Just another Tumor

1 AM

Ethan Davidson 

    I don’t want to be awake right now. I want to be a sleep. A sleep-in bed. Getting rest. Getting rem sleep. God, I just don’t want to be awake with the thoughts right now. Put music on, it’ll drown them out. Crappy song, crappy song, too up beat for right now, no, no, no, no, no! Ugh. What was I thinking? I’m not even ready for a girl friend why am I pushing this? Because she’s perfect Ethan that’s why. Well even if she is, I’m not. I am so far from the perfect guy I shouldn’t even be in the same school as her. Don’t be that hard on yourself. She was the one who asked you out on the date. Not the other way around. I have school tomorrow and lunch plans with her, why am I still a f*****g wake?! Text her. No. She’s probably sleeping. Because she probably seen nothing wrong with tonight! Ugh. Text Kim. Yeah.  

‘So, I think I am going to go sit in the bath tub until I slowly get sucked down the drain.’ -E

‘Take a sweater it’s probably cold in the sewers.’ -K

‘I deserve the cold plus I’m not going down there to build a new community why would I need a sweater?’ -E

‘Because you get cold easily.’ -K

‘True enough.’ -E

‘So why are you escaping to the sewers?’ -K

‘Because I went on a date and f****d the s**t out of it.’ -E

‘DUDE YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY?!?!?!?’ -K

‘WTF No I meant like I screwed it up, f****d up, messed everything up that could be messed, screwed, and f****d up.’ -E

‘I’m sure it wasn’t that bad.’ -K

‘She ran out of the restaurant and went and hung out with Jayden Cadger for a while before she’d even text me back.’ -E

‘f**k. Yeah that does sound messed, f****d, and screwed up.’ -K

‘I’m supposed to have lunch with her tomorrow.’ -E

‘Don’t’ -K

‘Why not?’ -E

‘Because if she ends up ditching you for Jayden or some douche canoe it’s gonna be in front of the whole caff, and I don’t think you’ll like that.’ -K

‘Maybe she won’t do it again.’ -E

‘Maybe I won’t stay up till 3 am, oh wait? It’s 4:30 in the morning Ethan. I don’t know if you can trust this chick not to flake out’ -K

‘Kim, I think I love this girl.’ -E

‘That’s a very strong word to use, if you actually do then maybe having lunch with her the day after a f****d-up situation (that you still haven’t given me all the details about) isn’t a good idea, I mean it’ll probably be awkward and do you want to have to try and talk to her about, if he said something, stuff what Jayden was saying? I’d give it a day or two at least.’ -K

‘That sounds like a better plan.’ -E

‘I know. That’s why I said it.’ -K

‘I don’t want to go to school tomorrow.’ -E

‘Then don’t’ -K

‘It’s the second WEEK of school I sort of have to?’ -E

‘But do you really? I could skip and tell my mom I was in the office all day fixing my schedule if she gets a call home.’ -K

‘Okay.’ -E

‘Sounds like a plan Stan.’ -K

‘I guess it does.’, Kim is the closet thing I have to a best friend, well she is my best friend, I don’t know why I thought that. I’ve known her my whole school life but we haven’t been close like this for long. Jayden, Tristen, Evan, Caleb and I used to be a little group. We did everything together. Then the first Tumor was found Caleb couldn’t handle it so he left the group and now I think he goes to some private school near the city somewhere. I still talk to Evan sometimes but he moved away with his Dad when his parents split up. That just leaves Jayden and Tristen. Tristen was my best friend, he was like a brother. My parents loved him as their own and he spent most nights at my house and then he started dating my sister. I was fine with it until he started hanging out with her friends and he became the asshole of the century. He ended up cheating on Kate and that was the tip of the iceberg. I hate my sister, like loath almost but she’s blood, and blood is thicker than water, right? Jayden and I actually have no beef, but everyone picks sides in a divorce and he chose Tristen. Sometimes I think about if my life would’ve been different, like if I had no tumors, how this would’ve played out. They’re kind of douche-y now but if I was still there to throw in some nerd if they would’ve changed. Whatever.  

    I should really go to bed. I should be sleeping right now, dreaming of a better tomorrow. Sam would be there, holding my hand and laughing at whatever stupid joke I made. A better tomorrow. Go to sleep Ethan. Close your eyes and… my phone lights up. Probably Kim asking what time we’re doing stuff at.  

‘Is this Ethan?’ Well that doesn’t freak me out, random f*****g numbers texting me at 4:30 in the morning. 

‘Umm yeah who is this?’ -E

‘Okay just wanted to make sure I was texting this to the right person. It’s Jayden.’ Why the f**k is this fucktard texting me now?  

‘What do you want’ -E

‘Samantha is a great girl and if she choses you I won’t try to take her from you.’ If she chooses me? f*****g prick, she’s going to choose me because she likes me, she spent what not even an hour with you? Asshole. 

‘Okay then?’ -E

‘I’m saying that because if she chooses me, I don’t want you trying to take her away from me.’ Oh, I f*****g will if I want to you f*****g douche canoe. 

‘I’m not going to stop talking to her if that’s what your getting at.’ -E

‘How would you feel if I kept talking to her if she did pick you?’ -J

‘When she chooses me, I’m going to actually trust her that she chose me and not go and flirt with some asshole.’ That might be a little strongly worded but it gets the point across. 

‘Ethan come on man’ -J

‘You f*****g come on! How did you even get this number? Samantha can talk to who ever she wants no matter who she picks because no one gets to f*****g decide for her.’ -E

‘I’m not saying I’ll lock her in a tower and throw away the key, I’m just saying we won’t try to win her back if the other guy wins, alright?’ -J

‘She’s not a prize to be won Jayden, and if you think that about her? You don’t even f*****g deserve to look in her direction.’  -E 

‘Settle down’ -J

‘get rid of this number’ -E

‘Ethan come one, we were best friends before why are you being a douche rn?’ -J

‘LAUGHING MY f*****g ASS OFF!! I’m being the douche? You’re the one trying to decide Sam’s future without her knowing, pretty sure that’s a douche move.’ -E

‘I’m not deciding for her! I’m trying to help us out.’ -J

‘whatever man’ I should be going to sleep right now, not fighting about Samantha with this t**t.  

‘Dude this is why no one talks to you anymore, you go from 0 to 100 so f*****g quickly over nothing’ -J

‘She’s not nothing.’-E