It’s been two days since I saw Yildiz, and that’s not because I am avoiding her. I told her I would return, and I plan on keeping that promise, but she was right. I have been indecisive and it’s not fair to her. If I do return to her it has to be clear what I want, and that’s why I took the time to decide.
If I remove all the voices in my head telling me why this is wrong, why this will only end badly, then all I’m left with is an overwhelming need to be with her. I don’t even care that we’re two completely different species, if Zarseti believed it can work then it has to. Yildiz is strong and wilful. She’s passionate and compassionate and sees things in ways I haven’t in a very long time. When I’m near her I feel light and at peace, but I also feel a desire unlike anything I’ve ever kno
