By the third morning I understood what Ironveil intended to do with me.
Not kill me.
Not break me the way the curse had broken the last one.
Something slower and more deliberate than that.
Something the pack had clearly done before to people they wanted gone without the mess of direct confrontation.
They were going to erase me.
It started with Heda.
She came to my door before sunrise with a list written in small tight handwriting and handed it to me without a preamble.
"Laundry. Floors. The great hall fireplace before the morning meal. The east corridor windows."
I looked at the list. Then I looked at her. "The Alpha's bride does not-"
"The Alpha has not confirmed you as his bride," Heda said. Flat. Final. "Until he does, you are a guest of undetermined status. Guests of undetermined status contribute to the household."
She left before I could respond.
I stood in the doorway holding the list and understood three things simultaneously.
First, Heda was not cruel, she was efficient, and this was not her idea.
Second, someone with more authority than a head of household had given this instruction.
Third, if I refused, I would lose the only roof I had.
I went and picked up a bucket, a scrubbing brush and a rug from the supply room.
The great hall was enormous and cold and designed to make everyone inside it feel small.
I was on my knees scrubbing the stone floor around the fireplace when they came in for
breakfast.
All of them.
The senior wolves of Ironveil, filing in with the organized hierarchy of a pack that ran on rank and never let anyone forget it.
They saw me. Every single one of them
saw me - "the Alpha's supposed bride", on her hands and knees with a scrubbing brush
and not one of them said a word.
They sat. They ate. They talked around me the way you talked around furniture.
Reva sat at the head of the long table's left side - not the Alpha's seat, but as close to it as she could position herself and watched me with that satisfied smile she had
perfected into a weapon.
She said nothing but kept her gaze at me intermittently.
Her silence was the
loudest thing in the room.
A young wolf, maybe seventeen, gangly and uncertain walked past carrying a plate
and stopped when he saw me.
Something moved through his face. Not contempt.
Something closer to discomfort, the expression of someone watching something that didn't sit right but lacked the courage to say so.
He walked on.
I scrubbed the floor.
I had been scrubbing floors since I was eleven years old. My father's pack had decided early on that a daughter with no wolf gifts and no remarkable qualities was most useful in a domestic capacity.
I knew exactly how to make my face into nothing while my hands worked.
I knew how to be invisible inside my own humiliation. What I had not mastered, what nineteen years had not fully taught me was how to be invisible when someone was watching with the specific intention of seeing.
Kael was at the far end of the room.
Not eating. Standing near the window with a cup he hadn't touched, watching the hall
with dark unreadable eyes that catalogued everything and revealed nothing.
When his gaze moved to me it did not linger - just a sweep, a note taken, filed away.
But I saw something.
Just slightly. Just for a second.
Didn't really brace myself to understand.
Then it was gone and his face was closed again and I went back to scrubbing the floor.
I finished the list by midday. Every item. Perfectly.
Not because I was afraid of consequences. Because I refused absolutely refused to
give Ironveil the satisfaction of a job done poorly.
If they wanted to use me as a servant
then I would be the best servant this pack had ever seen, and I would do it with my spine straight and my face calm, and I would not cry, and I would not beg, and I would not give Reva's smile a single thing to feed on.
I returned the bucket and brush to the supply room at the end of the east corridor. The
room was small and dim, smelling of soap and pine, and I allowed myself exactly thirty
seconds inside it with the door closed.
Thirty seconds to press my back against the wall and breathe and feel the weight of the morning without an audience.
Twenty-eight seconds in, the door opened.
The young wolf from the great hall stood in the doorway holding a bread roll and a small
wedge of hard cheese.
He sprung them at me with the urgency of someone completing a task before his nerve ran out.
"You didn't eat," he said.
I looked at him. He was young up close. Too young for the careful blankness that Ironveil
seemed to install in everyone eventually.
His eyes were brown and honest and slightly
panicked, as though he hadn't fully thought through what came after handing a stranger
food.
"I'm Pip," he said. "I work the stables. I'm nobody. So it doesn't matter if I'm seen
talking to you."
I quivered from the shift of something within me instantaneously. Not warmth exactly. More like the memory of warmth.
The feeling of recognizing something you had almost forgotten existed.
I took the bread.
"Thank you, Pip," I said.
He nodded rapidly, turned, and paced away with the energy of someone who had
done something brave and needed to immediately be somewhere else.
I ate the bread in the darkness of the supply room.
It was the kindest thing anyone had done for me in years.
But that was the most devastating part...