The Billionaire’s Mistress

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I walked past him at the door which he left open for me as I made my way out I meet my older brother jessie who was sitted with his legs cross holding a magazine waiting patiently outside the office, when I got towards where he was I stood up adjusted his suit and asked me how my first session went knowly I was not going to reply him I looked at him surprised he actually had time for me today because I know him to be a busy man. I'm actually standing in front of Jessie wondering why he is here and why he is taking this whole therapy thing so serious, well I hope he doesn't think after the first time I'll be okay just like that like it's some magic.

I walked past him and went outside I kept walking till I got to the parkinglot and I met the driver waiting in the car, I went to the drivers window and knocked it he immediately opened the door for me to get into the car I sat at the passengers sit behind waiting for jessie to come. When he finally came and got into the car I knew Dr Jude had told him ever thing I said and how it's going to take time for me to open up.

Inside the car we had a silent drive back to the house, in my head were a lot of things going on like stupid thoughts of us having an accident and me being the victim of death. With all the things I have told no one about all in my head ready to explode, most times I just want to scream out to the world and get everything out of my head but I can't. Now I'm seen as the insane one since I came out of the mental heath care two weeks ago, I'm being forced to talk to a therapist to help me speak out about what's truly going on with me and what made me suddenly silent for this long I trust no one to talk to about what ever it is that's doing on with me. Sometimes I want tk think I'm actually mad as everybody thinks I am, I feel the way I enter that mental health care was the way I came out nothing changed and nothing will till I speak up to someone about what's truly going on with me and I don't even know if I did what the said I did, but why can't I remember or I just don't want to. I kept thinking and talking to myself that I didn't notice we had gotten home.

Well my three siblings and I all live together in out parents house which is a very large mansion, all I can say is my parents died billionaires and now I guess we all are or just Jessie. We have numerous family business going on like clothing and makeup collections, bakeries around the city and a very big restaurant down town all named Cole stone. I have been to all but I mostly go to the restaurant to watch the chefs cook even though I don't talk to them I just watch them and learn because I actually enjoy cooking. I'll like to own my restaurant some day because I won't like to live under my parents privilege.

I got out of the car went straight into the large building in front of me, all the workers in the house who saw me enter greeted me but I didn't respond I walked as fast as my feet's could carry me and went down the hall to the kitchen I took a bottle of water from the fridge and an apple then walked back to the hall way then went upstairs to my room I locked the door right behind me. I knew Issa was going to come over to ask how it went and Giveon I don't know if he's around, I drank my bottle of water and laid down on my bed I brought out my phone to call Tasha but I actually had nothing to say to her but I wanted to talk.

Tasha is my close friend I've known her through out my life and I feel she should be the one I'm talking to about what's going on but lately we've been distant and maybe it's because she finally has a guy in her life that makes her happy and she's concentrating on him or because she's been calling me for the past three weeks now no answer from me. I badly want to talk to her at the same time I don't I feel she's part of the people who brought me to this and made me the way I am now.

Phone rings.... "Hey Yas oh mg God I've been calling but you don't pick I just wanted to know how you're I went to the mental health care and the told me I couldn't see you only if I was family" Tasha kept talking she went on and on but I cut her off

" I'm not okay" I said with a low sad voice

" I know and I want to see you, yoy know you left school without saying goodbye next thing I hear your at a mental heath care like girl I didn't want to believe it" I know she wasn't going ti stop talking

" I was depress I'm still depress everyone things I'm insane I know you think so, I know you heard what happened but I did it because he hurt me so bad"I started crying remembering what I did and what made me do it.

" Yas what are you saying, who hurt you?

I don't get it ".

I ended the call before she could say any other thing and I didn't want to tell her everything, I knew she was going to call so I turned my phone off and wiped my tears that's when I heard a knock on the door.

" Hi you Yasmin it's Issa just checking up on you, how did your first session go? ".

She knew I was not going to answer so kept quite before saying another word.

"You know we're just try to help... Uhmm I guess you're asleep " she said and walked away. I know she'll come back again later to ask me to come down for dinner knowing I won't go down.

I closed my eyes to sleep and know I'm deep in thoughts what Tasha might be thinking of. Deep in my thoughts I hear his voice that deep cracky voice begging me.

"Honestly I can't blame you for any of that cause so far I've treated you in the worse way ever and quite frankly I wouldn't like anyone doing the same to me.... Uhmmm I'm very sorry for hurting you in any way and I'm sorry for everything that happened, truly there's a lot I'll like to say to you right now but I don't know where to start from it's your right to be angry with me, cause you really didn't deserve to be treated thus badly and I feel extremely guilty, to be honest I've never acted this way with anyone and I don't know why I acted the way I did and all. I'm sorry for ever bothering you in the first place and messing with your feelings, if I did in anyway. It's annoying, I know and I don't expect you to just be cool all so soon but I just want you to know that I'm very deeply sorry for everything. I never wanted it to go this way, you always seemed happy when we were together and I couldn't bring myself to the point of ending that happiness. I thought if I distanced myself maybe it will die off but it seemed like nothing changed. Yes, I intentionally didn't reply your messages or pick your calls earlier and intentionally acted off just in an attempt for you to loose interest but I never planned on hurting your feelings".

He went on saying things and things and lies on lies, I felt tears roll down my face as my eyes were closed but I was so deep thinking of all he told me that day knowing recalling all his words was breaking me slowly.