THE PALMS THAT HELD US

Chapter 3: The Divide

Morning came gray and heavy, the sky thick with clouds that promised rain but refused to deliver. The survivors woke stiff and hungry, their bodies aching from the rough sand and the salt that still crusted their skin. The humidity clung to them like a second layer, oppressive and suffocating, making every breath feel like a chore.

Susan opened her eyes to find Esmeralda already awake, staring at the treeline with those unblinking burnt honey eyes. The woman's hand was still resting on Susan's hip, a possessive weight that felt both foreign and familiar. Susan did not move. She lay there, memorizing the way the morning light caught the sharp angles of Ez's face, the scar that ran from her ribs to her hip, the tension that lived in her jaw even in sleep.

"You are staring," Ez said without turning.

Susan smiled. "You are worth staring at."

Ez finally looked at her. "You are ridiculous."

"You love it."

Ez's expression softened, just slightly. "Unfortunately."

She leaned over and kissed Susan, quick and soft, before pulling away. "We need to find water. Priya is already organizing a search party."

Susan sat up, her body protesting. The mossy hollow where they had made love last night was comfortable, but the ground was hard and unforgiving. She could feel every rock and root pressing into her back.

"I will come with you."

"No." Ez's voice was firm. "You stay here. Rest. I will be back."

"But—"

"Susan." Ez cupped her face. "I need to know you are safe. Please."

Susan wanted to argue, but the look in Ez's eyes stopped her. There was fear there, raw and unguarded. Ez had lost people before. She had lost her career, her honor, her sense of self. She could not lose Susan too.

"Fine," Susan said. "But you come back to me."

"I will." Ez kissed her forehead. "I promise."

---

The search party left at sunrise. Priya led the way, her CIA training making her an expert tracker. She moved through the jungle with silent precision, her eyes scanning the ground for any sign of water. Chen flanked her, her swimmer's body coiled with tension, ready to fight whatever emerged from the green darkness.

Ez followed close behind, her sharpened stick in hand, her eyes scanning the treeline. Delilah and Tiffany brought up the rear, their faces pale with worry.

"Beatrice is tough," Chen said, breaking the silence. "She survived the shipwreck. She can survive this."

"She is also old," Priya said flatly. "And she has not eaten properly in days. We need to find her fast."

The jungle closed in around them, thick and oppressive. The canopy blocked out most of the light, casting them into a green twilight. Strange sounds echoed from the darkness, the cries of birds and the rustle of unseen creatures. Priya paused, listening, then continued forward.

Ez found the flask first. It lay at the base of a kapok tree, the silver lid dented, the liquid inside long gone. She knelt and pressed her fingers to the ground, feeling the soil shift beneath her weight.

"She went this way," Ez said.

Delilah spotted the trail next. Broken twigs, disturbed moss, a single thread of silver silk snagged on a thorn bush. Beatrice's scarf. The old woman had not been careful. She had not been trying to hide.

The path led through a narrow ravine, its walls covered in moss and ferns. The air grew cooler here, damp and heavy with the scent of wet earth. Priya's hand went to the knife at her belt, her eyes scanning the shadows.

Then they reached the clearing.

It was a small opening in the jungle, ringed by ancient trees whose roots twisted into the earth like gnarled fingers. In the center stood a rock formation, smooth and weathered, and on top of it sat Beatrice Fitzwilliam.

She looked like a statue carved from marble, her silver hair catching the light, her ancient eyes fixed on the horizon. Her flask was in her hand, empty now, and her face was calm in a way that made Ez's stomach tighten.

"Beatrice," Priya called out. "We have been looking for you."

The old woman turned. Her eyes were wet, but her smile was genuine. "I knew you would find me. You always do."

"You need to come back to camp," Chen said. "It is dangerous out here alone."

Beatrice laughed. It was a quiet sound, like dry leaves skittering across stone. "Dangerous? Child, I have been in danger my entire life. I was born into danger. I married into danger. I loved into danger. Danger is my oldest friend."

Ez stepped forward. "What happened? Why did you leave?"

Beatrice was silent for a long moment. Then she spoke, her voice soft and far away.

"I was thinking about her. The maid. The one I loved. I was thinking about the way she used to hum when she ironed my dresses. The way her hands felt when she touched my face. The way she laughed when I told her I loved her."

She paused, her eyes distant. "I never told her the truth. I never told her that she was the only person who ever made me feel whole."

"Beatrice"

"I am tired, Ez." The old woman's voice cracked. "I am so tired. I have been running for forty years. Running from my family, running from my past, running from the memory of her. And I do not want to run anymore."

Ez stepped closer. "You do not have to run. You can stay with us. We are your family now."

Beatrice looked at her, her ancient eyes glistening. "You are a good person, Esmeralda. You saved Susan. You saved all of us. But you cannot save me. I do not want to be saved."

She stood, steadying herself on the rock. Her legs wobbled beneath her, but she found her balance.

"Tell the others I died looking at something beautiful," she said. "Tell them I finally found peace."

"Beatrice, do not" Priya lunged forward.

But Beatrice was already moving. She walked to the edge of the cliff behind the rock formation, her silver hair catching the wind. She looked back once, her smile serene, her eyes full of something that might have been relief.

Then she stepped forward and was gone.

---

Delilah screamed. Tiffany sobbed. Chen ran to the edge and looked down at the waves crashing against the rocks below. There was nothing to see but foam and white water and the endless blue of the ocean.

Ez stood at the edge, her fists clenched, her jaw tight. She had seen death before. She had seen it in Afghanistan, in the faces of soldiers who had given their lives for a cause they barely understood. But this was different. This was a woman who had chosen to die, who had decided that living was no longer worth the effort.

"She was tired," Ez said softly. "She was tired of running."

Priya put a hand on her shoulder. "We should go back to camp. We need to tell the others."

---

They returned to camp in silence. The weight of Beatrice's death hung over them like a shroud, heavy and suffocating. Valentina sat apart from the others, her arms wrapped around her knees, her designer pajamas stained with mud and grief. Marlene stared at the fire without blinking, her pearls clutched in her fist like a rosary.

Susan saw Ez coming and ran to her. She wrapped her arms around her, holding her tight.

"I am sorry," Susan whispered. "I am so sorry."

Ez buried her face in Susan's neck and let herself cry. It was the first time Susan had seen her break, the first time the armor had cracked enough to let the pain out.

"She chose to die," Ez said, her voice muffled. "She chose it. And I could not stop her."

"Some people cannot be saved," Susan said softly. "No matter how much we want to save them."

Ez pulled back, her eyes red and swollen. "I do not want to lose anyone else. I cannot lose you."

"You will not." Susan cupped her face. "I am not going anywhere."

Ez kissed her then, a desperate, clinging kiss that tasted of salt and grief. Susan kissed her back, holding her close, letting her know that she was not alone.

---

Priya gathered everyone around the fire. Her voice was calm, but her eyes told a different story. Beatrice was dead. They had failed her. They could not fail each other.

"We need to search the island tomorrow," Priya said. "We need to find fresh water, food, shelter. We need to find a way off this rock."

Marlene looked up, her eyes calculating. "And if we find something we are not supposed to?"

Priya's expression did not change. "Then we deal with it."

Valentina shifted uncomfortably in the shadows. Her fingers twitched toward the cave entrance she had discovered. She said nothing.

Susan watched her, suspicion gnawing at her gut. Valentina knew something. She was hiding something. Susan made a mental note to keep an eye on her.

---

That night, Susan and Ez lay together in their hollow, wrapped in each other's arms. The jungle hummed around them, alive with sounds that had become almost familiar. The stars peeked through the canopy, distant and indifferent.

"I keep thinking about her," Ez said. "Beatrice. I keep thinking about the way she looked at the end. Peaceful. Like she was finally free."

Susan kissed her forehead. "She is free now. That is what matters."

"I know." Ez pulled her closer. "But I am not ready to let go of this. Of you."

"You do not have to." Susan turned to face her. "I am not going anywhere. I am staying right here, with you."

Ez kissed her, slow and deep. "I love you," she said. "I love you so much it scares me."

Susan smiled. "Good. Because I love you too."

Ez's hands found Susan's hips, pulling her closer. "Show me," she whispered. "Show me how much you love me."

Susan kissed her, deep and demanding. Her fingers tangled in Ez's hair, pulling her closer. She kissed her way down Ez's body, her tongue tracing the curve of her breast, the dip of her stomach.

"Ez," Susan breathed. "I need you."

"Then take me."

Susan's hand slid between Ez's thighs. She found her wet and ready, her thumb circling her c**t. Ez gasped, her hips bucking.

"Look at me," Susan commanded. "Look at me when you come."

Ez's eyes met hers, dark with desire. Susan slipped two fingers inside her, curling them against that perfect spot. Ez cried out, her body arching.

"I love you," Susan whispered. "I love you so much."

"I love you too," Ez gasped. "Do not stop."

Susan did not stop. She moved her fingers faster, her thumb pressing against Ez's c**t. Ez shattered, her body convulsing, her release crashing over her.

Susan gentled her with soft kisses until she was spent.

"My turn," Ez whispered.

She pushed Susan onto her back and kissed her way down her body. She pressed her mouth between Susan's thighs and Susan gasped, her body arching. Ez laved her with long, flat strokes, her fingers pushing inside her.

"I love you," Ez whispered against her skin. "I love you so much."

Susan's breath came in ragged gasps. "Ez"

"Let go," Ez commanded. "Let go for me."

Susan shattered. Her body convulsed, her release crashing over her in waves. Ez gentled her with soft kisses until she was trembling.

They lay together, tangled in each other.

"I love you," Susan whispered.

Ez kissed her forehead. "I love you too. Forever and always."