the need was growing as I attempted to assist in removing my clothes. Just as J was poised in between my legs, looking good enough to eat, there was a knock on the door. This really was becoming a habit, and it’s pissing me the hell off. J, cursed and headed towards the door, yelling that this better f*****g be good, something felt off and told me not to open the door. Just as I yelled no to J, I heard the explosion outside.