That night, we slept in our own rooms. The two night back and forth trip from New York had been exhausting on me and him, but I'd be lying if I said I was not disappointed when he just plainly wished me goodby by gently kissing my knuckles. The least I could get was a goodnight kiss. I spent the next few hours reminding myself that maybe what me and him had was just a New York hookup, and I had to have zero expectations. Of course, the disappointment was still real when nothing filmy happened. He didn't sneak into my room in the middle of the night and he didn't climb up from the pole into my balcony. Despite being tired, that night was just a lot of tossing and turning and waiting for sleep until it finally took over, but the sleep was still not sound. I woke up early with the littlest of
