Chapter 5:Embracing Sorrows
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Sonias pov
The truth was now clear into my ears and my heart .Josh did not actually care for me .He had missed school just to have fun with someone else .The weight of the situation weighed heavily on my heart.The gentle breeze brushed against my face,carrying with it the scent of the nearby sea.The sound of waves crashing against the shore provided a soothing backdrops of my thoughts ,but it could not drown out the cries of my wounded heart .
Next solution was not to knock on that door but walk away as I was just an option to Josh .As I headed home ,each step felt heavier than the last as I replayed the conversation and laughter that I overheard from Joshs Window .
"F**k me baby ...
Yeah....ah ...ah ..."
So sweet....."
Deep pounding sounds were evident into my ears ,and now I could not get them off my head .I would have been intrested in listening to them f**k, if only I wasnt being betrayed by someone I deeply love . "Or what is love ...?Is it not giving someone your entire heart and trusting him ...?"I questioned. The betrayal cut deep,leaving me with a mix of anger ,sadness and confusion .How could someone I trusted so deeply hurt me like this ?
The walking distance became longer as the nature around me seemed to mirror my emotions ..The sky ,once a vibrant blue ,now appeared gray and clouded,as if reflecting the storm brewing within me .The cries of seagulls overhead seemed to echo my own internal turmoil .
As I arrived home,I found my mom bustling around,as always ,immersed in her nerve-ending list of chores .She looked up in a suprise ,Wondering why I was home earlier than usual .
"Sonia....".she called .
"Hello.. Maa good evening .."I asked her as I looked away to avoid her noticing my dull face .
"Today you are too early ....
Or you did not have important meeting with your boyfriend ??"she teased me with a mischievous smile .
Little did she know the storm that had recently unfolded in my heart,for i had not shared with her what had transpired.
"Noo...Josh did not come to school today ..."I answered her
"Whats wrong with him,have you passed by to ask him...?"She bodly asked .
"I will text him "I said as I headed to my room just to avoid that topic .
As I sat on my bed,the silence enveloped me,providing a temporary respite from the chaos of the outside world .I just wanted to be alone in my thoughts and i needed to process it all.
"Supper is ready Sonia come out...."my mom called .
I could not bring my self to the table .The pain I felt was too raw ,too overwhelming .I could not bear the thought of pretending everything was okay when it clearly not .The door opened and there stood my mom.
"Is everything okay ...?why are you in tears ?
why are you still on your closed shoes?"Rhetorical questions from her made me weak.
She went out and called my dad and i could not help it but just cry without saying a word .
"Go to bed we will talk tommorow ..."My dad stated after so many unanswered questions .
The night seemed diffrent ,almost as if the nature itself was aware of my sorrows.The usual sounds of chirping birds and rustling leaves felt distant and muted .The moonlight cast a glow,mirroring the emotions that swirled within me .
Unable to contain my anguish any longer ,I buried my face in my pillow and let tears flow freely .Each sob cried with a mix of hearbreak,dissapointment and anger .The pillow absorbed my cries ,offering a small comfort in the midst of my pain .I kew the journey of healing would take time.It was a cathartic experience ,a neccesary step towards healing and finding the strength to move forward .
No sooner had I gathered the energy to stand and switch off the lights than a message notification popped .I quickly wiped my tears and grabbed the phone thinking that Rose had texted .To my suprise it was Josh the cheating boyfriend.
"Hey babe..,im sorry I missed your calls today .I was busy and I could not make it to school today.
I am hoping to see you soon "
Wait what!!!so Josh had the audacity to lie to me ?!How could I even be so blind to see this signs ?I had opened up my soul ,barried my deepest fears and desires ,all in the name of Love.It was painful to realize that those moments were built on a foundation of lies an deceit.What could I even reply him .Of course I understood that he was busy .Busy F**king another girl .A girl who im sure had the same body parts as me .Or what could be different ? .
Sorrows sorrows indeed .!!!
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