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For the first week I found my living arrangement with Megan to be mostly satisfying, but I still had that niggling feeling of discomfort; unease about something I couldn’t quite put my finger on. Some of my anxiety was the typical kind of thing anyone who has been divorced, or hurt in a prior living arrangement feels in the beginning of a new commitment. Am I making the right move? Is this the right person for me? Will she continue to love me and accept me with my limitations after the newness wears off, or will she turn against me and hurt me? But there was more: raw fear, the kind that chilled my whole body, gave me the shakes and the sweats. It was the mean streak I witnessed, plus the warnings from Nick and Hanna.
And, the visit from Detective Rollins found a way of creeping into
