Chapter 56-01Alexei*
Phone rings*
Not a flinch to make a move reaching for the phone in my pocket or bothered wanting to know who the caller is which blares to an unremitting end; downcast puts it lightly when I cannot even tell what I feel anymore with her face haunting me everywhere I find myself. Sometimes I have myself thinking I have gone mad seeing her in place of someone else, so I just had to shut everyone out. I needed to selfishly fixate on the memories we had praying it guides me to stay strong and keep what we have... sorry had anew like it was just yesterday I held her in my arms kissing me passionately, sweetly; had, that word sounds so strange but conversant these days. I am constantly being slapped in the face by reality and the urge to snap out of this overwhelms me to t
