Toyed By Them

THREE: Drawing Away.

RYAN'S POV

I drove her off to her house as she got

down the car and then turned around and smiled at me

"Thanks for dropping me!" She said

"Well... All that is fine but I don't know how am I going to drive back home... It's snowing all around the roads are covered with snow." I looked at the weather pouring the white balls heavily, "I guess I'll have to wait! Ugh, so annoying!"

I banged my fist irritated at the steering

as she looked at me for a while and then

suggested

"You know, if you feel it's okay... You can maybe come in and wait for the storm to stop in my house?" She suggested, "I'll make some coffee for you, decaff. As you like it?"

"Em.. Well..."

I sort of gave it a thought when my

cellphone jingled and it was Ruth calling

me.

"Hey babe?" I answered the call.

"It's snowing so heavily, where are you? Stuck at work?"She asked worrying about me.

"Actually.. I'm stuck on my way.. The roads are pretty ugly with the snow all over." I replied looking at the road which was now all white because of the coating of heavy snow on it.

"Oh... Umm... So, what are you gonna do?" Ruth asked worried.

"Where are you, at work?" I asked her.

"No, I reached home before the storm got ugly. I'm with Irene. I just called to say that stay where you are and wait till the storm dies. You don't have to risk your life coming back home in a weather like this, okay?" Ruth said.

"Uhh.. Okay! Well... I'm at..." I looked at Rose and weirdly she gestured me to lie to her about me being at Rose's place.

I furrowed my eyebrows as I don't understand but I decided to play along,

"I'm at Nicole's bar. I guess I'll wait here till the storm dies down" I replied.

"Alright!" Ruth sighed, "Call me when you drive back home, okay? stay safe!"

"Yep, you too, take care of Irene...bye!"

And I disconnected the call and looked at Rose.

"Why did you make me lie to her? I could have told her the truth!" I asked her.

"I don't know... I just don't feel comfortable about your wife knowing about you and me!" She replied thinking that Ruth knew about Rose being my ex girlfriend before I got married to Ruth.

"Well, she doesn't know anything about our past, I haven't told her anything." I said.

She looked at me surprised as I got off the car and we both walked inside her house.

For the time there, I sat down on her couch in the living room switching on the tv set, watching the news of storm while she was making us two cups of coffee

"Where's your husband by the way?" I asked her while she were bringing the

coffee mugs.

"We got divorced. It's been a long time!" She said handing me the cup.

"Oh, umm.. I didn't know that..." I grind my jaw embarrassed about not knowing the marital status of my own secretary.

She chuckled, "I guess you were too busy with your own married life, you seem very happy living with Ruth?" She asked.

"Yea.. I love her.. A lot!' I said smiling while she shuffled the channels stopping at the romantic movie playing... "P.S. I love you."

"I wish I could have someone who could love me like that." She said with a hint of sorrow in her words there.

"Well.. You had me, you broke up.. I didn't!" I replied to her with the same expression.

And we looked at each other after... For a long time, lost in each other's eyes.

"Oh umm..." She got up putting down her coffee mug on the coffee table and sat down besides me over the couch.

"This is my favourite movie... I know it's kinda old but... It's so deep!" She said excited, turning up the volume of the set, "I wish I had a man like that who could help me move on even after his death like that..." She said.

"I know..." I replied in a daja vu too, "This has always been your favourite. We are

watching it for the n-th time together!"

I unconsciously wrapped my arms

around her.

Maybe I was having a nostalgia of our past together or something.

"But this time...." She looked into my eyes sliding more closer to me, "It's different!"

I looked down at her.

"Yea.. We are both married, to other people.." I said half down the way of being carried away by her intoxicating eyes.

"I got divorced!" She said moving her lips closer to mine slowly.

"And I'm still married." I sighed turning my heads down and started to fidget with my wedding ring using my thumb.

"And I love my wife and kid." I continued and unwrapped my arms from

around her sipping on my last sip of

coffee.

~~

We watched the movie taking it's pace for a while until the power went off and the heater stopped working.

"I don't have the heater on inverter.. sorry! I'll go bring a blanket for the two of us!" She said getting up.

Now that I think about it... The situation was compelling me to move towards her.

"I could just find one blanket." She came back embarrassed and said, "But it's huge enough to fit us both inside?" She asked unsure showing me off the blanket in her hands

"I don't have a problem." I replied.

And we slid into the same blanket together.

The position was weird and uncomfortable for the both of us trying to not touch each other's body being in the same blanket and slowly, I felt

her head resting over my shoulder as

she was trying to get comfortable in the

position.

I tried extending my arms towards her too trying to be comfortable myself when I accidentally touched her back and she hissed in pain.

"Ahhh" She moaned.

"What's wrong?" I asked and she bit her lips, I could see her eyes bubbling up with tears.

"Nothing.. I kind of hurt myself, Ahhh!!" She moaned again as accidentally I touched her back again

"How bad is it show me?" I asked her because of her sound, she was looking like she would explode into tears as she was looking so hurt with that unknown wound on her back.

She resisted a little, "No, Ryan.. It's okay! It's nothing... I just hurt myself while doing some house jobs...."

but then, I made her to give up the struggle, "Come on, Let me see it! May be I can help?"

Finally when I persuaded her for too long she gave up the struggle and took the blanket off of herself showing me her body, unzipping the back of her dress.

She had this huge knife digging mark on

her body made diagonally with the burning rod marks all around that knife wound.

It looked hauntingly scary and ugly.

"Oh my god, this... WHO DID THIS TO YOU ROSE?!" I screamed at her worried about her... I mean what kind of a sadist would be the person to hurt her like that?! And well I'm pretty sure that it wasnt a wound she would earn on her own because of some accident.... She was made to go through these ugly stabs and scars.

She bit her lower lips crying, "Leaving you back then and marrying my manager

instead was the worst decision in my life. And these are the punishment I got for making a wrong choice." She cried.

"I... I shouldn't have...." Her throat clouded up and she started to stutter, while she continued looking at me desperately.

"I shouldn't have broken up with you." She said.

"Had I not, I would have been in place of Ruth in your life and... Irene would be my daughter!" She cried, I saw a fat tear rolling down her cheek as she continued again, "...I would have the most perfect husband in the world."

And that's it! This moment right now, between me and Rose here, It was enough for me to loose my self control.

Watching the woman you lived once going through that horrible torture, my senses wanted to make her happy in that moment.. My senses wanted to take away her loneliness right there.

"I'm not perfect!" I said and cupped her face urgently, "I'm not perfect at all!"

I said and mashed my lips with hers

sucking her lips lightly.

"Mmhh...." She closed her eyes and let me suck her lips with tears going down her eyes.

I soon realised, I shouldn't be doing this

with her and so I got up on my feet saying it out embarrassed, "You know what, I should... I should go, I'm sorry about the... kiss!"

I replied perplexed when she suddenly

grabbed onto my wrist and stopped me.

"Can you please stay?" She asked me that innocent question with tear filled eyes.

"Rose...?" I looked at her messed up and she got up, grabbing my both hands wrapping it around herself she came into my arms and cupped my cheeks kissing my lips again.

"Please... I want you, just for tonight!" She mumbled seductively against my lips, our both warm breaths mixing with each other's...

....And I don't know what happened in that one moment that the next thing I know was.... I was above Rose..... Making her mine, cheating on my wife.

The woman I love the most....

I hurt her the most with this.