Chapter 44
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We had a morning flight today. Actually I'm still want to visit L.A I want to go to Hollywood Walk of Fame.
"You okay?" Finn asked.
I just nodded and half-smiled at him. Then turned my face back to the window, seeing the sky.
"Em, I dont know what happen actually." Finn said.
"I'm not in a mood to talk about it. I just wanna go to the Hollywood Walk of Fame but we missed it." I said without looking at him.
"Come on, we came here for having fun." Finn said.
"We already had it, Finn." I said.
"No, seeing you like this it seems like all the fun just dissapeared." Finn said.
I turned my face to him. "Can you tell me what happened that night to Sam?" I asked.
"But promise me that you wont cry." Finn said. I nodded.
"I dont know how to start it but when you went back to your room, Joe said that he will make best week for you before you go and I bet, Sam got jealous with that. Sam called him a jerk and said if they were in the same place, Sam would punch him. Then Mike came, said to stop but Sam started it again. He said that Mike regret to know that you ever has crush on him. Until Puck check him out and he was drunk with a bottle in his hand. I already warned him that this is not what you want him to do." Finn said.
"It doesnt seem like him. Then why Sam called Joe jerk?" I asked.
"Because Sam notice that Joe starred at you like everyday, Sam asked him is he like you or not but Joe answer not, he likes Quinn but Quinn and Puck take it too easy." Finn said.
"And the truth?"
"Joe likes you, but he knows you dated Sam so he said he will wait for you. That day when you and Puck were having a project together, Joe cant stop starred at you. I already warned him what if Sam notice that and he noticed it." Finn said.
I let out a sigh. I dont know what to say. Sam being like this because he doesnt want me to leave him but I have to and he has to understand. I will talk with him tomorrow. I will make things better with my way.
"Em?" Finn called me.
"Yes?" I turned my face at him.
"You okay?" Finn asked.
"I'm totally okay. Thanks for telling me the truth and what just happened because I dont want things getting worse." I place my head on his shoulder.
"Thats fine." Finn said.
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Lima, Ohio.
"Its glad to be back home! Finally. I got jet lag again I guess." I said as we entered the house.
"You always slept in the plane, Emily." Finn rolled his eyes. I just chuckle and bring my suitcase into my room.
I push my body onto my bed then grab my phone to text Katy to let her know that I just got home so she can bring Sammie back to home.
I feel my eyes closing slowly but then I'm awake by the door bell rings.
"Finn, can you open the door for me? It may be Katy." I yelled.
"I'm taking a bath right now. If she want to see me naked it's okay." Finn yelled back.
"Errr okay." I rolled my eyes then walked downstairs to open the door. "Hey Katy, thank you for...." I cut my words when I see who are standing there is not Katy but Sam and Puck.
We didnt say anything. Just starring at each other until Puck passed me and enter my house. Me and Sam havent talk since that night. I ignore all his calls and his texts.
"Come in." I half-smiled at Sam and let him to enter my house. He walked passed me but still looked onto my eyes, I turned my face to avoiding look onto his eyes.
"Man, did you bring a hot chick for me?" Puck yelled and walked upstairs to Finn's room left us. Sam still standing near the couch as I'm still standing near the door.
"Oh you must be havent any breakfast yet right? I heard that your parents went to Kentucky until tomorrow." I said to him to break a leg then walked to the kitchen.
Suddenly a hand catched my hand. I turned my face at him but he didnt say anything. He just looked at me with his sad eyes which make me really sick.
Sam came closer to where I'm standing and hugged me. I dont know what to do. Is he still drunk or something? I didnt give any respons or hug him back.
"I-I'm sorry. I-I'm so sorry." Sam whispered into my ear.
I didnt say anything I keep quiet, I dont know what to do, I dont know what to say to him. Those things really make me sick.
"I know I was drunk, it was not me, it was the black part of me. I'm sorry, I know you are dissapointed with me, I know you mad at me but believe me, I was sober that night, I dont even think my life would be without you, I cant think straight." Sam said.
I keep quiet in his folded arm. No any comments or no any moves. I really dont know what should I do or say. Lord, help me.
"Babe, say something please." Sam whispered.
"I....I....I love you." I'm stuttering. Only those 3 words that can came out from my mouth.
Sam pulled my body, he hold my sleeve, looked onto my eyes slighty, then he pushed his face closer to mine then kissed me. I dont know but I dont want this to end. I admit that I dont wanna leave him. Sam pull our lips away, he back to looked onto my eyes slighty.
"I love you more than anybody else in the world." Sam smiled.
I half-smiled at him. I dont know what's going on with my mind I'm in the between to leave him or continue this but only those 3 words that can came out from my mouth right now.
"I promise you I'll never do that things again, being stupid and get drunk." Sam said.
"I'm not in the mood to talk about it." I said as I turned my face avoiding to look onto his eyes.
"Look at me when I'm talking to you. I know you dissapointed with me." Sam cup my cheeck to looked onto his eyes.
My tears slowly came down to my face. "Just forget it please." I cried.
Sam pushed my body to him and hug me really tight. He must be really sick seeing I'm crying but I'm crying because I felt so guilty, he been like this because of me.
"You dont have to say sorry, the one was wrong is me. I'm causing you become like this. I'm sorry." I cried.
"Ssshh stop talking baby. Stop talking about this. We were wrong. Not you or me but us." Sam stroke my back with his hand. "I dont care if you will leave me soon or not, I just wanna let you know that you are mine, forever to be mine and if it's over I'll always try to get you back into my arm and punch all the boys face who date you or hurt you." Sam chuckled.
"Including Joe?" I pull his body away.
"How could you know about that?" Sam frowned.
"Finn. I forced him to told me everything." I simply said.
"I just hate seeing him starred at you like everyday. The way he looked at you make me sick." Sam said.
I just being quiet. I dont know what to say. We just starred onto each other eyes. I think I should leave all these things early before it made me more sick. I got hurt by all of these things.
The bell suddenly ringing. Wake us up from our imagination. Sam pulled my hand away and let me walked to the door and open it.
"Hello momma Emily! How was your weekend in L.A?" Katy folded Sammie in her hands.
"Hey, great, but sorry I dont have any merch for you." I said to Katy. Then she gave me Sammie to hold.
"Haha it's okay. Your Sammie is clean, he just took a bath yesterday. Where is Finn by the way?" Katy asked as she looked around inside my house. "Hi Sam." Katy pointed as she saw Sam standing not far away from us.
"Hey, thank you for taking care of him." Sam said.
"It's okay. Sometimes, Emily does the same to Perry when I went to somewhere. Well I have to go now. Bye you two. See you." Katy waves us goodbye and walked off.
I closed the door. Sam still standing there. "Finn, your bestfriend is back!" I yelled.
"Let him come here! I almost win!" Finn yelled back.
I place Sammie on the floor so he can walked by himself but Sam catched him, lift him up. "I'll bring him to Finn." Sam said. I just nodded. He then walked upstairs.
I pushed my body onto the couch. Then I take the phones from the mini table beside the couch. Input some numbers to call. I really need to talk to someone. I feel wanna cry right now.
"Hallo?"
"Kurt.... I want to talk." I can feel my tears slowly came down.
"Hey sweetie whats wrong? You dont cry aint you?" Kurt asked.
** Sam's P.O.V **
Seems like something wrong inside Emily's mind. I dont know what is that.
"Hey buddy come here." Finn said as me and Sammie enter Finn's room.
"I'm hungry, can we order the pizza? Wait I left my phone in my car!" Puck said.
"Use my house phone bro. Take it." Finn said as he pointed the phone on his side table.
Puck grab the phone try to call but it doesnt work. "It doesnt work, man. Seems like someone used it." Puck said.
"Oh maybe Emily use the phone downstairs." Finn simply answer.
"Is it mean we can hear what she is talking about with someone on the phone?" Puck asked.
"Yep, but we cant join the conversation. We only can hear. Just press this." Finn press a button I dont know what is that. Then a voice is come from the phone.
"Emily, dont cry, please just dont." A guy voice.
"Is that Hummel's voice?" Puck asked as we hearing the conversation. Finn just nodded.
"Something went wrong with my mind. I dont know what I feel right now. Those all things make me sick, Kurt. I didnt even know what to say. He just came to me and hugged me. He said sorry but only those three words that came into my mouth." Seems like Emily talked about me with Kurt. Finn and Puck looked at me, I just frowned at them.
"Emily, you and Sam are lovely couple but there is a time when you both have to separated. I dont know what if this is happen to me and Blaine but you have to face it." Kurt said.
"But I'm in between want to leave him or not. This is a hard week for me. I have to leave him, Finn and all of you. I'm sick Kurt, I got hurt because all of this." Emily cried.
"Baby girl dont cry, it's sad to hear you cried over the phone because I cant hug you. Where are you now?" Kurt asked.
"Home. I just wanna go back home since I found a news about him got drunk last night. We got morning flight. I just wanna lock myself into a room and crying over but I need someone to talk and I cant tell this to Finn." Emily said.
"Yeah sometimes there is something that you cant tell to your siblings. So what will you do?" Kurt asked.
"Leave earlier. I decided to leave after tomorrow, on Tuesday." Emily simply said.
Me, Puck and Finn looked into each other face and gasped about what she said. She want to leaves us earlier.
"Please Emily just dont." Finn mumbled.
"Dont be a stupid, Em! Then what you gonna do about your relationship with him?" Kurt asked.
"I dont know, but the things I know mostly long distance relationship will end up with cheating and I dont want to be like that." Emily said. Seems like her tears still fall down.
"So you mean that you and him will... Grilled cheesus please dont." Kurt said.
"I dont know. I dont know what shall I do. Things just getting worse day by day. I feel like I just wanna die, thats why I'm calling you because I dont know who should I talk about this to." Emily cried.
"Follow your heart, Em." Kurt said.
"I'm going crazy now. I cant think straight. Help me out." Emily hissed but still crying.
"If you want to leave after tomorrow, with all of my heart, I'll let you, but if you want to break up with him, think about it again. Sam wont cheating behind your back and so you do. Just think about that. I have to go. Talk to you later sweetie. Dont cry. Love you." Kurt said.
"T-thank you. Love you too, Kurt." Emily hungs up the phone.
I'm still thinking about what she just said to Kurt. Is she want us to break up? Is that what she think all day so she act so strange? My baby, what happened to you?
"Finally I can call the pizza!" Puck almost yelled. Me and Finn just keep quiet think about what she just said.
"What the.. she use it again!" Puck snapped then he press that button again to hear another conversation.
"Yes baby girl?" A girl voice.
"Now is my Quinn-B's voice." Puck said.
"Will you get mad at me if I leave on this Tuesday?" Emily still crying.
"Are you drunk? Two weeks wasnt long enough and now you want to leave us on Tuesday? Are you kidding me?" Quinn yelled.
"Things are getting worse here. I cant think straight." Emily said.
"What happened to you dear?" Quinn asked.
"I dont know what's going on with my mind. Shall I leave him or not. Shall I continue this or not. I dont even know what to do." Emily sober.
"Listen you and Sam are true couple but if you wanna reach your dream. You gotta have to say good bye." Quinn said.
"I just ordered a pizza by online from Finn's laptop." Puck said. Nobody answer. Me and Finn keep listening to the conversation in between Quinn and Emily.
"Emily, you there?" Quinn asked.
"Ah y-yes." Emily sobber.
"Dont cry, we will get into this and face it." Quinn said.
"I know." Emily said. "Well I have to go. Talk to you later." Emily hung up the phone.
Finn looked at me with sad look. He doesnt even know what happened with his twin sister. 'Gotta have to say goodbye' those words running around on my mind.
"Things really getting worse." Finn said. I dont know what to say but he is right.
The door bells rings. It must be Puck's pizza. Puck want to take it but Finn's grab his hand. Until Emily comes to Finn's room with a box of pizza on her hand.
"Finn, yours. I already paid the bill." Emily said. She gave us her poker face.
"Actually it's mine. I will change your money later. Thank you i***t or you want some?" Puck take the pizza. She just shake her head and half smiled and didnt say anything. Then walked into her room, close the connecting door and locked it. Also her door.
She really want to be alone right now. I know that. I wanna hug her and hold her hands but it will make those things getting worse. I take a seat on Finn's bed, playing with his drum stick. I dont know what should I do until I heard a guitar sounds is playing.
You were in college working part time waitin' tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say "Can you believe it?
As we're lying on the couch?"
The moment I could see it.
Yes, yes, I can see it now.
Do you remember, we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time.
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine.
Flash forward and we're taking on the world together,
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded,
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes.
But we got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about.
Do you remember, we were sitting there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Oh, oh, oh
And I remember that fight
Two-thirty AM
When everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the "Goodbye"
Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."
You said, "I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
He is the best thing that's ever been mine"
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it
I can see it now
"You are the best thing that..." Emily cut off her sing with a slow cry voices.
Finn looked at me. I looked at him back. Then Puck turned his face at us. We are notice that she is crying right now.
"She is really down right now." Puck whispered. "That song she sang I bet it was for you." Puck pointed at me.
"You're right, Puck." Finn nodded.
"I dont know what shall I do." I said to them.
"Just eat that Pizza." Puck laughed. Finn rolled his eyes. I let out a sigh.
"Just let her alone, bro and prepare for the worse things happen. I hope you understand what I mean." Finn said. I just nodded. I got what he means.
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School Day
I havent meet Emily yet this morning. I dont know where the hell she hide herself right now. We talked last night but our conversation become awkward these days. I dont know what happened to us. If this gonna end, I'm ready to get her back.
I walked down in the hallways passed some cheerios and the jocks, passed Emily's locker and the others but I cant find her until my phone vibrating.
From: My lovely brunette
Can we talk in the choir room right now? Please
To: My lovely brunette
On my way to there, baby. See ya xx
I turned my way to the choir room. I'm ready for the worst thing. I'm ready. I entered the choir room and see my girl is sitting there alone.
"Good morning, beautiful. Where have you been this morning? I'm looking for you." I said as I entered the choir room then take a chair and place it in front of her.
"There is something I want to talk about." Emily said as she keep her head down.
"What is that?" I asked.
"I-I'm leaving t-tomorrow. I already talked with Ms. Pilsburry, Mr. Schue and principal Figgins this morning and they allowed me. Today is my last day here. My last day in McKinley and my last day see your face before I go to Berkeley tomorrow." She said about to cry.
"You really want to leave ealier?" I gasped. My heart break into pieces.
"Y-yes. And also today is our last day being together. We cant pass it, I know that, and if we still continue what we've been through it will hurt the both us." She cried.
"But, babe..."
"Sam, you know I love you right? You know this is so hard for me but letting you free is better than we hold onto each other but we got hurt day by day. I'm sorry. Honestly this is really hurt me but we gotta have to say good bye." She cried and turned her head down.
I touch her chin to make her looked at me. "I love you so much, Emily. You mean a lot to me." I said then I kissed her for the last time before she go.
"I love you too. But things getting worse. Promise me, if you date someone else, dont ever let her get any hurt or leave her. Love her as the way you love me." She said as she looked onto my eyes.
"Nobody can make me fall in love as the way you did. I promise to you, if you date someone else, I will try to get you back, no matter what you'll always be mine forever." My tears slowly came down to my face.
"I'm gonna miss you, Sam." She cried.
"I'm gonna miss you so bad too." I stands up and hugged her tight. She pulled my hug away and leave me alone in the choir room.
I can feel my tears slowly come down to my face. I wanna punch something in front of me but it wont make any change. I dont want her to leave me. I love her so much. She is the best part of my life.
"Trouty mouth, what are you doing here?" I turned my face and saw Santana walks in. "Did you just cried? Ugh cant believe, Mr. Schue called us one by one to leave the class and came here." Santana mumbled.
"He did?" I asked.
"Yeah, actually I was busy with my class stuff but he cames and called us." Santana sighs and rolled her eyes.
"It must be really important if not, I'll go back to my class." Tina walks in with Artie and Joe then take a seat in the front row.
Finn, Rachel, Puck and Quinn finally comes up. Also Kurt, Blaine and Brittany. Finn took a seat beside me also Puck. I know what will happen next. Last, Mercedes, Mike and Mr. Schue walks in.
"I apologize for taking you guys here but there is one thing that you guys have to know and this thing really important and may shock you guys including me." Mr. Schue said.
"Is that about the unicorn get pregnant?" Brittany asked.
"Seriously, Britt?" Kurt rolled her eyes.
"Yeah, because it will schocked me like crazy." Brittany said. Mercedes put one finger in front of her mouth "ssssshhh."
"Sorry I'm late." Emily walks in with carrying a box which I bet those all stuff from her locker.
"Another christmas present?" Tina frowned.
Emily shakes her head. "No, this is all stuff that I left in my locker." She place the box on top the piano.
"Okay, what does it mean? I dont like any clues." Santana frowned.
"I-I'm leaving t-tomorrow." Emily said as head down.
"WHAT? IT MUST BE JOKING RIGHT?" Santana yelled.
"I'm not joking. I'm so sorry. There is something that make me have to leave ealier. Today is my last day here. I'm so sorry guys." Emily start crying.
Eveyone look so sad right now, including me who still can feel the tears came down to my face.
"Did you guys have something to say before she go?" Mr. Schue asked.
"Can we follow you to the airport tomorrow? This is sad, more sad than the unicorn get pregnant." Brittany asked.
"Sure, Britt." Emily wipe her tears and smiled.
Joe suddenly stands up. "There is something I want to tell to the all of you, not only Emily. That night when Sam asked me did I like her or not, I lied. I like her since the first time I walked to this room but I dont want to break someone happiness or someone relationship. So I lied. Sorry Sam, she is yours." Joe said and go back to sit down.
I just nodded as Finn hold my shoulder. "You dont need to bro." I said to Joe.
"I never cry but I hate seeing you cry. Dont cry over the phone anymore sweety, I hate that because I cant hug you. If you need something just dial my number and I'll be there for you, but promise me dont cry over the phone anymore. I love you, Em." Kurt wipe his tears.
"I love you too, Kurtie." Emily said and smiled.
"I'm still owed you about the pizza bills yesterday. I'm forget to change it. Sorry, i***t and thank you for letting me live with Finn." Puck half-smiled.
"We used to be a bestfriend but then we become enemies because of my selfish. I admitted that I'm jealous with you. You're beautiful, smart and talented but everyone loves you for the way you are, for the way your good personality is, I'm sorry Emily. You deserve this for everything you've been through." Rachel said and half-smiled.
"You taught me what a beautiful girl is look like. Thank you for the best christmas gift you gave me. Take care. I'm gonna miss your crazy stupid little things and your voice in this room." Tina wipe her tears and smiled.
"I just wanna say that you are still owe me about your I.Q score haha. Thanks for inspiring me and believe me to being your google when you have nobody to give you any right explanation." Artie said.
"No more someone who will run up to me and called me Blainey Bear, and told me about her stupid little things. I'm gonna miss you, Emily." Blaine smiled.
"I guess my dad will come to this school again and meet principal Figgins because I lost my chemistry partner who always help me to get an A+ for chemistry. I'm gonna miss you, I'm gonna miss the time when you came to the class in the morning with sleepy cute face and complain like 'you know what Mike? I only had two hours to slept last night. Can you imagine? Two fcking hours!' Or something just like 'Finn did something stupid again this morning so I threw a toast bread with mustard at his face' or she gonna ignore me all day but I know that she can becomes a moody one. I'm gonna miss you, Em." Mike wipe his tears and chuckled.
"Actually not only you, Mike who got complain like that. Well, me either but beastie, I'll always be in the front line to safe you if you get sluhies again." Santana said.
"No more 'I will have a date with Sam and I dont know what to wear' 'help me please, Mercie' or 'you are the best!' Those puppy eyes when you begged to me to help you, I wont forget that. You always asked me about the any kind of dress that you should wear to date with Sam but you dont realize that you already pretty natural without those any kind of beautiful dress. I'm glad you believe me in many things. I'm still can be your stylish if you want." Mercedes chuckled.
"All I wanna say is I hate you, Emily. I told you that two weeks isnt long enough but you make it worse by leaving tomorrow. Well, with all of my heart I'll let you go but if you need to talk with me over the phone dont ever hung up the phone before I finish my words or I'll cut you. I'm gonna miss my baby girl who has the scariest half-smile ever." Quinn wipe her tears.
"Okay, If you guys let me to talk it wont be finish until next week but take care squidy, promise me to come back home at least every once in a week and please dont let Sam to adopt Sammie, it would be sucks to live only with Puck without him." Finn said.
Everyone eyes turned at me right now. Shall I say something like you guys too? I dont know well, I try.
"This is the saddest ever. I cant think straight, I lost my beloved one. Thanks for anything we've been through past 9 months, those crazy things, romantic moment and all those our argue. Promise me to come back into my life and we can start it all over again. You are the best thing thats ever been mine. I'll always love you and you'll always be mine forever. I'm gonna miss you so bad, princess also Sammie, Stacey and Stevie." I said as I wipe my tears and smiled at her. She smiled back at me then.
"You realize that the song I sang in my room yesterday it was for you? I'm gonna miss you too, Sam." She wipe her tears away.
"Is it means that Samily already over? Oh no, I wont ship Finchel or Tike. My otp is only Klaine right now." Puck fakes crying.
The other just chuckled at his words, include me. Our relationship might be end but my love to her wont end up easily or it wont end up forever.
"Nothing lasts forever, idiot." Emily smiled then grabs a guitar with her hands.
It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
But misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
"Come on give me hug." She said then we came to her and hug her together.
"I'm gonna miss you guys." She wipe her tears and pulled our body away then take her box. "Come on, Finn." Finn follow her and they both walked away left the choir room and us.
"Just please dont say good bye to me." I mumbled. A hand hold my shoulder, I turned my face and it's Joe. He shake his head. I nodded and hug him.
"She will come back to your life, I promise you." Joe said to me.
"I promise that if one day she dates someone else, I'll be on the front line to catch her back into my life." I said.
"Yeah you should. She is belong to you." Mike said then gave me a hug. So the others.
"I love you guys so much. Thanks for all the support." I smiled.
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