Zane - Confessions of a lycan

Chapter 38

Zane

With all the inner strength I possessed, I threw myself backwards, almost falling on my ass when my feet hit the floor from the speed of it. What the hell am I doing? She's not even fully recovered. Her wolf hasn't even made it to the surface yet for fu*king sake, and here I am almost claiming her. Goddess, I´m such a selfish bastard.

I ran my hand through my hair. My co*k still hard for her, but fu*k did I need to get that sh*t under control.

“Just claim her! She needs us!” “Ooh my god, Cassian?!” "Who else would it be, dumbwit?”

I started to pace back and forth in the room. Frustrated and shocked that he had said his first words to me since that night 87 years ago. “I want her wolf to be present. For her to be fully recovered before we mate. Even if I might die from blue balls before that happens.” I growled back at him. I have missed him, mourned our broken bond every fu*king day. But this wasn´t the right time for him to make his presence known again.

"She's ours! Her wolf will grow stronger as we mark her! Cassian snarled at me, fighting for control.

“For fu*k sake Cassian! What if it kills her instead? Thought about that, huh?! Stand down!” I argued back as we growled at each other.

“Zane, what´s going on?” My wildflower asked worriedly, stopping me in my frantic pacing.

“I´m sorry baby. Fu*k..” I ranted before I went to sit down on the bed next to her. She wrapped herself in the sheets, covering herself. She looked so vulnerable that I wanted to slap myself for putting that expression on her beautiful face.

"Baby, I almost lost control over myself. Cassian was fighting me. There is nothing I would rather do than to go all the way and mark each other, trust me. But I want you to be fully recovered and I want you to get a chance to know your wolf first. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I hurt you, wildflower. Goddamn it, I´m in love with you, Lily. You are everything to me.” I pleaded and spilled my heart's content.

I meant every fu*king word of what I said. She was the softness to my hardness, the grace to my roughness. And the goddess knew that my heart only beat for my wildflower. The wide-eyed expression on her face slowly turned to glittering eyes and a shy smile before she came closer and put her hands on my face, looking as if she was searching for something.

“You really mean that?” She asked tentatively. “ Fu*k yeah baby, I do!” I stated before claiming her mouth. Kissing her with everything in me while trying to convey all my emotions in one kiss. When I pulled back, we were both out of breath.

I kissed her forehead before leaning my head against hers, feeling peace in my soul even with everything that was going on around us. This, her and me, right here, was perfection in a world full of chaos.

“I love you too,” She whispered with her angelic voice as she nuzzled me. My heart stopped beating for a second, I could hardly believe what I was hearing. “You don't have to say it back, wildflower.” Shocking myself with the vulnerability that could be heard in my voice and the feelings that ran through me. She pulled back and looked at me seriously, putting me on edge.

I could handle any physical ordeal I was put through without fear. But the blinding fear that pulsed through me at the mere thought that she might reject me was worse than anything I'd ever felt except for when I didn't know if she would survive.

This was in a close second place. I knew she said she thought she was in love with me in the library. But we got caught up in passion and didn't talk about it afterwards, and in my mind, I was terrified that deep down she didn't actually mean it.

“Zane, I would never say anything that I didn´t mean, especially to you, baby. I didn't know what love or inner peace was until I met you. You mean everything to me.” She said with passion and so much love that I felt my own eyes burn with unshed tears.

Before I made a complete fool of myself, I leaned forward and kissed her, claimed her luscious lips with my own.

When I let my tongue slide along her bottom lip, she parted and gently brushed her own tongue against mine. She moaned and ran her hands through my hair, letting the sheet fall. I carefully laid her down on her back and moved so we were side by side. I let my hand travel the length of her creamy, silky-smooth body before I took her leg and draped it over my hip. Chest to chest we kissed, nuzzled and touched each other for what felt like forever yet not nearly long enough, before we both fell asleep, snuggled up in each other’s arms.

***

Lily

I woke up the next morning to the most wonderful scent of sandalwood and leather.

I felt how my heart and mind were lighter than they had ever been before. All thanks to the gorgeous Lycan next to me.

Zane looked so young and carefree as he laid sleeping next to me. His jet-black hair tousled and his muscular torso on full display.

It took all my strength not to lap him up like a cat that found yummy cream.

"See anything you like, wildflower." Zane asked in a hoarse voice with his eyes still closed and a sly smirk on his lips.

Embarrassed that I got caught, I slumped down on the bed and closed my eyes again before I replied,

“I have no idea what you are talking about.” Before I could react, he pounced on me.

I let out a startled yelp as he captured my wrists in one hand, holding my hands above my head.

“Look carefully, wildcat, and think again about that answer.” he said playfully to me with mischief in his eyes.

I gave him an innocent look, but that only made him give me a wolfish grin in return.

"So that's the way you want to play, huh, little wildcat? If I reach down between us, I won't find your pu*sy wet for me already?” He said with a smug smile.

I narrowed my eyes at him. Ooh don´t you dare..

He chuckled darkly at me, before he jumped out of bed. I couldn't help but stare at his perfectly sculpted body before I caught myself and tried to look unfazed instead. Judging by the satisfied gleam in his eyes, he knew exactly how I was sneaking a look at him.

I was just about to get out of bed when he pounced on me again. I screamed as he tossed me over his shoulder and slapped me on my ass with a resounding smack. “Ouch!” “Shush Wildcat, before I decide to tame you.” He snickered as I hissed at him, making him laugh and spank my ass yet again. “Time for a bath, little wildcat.”

Through pleasure and teasing, he made me beg and cry out his name over and over again, until I was putty in his hands.

I would say that he managed to tame me pretty well.

Nolan

That b***h is going to die painfully for deceiving me! I hissed and snarled as I punched a three repeatedly.

How could I ever trust that stupid, greedy bit*h to help me retrieve my Lily?

My knuckles were sore and bloody, just like my heart was without my little one. I leaned against the tree and took a few deep breaths before thinking about the next plan I had come up with.

Last night's bonfire came and went without Ava showing up. The chance to save Lily from that cave man was gone.

She was most likely forced to sit alone, depressed, while that damn prince was out enjoying himself. He was probably flirting with every she-wolf who happened to bat her eyelashes at him. Lily deserves so much better.

I had never shown any woman affection, love or closeness. But I intended to do everything in my power to give it to Lily.

To make her understand that she´s my everything and my only one.

The loneliness that had haunted me for the past 100 years washed over me. In the beginning, it was easy to curb it with random women. But now they could only curb my anger, calm my demon, but never my loneliness.

Only Lily could accomplish that, I was sure of it.

I approached the border of the Crescent moon pack and tried to sniff out guards to find a way inside.

I had paid some rouge werewolves to attack their pack that night, so I could sneak in when their attention was elsewhere and my scent was obscured by the witch's potion. The clock was ticking down, only a few minutes left now.

Then I will come to save you little one...