VALERIE:
I should have known something was terribly wrong when Jo woke me up so early to talk about feeding my sweet nephew, Lucian. I should have known something was off and I should have asked what it was. But I did not.
I did not because I believed that if anything was wrong, she would tell me. But I was wrong about that too. What could a ten year old possibly understand, right? Right.
I held baby Lucian in our room and pressed his head on my chest, I tapped his back gently, trying to stop him from crying. But he would have none of it. I looked towards the empty bottles on the table.
The one with the breastmilk had already been emptied, it was only the formula left. I bet Jojo did not know Lucian ate so much whenever she was not around him, because that was the only way I could
