This is the thing Evan tried to warn me about, the thing I couldn't fully feel until now. It's not just me who's a lever. Everyone I love is a lever. My friends, my family, everyone in my ordinary world, all of them within reach of a wolf who wants to break Evan, and any of them can be used, and I've dragged all of them into range just by loving Evan, and they don't even know.
"I'm so sorry," I say to Elsie, and my voice shakes, because I am, I'm sorry down to my bones. "I'm so sorry. I can't explain it, I wish I could, but you have to trust me, you have to be careful, you have to tell your family to be careful, watch your brother, don't talk to strangers who know your name, please, Els, please just do this even though it doesn't make sense."
"Anna, you're scaring me."
"Good," I say, an
