Jess studied me for a moment across the café table. "Okay, different question. If you could wave a magic wand and make your life anything you wanted, what would it look like?"
I stared down at my coffee cup. What would it look like?
"I don't know," I said finally. "A few months ago I would have said normal. College, boring job, maybe a nice boyfriend who took me to movies and didn't own a criminal empire."
"And now?"
"Now I don't think I can go back to normal even if I wanted to." I looked up at her. "I've changed too much. Seen too much. Become too much."
Jess reached across the table and squeezed my hand. "Then maybe the question isn't whether you go to Paris or stay with Silas and Julian. Maybe the question is who do you want to become? And which option gets you closer to that pers
