Runaway Groom

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Andrew POV

Panic overpower my system when I saw Naaya faint on floor but luckily someone hold her before falling on ground, I rushed towards her, thanked the gentleman and asked the lobby manager to call for ambulance, it feels like forever for ambulance to reach. When lobby manager informed me that ambulance is there, I rushed towards the exit while holding her. Afterwards everything was in a flash like reaching hospital, admitting her, consulting her doctor, panicking and pacing in the hospital lobby. Just informed my family about the incident so that they should know about this incident. Mom & Dad insisted to come so that I can take some rest as it is already mid night and I’m up since early morning. But I refused their kindness as I know I will not be able to sleep anywhere knowing Naaya is suffering and in hospital just because of my foolishness. I’m feeling guilty to let her handle this kind of pressure alone.

It’s been more than 38 hours her being admitted and same as unconscious, first doctor said I need not to concern about this because all this happened because of extreme exertion and stress but now after all this hour Dr Greg is also worried. He recommended few medicines and asked me to get it. I was on my way from dispensary and thinking to call my mother to arrange few things for me like my clothes, laptop and toiletries. I’ve decided I’m not going anywhere till the time I see her conscious and talking to me.

I was at the door when I heard her voice talking to Dr. Greg, he was informing her that she’s is expecting, it’s just a month or so. I was stunned, I wasn’t expecting this…. No ... no ... no how can this happen.     

I can't believe this is happening to me, I’ve not planned for this, it’s not like I'm complaining it was divinely blissful. I had fair share of women in my life but none after Naaya even though we were not dating or involved in any kind of relationship. I was chastity myself.

I respect her choice to wait for the right time. I know what she went through, she told me and told me everything event by event, so I can feel what she went through and what happened with her in the past. I can't bring myself with the fact that someone can be so cruel. I think I was too stunned with the thought of being a parent that I was unable to move an inch from my place. I was brought back to present from my thoughts by Dr. Greg's pat on my shoulder and realized Naaya looked so broken, lost and pained by my stunned face. I can read her face like an open book; I can imagine what's going on inside her. I need to stop her from thinking and feeling all this pain. I can't be the reason for her pain and i will not allow anyone to let her feel this helpless, this is my silent promise to her and to myself.

I touched her face and wiped her tears from her cheek, she tried blinking her tears away, to swallow the lump formed in her throat and tried to act strong as if she doesn't care but failing miserably. I can read from her face that she wants me to assure her that nothing will change between us I'll not treat her like her asshole of Ex, but I was angry. So I voiced out my thought to her.....

How can you do this Naaya? Now she's sobbing audibly and muttering Sorry and pleading, I don't know why. Why and What are you pleading for? After pausing for few minutes, she starts blurting, what she's thinking -

Naaya: Andrew I know you have not thought to start our relationship like that, you have planned for a lot of things but not this. I swear.... I swear, I've also not planned or even thought of this, I'm not trying to trap you. It was like, it’s been so long for me to be intimate with anyone that I stopped taking pills and when things happened between us, I was so occupied with all the work that it never crossed my mind that something like this can happen. Andrew if you don't want this, I can try to amend the situation.

Andrew: And how will you amend this Naaya?

Naaya: We can part ways, I'll officially call off this wedding and I promise I'll never ever approach you regarding this baby, I'll never claim anything from you. If you want, I can give you all this in written and if ONLY you want to be in touch or know whereabout me or this baby I'll inform you and if not, I'll never ever bother you.

Andrew: And why so Naaya?

I'm running out of patience; I know I'm sounding irritated but it’s not my fault.

Naaya: Please Andrew Please I'm requesting you please don't let me visit my horrible memory lane. I'm sorry for spoiling everything for you but please let me keep this baby. This time I'll not be able recover from loss...…..

I don't know how to stop her from blabbering so I did first thing came to my mind...….. I kissed her and kissed her hard and when I leave her mouth, we both were panting. I think she couldn't register what happened because she was questioning me from her stares like what I'm doing? So, I answered her unasked question.

Andrew: I'm not an animal Naaya, who will not accept his own blood and I'm not your asshole Ex who will kick to let my child die. I'm sorry for mentioning this to you as I know how you feel about the incident but you made me do this. I LOVE YOU baby and I LOVE YOU unconditionally. Yes, this baby was not as per my plan but I can't deny the fact that I'm happy about ...

Naaya: but you were way shocked, I don't know what to think

Andrew: Because I was shocked, I was thinking all kind of things, our future family, it will be boy or girl, what he/she will look like, what I'll do if anything goes wrong on the process. Never ever think to break us Naaya when we are about to start our own family. I'm very disappointed in you Naaya…... so ...so ...so disappointed

I didn't know I'm crying while telling her all this.

Naaya: No....it’s not liked that Andrew, it’s just that....

Andrew: No.... you listen to me Naaya, I don't know where I lacked or my love was not enough for you to overcome your fear. I feel like I failed you as friend, companion, fiancé and future husband.

I feel like I'm a failure as a man, who can't assure his woman of her safety of better future.

If you think Naaya I'm not capable enough to take care of my women and child …. (after a big pause)….. LET’S BREAK-UP.