Forced to hurt you

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Eva´s POV

"H-Her name?" I asked, feeling a little bit suspicious about it.

"Let's just dance now." He pulled me closer from my waist and placed my hand on his chest, resting his head against mine.

I felt his heart beating crazily, making me more confused. Why is his heart beating so fast for a stranger?

"You don't need that short dress to look the prettiest and sexiest from all of them. You are the only one, who wore a short dress again. Are you aware of this?" He whispered into my ear and I raised my brows. Really?

"Look around you." He said as if he read my mind. I looked around and yes, he was right. I was the only one.

"How many times did I tell you that you didn't need to wear short dresses to make them turn their heads for you? To make all around you attracted to you?" He suddenly asked, his eyes still showing so much sadness and regret, but most of all ... love.

I was speechless. He made me speechless. He knows me. He seems to know me very well and even my weaknesses. But why is he acting like he doesn't? Just who is he?

But what if I am over-reacting? Maybe he imagines me in her place and I don't mind, but still. Something about him makes my heart beat faster than usual. Or am I sick? Is it healthy for a heart to beat that fast for someone you just met? Who's the face you can't see, but only his eyes and lips? Although his lips and eyes are enough to make you from the most powerful, to the weakest person in the whole world. His scent drives me crazy. It's so sweet, but yet so strong and manly, it calms me. I feel so lost in his dark brown eyes, why is that? His strong arms holding me and leading me, his warmth ... just everything seems and feels so similar.

Scary. It's scaring me.

Moving with the music perfectly in sync, he pulled me closer. Our bodies were so close and just when I thought that it will be impossible to be more close than we already were, he pulled me, even more close to him. Like... he will lose me if I am not near and that close to him. Feeling the warmth of his hands, body, and eyes, I felt like I was home. It felt so good and so right. I won't ever regret dancing with this mysterious guy.

Or forget.

And just then, the song stopped, meaning I will have to move to the other guy. I was about to let go off his hand and move to the other guy, but he suddenly placed his hand behind my neck and leaned in, kissing my cheek.

I won't survive in this state.

"Don't leave me. Ever again. Just a little bit. Just stay with me and dance with me. Only one more song and it will be enough for me." He whispered against my lips and kissed my other cheek. I feel like I am somewhere in heaven. But all of this ...everything is suspicious.

"Uhm ... excuse me? You have to move to the other guy. He is waiting for you." A brown haired girl said as she crossed her arms, he glared at her.

"Just go and dance with him. Or do you want trouble? Come on, go to him." He pointed at the guy with his eyes and her scoffed, heading to him and I laughed at this.

"Smells like a heartbreaker." I laughed and he also started to laugh softly.

It didn't take long for the 2nd song to end. Without us noticing, neither caring. We didn't change partners. Again. Instead, he held my hand and now led me to the middle of the circle.

Suddenly, everyone looked at us and stopped dancing. It was like we were the highlight of this party. They moved away just like that. Only looking at us, how we were dancing together. As if we knew each other and were a couple.

But we are strangers. Completely strangers.

His both arms around my waist, his eyes not leaving mine. I slowly placed my arms around his neck. He turned me around a few times, making me smile from pure happiness.

And here I am, looking like the happiest girl in the world. In his arms.

In a stranger's arms. While dancing and looking at his dark brown, mysterious, beautiful and shining eyes. Am I falling for a stranger? Was he the one I talked about? Maybe I was right when I said that someone already owned my heart. Even if the one, was a stranger.

Maybe I knew him. Maybe he was a part of my past. Well, that's what I hope, believe and think.

In the other side, I am over-reacting again. It's only a dance. I will probably not meet him ever again.

Just why don't they say anything now? My devil and my angel? Why are they suddenly so quiet? Both are a part of me. My good and my bad side.

In his arms, I feel so safe, but yet so in danger. I feel so happy, but yet so sad. And I feel powerful in his arms, but yet so weak.

His eyes slowly leaving mine, now looking down at my lips. I swallowed hard when I saw the way he looked at my lips and when I felt his face coming closer. I felt like my heart was about to explode, I started to blush when his lips were only cm's far from mine. Only the thought of feeling his lips awakens something strange in me.

Damn you, hormones.

And just when I closed my eyes, I heard Aiden's voice from the earphone.

Aiden: "Eva, he is coming." I opened my eyes and saw him, the masked boy smirking.

"Seems like someone interrupted us." He smiled bitterly and my eyes widen.

How did he know? Did he saw the small earphone in my right ear? Or maybe heard Aiden´s voice? No, both are creepy.

I quickly pulled myself from him and sighed. "It was nice dancing with you," I said and took off my mask. I need to attract Andreas without wearing that black mask.

"You've changed ... I wonder why." Was the only thing I heard before walking away from him and headed to the bar.

I glanced at the dance circle again but didn't saw him. He was nowhere to see. He disappeared just like that.

I looked at the entrance and smirked when I saw the guy, Andreas Baker entering without a mask. Well, I thought everyone had to wear one, but it looks like not the one who did and planned this party. Even with 5 people around him, talking to him. He still glanced at me from time to time with a smirk on his beautiful face.

Bastard.

But everything was ruined and I lost all of my confidence, because of a blonde girl. She linked her arms with his and kissed him on the lips. They then left together just like that.

Mission: clearly ... failed.

Aiden: "Why is he leaving with a blonde girl, Eva?" I heard Aiden asking and started to get annoyed by this.

I took my phone out and decided to just call him because he can't hear my voice. Only I can. Why the hell did Aiden not give me a kind of microphone, so that I can communicate with him? Now everything is ruined. He knew how important all of this was for me. He knew how serious I was when I already planned Andreas´s death.

I called him and then left outside. Since this jerk decided to stay in his damn car and put only 1 f*****g camera! And that at the entrance! I feel great and relieved that he didn't see me dancing with the other guy, but still. Why did he wear a damn suit when he didn't even come with me?

This i***t is so stupid!

I was in the garden and started to walk around while messing my hair up from frustration. Aiden picked up.

Aiden: "EVA. I forgot to tell you that he is dating an actress."

"Are you f*****g kidding me, Aiden? Now what?! How am I supposed to beat him up and force him to say who's with him?" I let my anger out and Aiden sighed. Of course, I was mad!

Aiden: "Calm down first and don't raise your voice to me! I just looked through his schedule and found out that there will be a ball next week on Friday. And this time, I will make sure that his girlfriend won't attend it." He calmly said. But I heard his voice. He was frustrated and furious about it too. But next week? And how will he stop her from coming?

Just when I was about to let my whole anger out, in a blink, all of a sudden I got pinned against a tree. My eyes widen when I saw the same guy I danced with, looking at me with such a cold, but yet begging face.

Again, those dark brown eyes...

"Look. I know you're gonna slap me or even kill me after I do this to you, but forgive me. I need help." He said and I looked with a confused face at him.

What is wrong with him?

"Why? Wait! What?" I asked.

"Do you see the guys with guns behind me, running and looking for someone?" He asked me and I looked behind him. I saw 3 of them with guns and it looked like they were looking for someone. That someone must've escaped. And that someone must be the guy, who just pinned me against this tree.

"I don't have time to explain now. But I am sorry." He suddenly started to kiss and suck on my neck so hungrily, making me gasp.

And I tell you ... I FREAKING WASN'T PREPARED!

AT ALL!

His hands on my waist, slowly going down till they...yup.

MY INNOCENT ASS! (Which is maybe not my real one tho. Not mine. There really is a chance that it's not mine ... that makes me so sad. I am gonna cry.)

Half of me wanted all of this to stop. But half of me wanted him to continue. It's a 50/50 situation. My angel and devil didn't help me either.

He pushed himself against me and his lips were slowly up till he reached my jaw and started to leave soft kisses there.

I looked behind him and saw them now coming our way. Oh no, I have to focus! What if they kill him and I ruin this now too? I have to just ...

HOW DO I EVEN KISS? HOLY s**t!

He suddenly lifts me up and squeezes my ass. Now his lips smashed lustfully on mine. His lips felt so good and the kiss was just...wow. He definitely was a good kisser.

I opened my eyes and looked behind him again, now they hesitated if they should come or not. If they mistook the guy. Of course, everyone would look away if they see a couple making out, although they are not aware that they maybe are strangers to each other.

He was good at acting, but I wasn't.

That's why I had to play along, too.

I quickly wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck, pulling him closer and giving all of me. He pushed himself even more between my legs and it felt really weird. Why? Because I felt his ... ugh. Nevermind! I'll never wear a short dress without a pantie.

"Are they still there?" He asked as he pulled back from the kiss and started to kiss my cheeks instead and suck roughly on my neck.

"They left a long time ago. But I didn't want you to stop." I smirked before kissing his lips again and biting on his lower lip, he groaned at that and it got hotter. It heated up.

We kissed each other with so much despair and lust. Our lips started to move slower. His tongue caressing gently my lower lip until I parted my lips. I moaned softly when the kiss started to become deeper. I tilted my head to the side as I grabbed his soft hair and pulled him closer to deepen the kiss even more.

"Eva?"

After hearing Aiden´s voice I quickly pulled back, hitting my head against the tree so hard that my vision started to blur, hearing only an -pop- sound.

The masked boy held me tighter when he felt me starting to get weak in his arms. My head started to ache, but why? I took the pills. I am fine. Why does it hurt? Oh, right. Because of that damn tree.

But then I remembered something.

"Yes, we agree to marry our daughter to your son Mr. Collin. In the end, the kids promised it to each other." My dad said. I saw them hugging. My dad smiled at me and so did Mr. Collin.

Behind Mr. Collin was a boy. And after seeing that boy, I started to smile and hugged him.

"James!!!" I was so happy and he hugged me back.

"My dad said that you'll be mine after we grow up." He giggled and that giggle ... I heard it before.

"Yes James. She is promised to be yours." My dad laughed with his dad.

We were just kids when we fell in love. Not knowing what it was.

-

I found myself waking up with a painful headache. I felt someone holding my hand and saw Aiden sleeping beside me while holding it.

I blushed at how close he was, too close honestly.

But then I remembered what happened. And I am sure that Aiden will scold me and that he's mad at me. I gasped when he opened his eyes and directly looked into mines.

That scared me.

"You are awake." His gaze was so crazy when he said it.

"What happened after ..." How do I end my question? This is embarrassing and kinda awkward.

"After you kissed that guy?" He asked and I stood up with my upper body. Meanwhile, he stood up from my bed and looked down at me with crossed arms.

"What?" I rolled my eyes. I mean, does he want to act like a dad, who's about to scold his child? Hell no. He is Aiden. And Aiden is only helping me to take my revenge.

That's it.

"It was just a kiss," I whined and he sat on my bed next to me, looking so angrily at me.

"Are you aware of whom you kissed, Eva? Who the guy was? Do you know him? Do you know his name?" He asked me and he was right. I should've asked who he was and about his name. Why was I so stupid and naive?

Devil:

'Great. I knew that you were stupid, but not that stupid. Your level is unreachable.'

My devil spoke and I seriously need my angel to say something.

Angel:

'Forget it. The guy was so cute and so soft. Who wouldn't kiss him and dance with him? You made the right choice.'

Thank God. She spoke.

"Then I can take it as a no, I guess. Then why the hell did you kiss him, Eva? In front of me?" He asked and I closed my eyes while I avoided his powerful gaze. Aiden sighed.

He knew that I am not going to answer. I couldn't answer, because I also had no clue why. I tried to help that guy. But why did I had to continue with the act when the guys, who were looking for him left? I felt the need to continue. I needed to kiss him even after they left. I didn't care about them at all.

Reason: Unknown ... again.

Devil:

'Reason: You're an idiot.'

Oh, shut up!

Angel:

'I think the reason was love.'

You also shut up! Why were you both so quiet when it happened? Why are you so loud now when I don't need you?

... no answer. Weird.

"Let's forget about that and think about the ball. It's going to be next Friday. And I am honestly not mad, because I will have time to teach you some things by then. And you definitely need a lesson." He said in a deep tone while pouting at me and I looked at him

"Aiden, how did they allow me to enter inside that party today?" I asked and saw his eyes widening. I am right, right? How did they allow me to enter inside just like that?

"Just rest now." And with that, he left without looking back.

Leaving me here alone. He knew how scared I am when I spend the night alone. He always sleeps beside me, because I sometimes had nightmares and scream, shout, hurt myself in my sleep and hit everything around me.

Trauma? I guess that's what you can call it. Maybe it's something else.

But now thinking about the guy ... it wasn't just a kiss. I saw his eyes while he kissed me. They were teary. He was holding his tears so hard.

And they were light brown...(!)

After I hit my head against that tree, I remembered something. Clearly, it was something very important and a part of my past. My dad promised to a boy that I will be his. Not only to the boy but even to his dad. He promised them that I will be his. And I was so happy about it. So, I don't have to worry about it.

His name ... was it James? And his dad ... Mr. Collin. So his full name is James Collin.

But I have so many questions and I am trying so hard to find the answers. I want to remember. Gosh, I want to remember my past so much. I started to cry silently. The fear of not remembering anything grew bigger and bigger inside me. I felt like I was a nobody in this world.

In this God damn cruel world.

I just hope so hard, that I'll meet the boy I am promised someday and I am sure that he'll answer the questions I have now. Since Aiden doesn't have an answer to all my questions, to every question of mine.

What happened between me and the masked boy was a dream. It was just a dream. I feel like I woke up now. But why? I didn't allow anyone to wake me up from this dream. I wanted to keep dreaming about his eyes, lips, soft hair and about his warm body. About his scent and the way, his arms felt around my waist.

I covered my face. I didn't want Aiden to hear me crying. But I needed to cry. To scream. To shout. To let everything out. I am a pain for him. For Aiden. I just want to sleep and never wake up. All this ... my parents and brother. I want everything back. This ... this now is a nightmare. I want to wake up from this nightmare as soon as possible.

"Please. Someone ... wake me up from this nightmare. God, please. I wanna wake up." I started to pray, hoping that God will hear and help me.

But I was helpless.

Aiden's POV

I heard her.

Although she wanted me to not hear her sobs. I heard them. And I feel my heart breaking.

She is a strong girl. She may look like someone, who's joking a lot and laughs all the time. But I know her better. She cries every night, even when I sleep beside her. When she sees me sleeping, she turns around and covers her whole body and even her head with her blanket. She then cries silently. She's in pain. She's in pain, because of me.

Because of the lies. Because of her un-realistic imaginations.

There's a reason why I couldn't sleep beside her today and why I couldn't answer her question. And I fear so much that she'll find the reason too soon. Very soon. Everything was going great. Until he came again. But how could he come to that party? Andreas didn't invite him. He wouldn't even dare to invite him. And if Andreas had seen him, he could kill him anytime or if him bodyguards saw him.

Was he may be aware of her being there?

Eva´s POV, 3 days later.

Well, who could've guessed ... this i***t can box. I am ... impressed.

I mean he just...

Damn, Aiden Smith. You look like a meal-

OK! I HAVE TO FOCUS!

And I was wearing something this jerk gave me to wear.

I sometimes think that he is perverted. And I don't mind wearing it. I look damn good with it.

There was a quote I read yesterday on sss: Show what you have, because God gifted you with that. So bless their eyes with what you have and walk confidently with your head

Just joking. It came naturally from my head. I mean ... c'mon. A quote? That kind of quote? And that on sss?

Who would be so stupid to believe it?

And I know. God did gift me with a lot of things and I really am thankful to him. But my body is not really maybe mine. I feel bad for the skin. It hurt when they had to put another spin on my burned one. Well, they removed the burned one and replaced it with a healthy one. Sounds disgusting. And it was disgusting. But it feels...fake. it feels unreal. The pain felt unreal.

But now that almost 3 months passed, I got used to all of it. It doesn't hurt anymore like it did in the first weeks.

And now standing in front of him, face to face ... I realized how mad I am at him. He left me to sleep alone for 3 days.

I hate you, Aiden Smith.

The worst part is that he didn't even talk to me. I don't get it. He even left to somewhere from time to time. I had to cook for myself. It was a problem for me. I know how to cook. His mom taught me when I-

What? Who's a mom? What the hell am I talking?

But maybe Aiden was scared of the questions I needed to ask him for sure. But I don't care and think any more about those. I only care and think about the revenge now.

After glaring at each other for ... 15 secs? Well, I dunno. I forgot everything when he walked closer to me and stood there.

"Look, Eva. I am sorry for ignoring and avoiding you. But I had to meet with Andreas's girlfriend and deal with her." He said and I raised my eyebrows ... how even? He ... now for real?

"Of course after I took care of her, she broke up with Andreas and so did I broke up with her after that. It looked like Andreas didn't even care about her, because he didn't fight for her." He laughed and I smiled at him, hitting his shoulder jokingly.

"Well, now she is not in our way. We can r**e and then kill that potato!" I laughed loudly and he suddenly stopped laughing and looked with a blank expression at me.

"r**e? Are you crazy? I told you that you will not kill him, yet. Also not r**e him! You're really scary." He covered his chest and I looked confused at him.

Why covering?

But then I realized why that's when I burst in laughter and cleared my throat.

"I never am gonna r**e you. Don't worry. You are too innocent. And I am really not interested in you." I winked at him and he gulped, but I saw how his expression changed when I said that I am not interested in him.

"Anyways! We will have to look for the real killer, Eva. And he is not the killer, I looked through that. I mean, I hacked some things." He winked playfully and I let out an "Oh!", signaling him that I understood ... probably most of all.

"Now ... are you ready?"

Before I could ask for what, he grabbed my wrist roughly and pulled me toward him and in one blink, I was already laying on the floor. He was above me and trapped me with his knees, my arms pinned above my head and I started to breathe heavily. I wasn't ready, neither prepared for that.

Damn, Aiden.

"Woohouuu, I am definitely good." He was proud of himself. Seems like he forgot about my...

"Holy s**t!" Yeah, your jams.

I turned him over and now I was above him. I did the same. I trapped him between my legs and pinned his arms above his head. He gasped so dramatically and continued making choking noises, this making me laugh softly.

I ... punched him.

Well, you see ... my hand just slipped.

And I didn't want to punch him, but as I said ... I don't even know why my hand did it on its own.

He started to laugh from pain and there it goes again ... his nose started bleeding. Again. I gulped. Not because I was afraid of what he'll do or I'll do next. But I realized that I was on top of him. Just exactly ... ugh! What the tomato is this position?

I quickly stood up and he stood with his body a little bit up, tilting his head to the back so that the bleeding will stop. This sucks. I really am stupid.

"I will never try again with you. NEVER!" He glared at me and I ruffled my hair out of frustration.

"Look, Aiden sweetie. It wasn't my fault! Just scold my damn hand!" I whined and he rolled his eyes, stood up and walked dangerously to me.

"That's why I told you to control your damn strength! I told you that you used to be a street fighter and the best one on top of that. No one could tell that you were a girl." He yelled as he pushed me against the wall and punched the wall just cm's away from my face, next to my left ear.

I closed my eyes from fear and I was scared of him. For the first time, I was so scared of him. Even my heart started to race from fear. My breathing fastening as my lips and body started to tremble.

And this was so familiar.

When I opened my eyes, he saw the fear in them and backed.

"Stupid Eva...Look at what you're changing me into. You're turning me to someone, I was afraid of becoming again." And with that, he ran away.

"And what about the gun lesson, Aiden? ... I am sorry." Tears slowly forming in my eyes when I realized that I really am different. How will I control and handle my strength?

Am I even able to do so?