015: What have you done?
1150 Words
ALMA'S POV
Sitting next to Jace, this time around, felt safe, his body emitting a cool air that mine desperately wanted to envelope.
If not for our little 'encounter' this morning then I would have felt even less tense that I was feeling.
I couldn't help but to think about a thousand and one ways that the news I heard this morning could impact my life, it was all happening so fast.
How would having the Warren brothers in my school impact my school life? Would things get easier?
My eyes traveled to the front mirror, feeling the dangerous gaze of someone on me, and then I saw it.
Jeremy had his eyes on me the whole time, the lightest shade of green eyes staring at me through the front mirror, only to look away after a brief meeting with mine.
I couldn't help but to shiver. Things were certainly not going to get easier with him around.
Jace was very nice to me, Jaxon always ignored me, I didn't exist to him. These two were very acceptable to me.
But Jeremy, I existed to him, he acknowledged my presence, glared at me with mysterious eyes, spit out vile words at my face, and then walk away.
"What a sour candy..." Ida grumbled.
Jaxon, who had been the one driving, pulled over the car. The sight of my school gates just ahead made me want to sink into the seat of the car.
They all got down from the car and Jace held open the door for me. The first impression that people were sure to talk about.
Stepping out of the car, bag hung on my back, i froze.
Everyone saw, murmurs floated around, gazes fixed, judgment, pity and ridicules circulated.
I didn't know how to react to everything coming at me all at once but I knew one thing, I wanted to be away from there as soon as possible.
As I took a step, a familiar red car pulled into the yard and my body froze. Those wheels, that sexy shade of red, the roaring engine, I would recognize them anywhere.
Alice. At least that's what he called her and by he I meant... Ralph Bowman.
He stepped down from the car, a new sense of energy circling around him. Alpha's strength obviously. A pair of dark shades sat on his nose, his blue eyes peaking just above them, and a black leather jacket wrapped firmly around his body.
He had always seemed to have that 'bad boy' energy and that made everyone consider him cool. His hair was rough, another attribute that made him handsome.
He had a smile on his face in contrast to his dress style, kind and cute.
Then from the other side came my ex best friend, new Luna of my former pack, thankfully.
Her orange hair was let loose, draping down her shoulders and back. Her light blue eyes designed with dark eye shadows as usual.
Looking at her made me suddenly want to crawl into a shell rather than feeling confident enough to do what I had imagined all morning. Cursing her straight in the face.
I had never felt so intimidated even though she still bore the caring motherly look in her eyes.
My chest rose and fell rapidly and I suddenly felt so out of breath, I didn't know what to do, especially when they both spotted me. I wanted to run, I wanted to hide, I pleaded for anything at all to save me.
A dragon picking me off the ground and carrying me away, the earth suddenly becoming quick sand and swallowing me up in an instant. Anything.
But nothing happened.
And so I still stood there, stunned like a fool to the core, as they both walked over towards us.
There was an unfamiliarity in Ralph's distant eyes and it became worse when he spoke. "Jace, Jeremy, Jaxon, it is an honor to have you here at our prestigious school. I'm happy to know that things still remain good between our packs."
"Alpha Ralph," Jace regarded him which reminded me that Ralph was no longer an alpha in waiting like the Warren brothers.
"Please, Ralph is just fine." Ralph corrected, a gentle smile touching his lips.
"Okay then. Ralph. Thank you for your warm welcome, I, myself, am glad to know that we share an alliance with your pack now." Jace smiled softly.
I was still finding it hard to breathe, that was when i realized that Bella's eyes never left my body.
Her orange lips parted and the most dreadful words left her mouth, "are you okay?" She asked in a soft tone. "You seem so out of breath."
I felt my eyes water but I wasn't crying, I hated how she looked at me with pity. It made me want to break down.
That was when Ralph's eyes met mine and he smiled softly. "My old friend, it blesses my heart to see you in such good shape. I was actually starting to worry about your well being."
I scoffed a laugh, blinking my tears away. I wanted to laugh but not at him, at how foolish and pitiful I felt. How they treated me like some charity case.
"Excuse me but I'll be late for class." I mumbled as I pushed past alpha Ralph and hurried away from their midst.
I didn't look back, I didn't stop, I didn't want to listen but my ears caught faint words from the people around me.
Some mocked, some pitied, some worried. I hated it.
The feeling of being looked at with pity, the sadness that brewed in their minds and brimmed in their eyes when they saw me, I hated it all.
I wished for nothing more than for it go away. I wanted to be away from everything. Everyone. I wanted to live away from all the emotions.
Behind the locked bathroom door, I was alone with my reflection.
Those ocean blue eyes of mine staring back at me, tears caused them to glimmer. The continuous heavy rising and falling of my chest, how much I wanted to breathe but couldn't.
With trembling hands, i poured out the content of my bag into the wash hand basin and didn't stop until I heard the clatter i was looking for.
Trashing the bag on the ground, I picked up the container of sedatives and poured out two white pills from the content. Without any hesitation, i gulped it down with water from my water container.
The pills stuck at my throat at first but after a second gulp of water, I felt it slide all the way down.
Only seconds later, my body began to calm. My head raised back to stare at my reflection and tears trailed down my face.
A voice that wasn't Ida's spoke in my head. "What have you done...?"
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